not feeling the whole "being awake" thing today. sluggish. exhausted. moody. I didn't get that job after all (a series of stupid fucking events and seriously bad luck).
trying so hard to make a change and I'm trying to claw my way out of this hole and I keep getting yanked back 3 inches for every half inch progress I make.
now if I could just get the motivation to take myself to the gym, at least I could get high on those endorphins and perhaps feel better for a little while.