2/203: I Was Only Dreaming
Stayed at Ashley's house again last night, didn't feel like driving home late in the rain. We watched The Other Guys, but I feel asleep before the end... and you know, I'd really appreciate it if you stayed out of my dreams, Farm Boy. I know it's my fault that you're in my dreams because I keep thinking about you, but I am going to blame you anyway. Just get out of my head and out of my dreams, please.
I feel alone and I don't want to feel that way.
I want to sleep with somebody else again.
I want to love somebody.
But at the same time, I wish I didn't want to love
Because why love when you always get hurt in the end.
There's that wonderful high, but it never lasts.
Whether it's a few months, a few years, or a few decades
It always goes away
And then the arguments start and you wonder is this worth it anymore?
You realize it's not and that's the end of that.
And here you are again, taking longer to move on than the love was itself
You care too much.