This is how I feel making portraits these days, even of people I know well. As if what I'm doing is simply black dots on black construction paper when what I really need to do is pay more attention though I already pay too much. It is not enough:
"At present I absolutely want to paint a starry sky. It often seems to me that night is still more richly coloured than the day; having hues of the most intense violets, blues and greens. If only you pay attention to it you will see that certain stars are lemon-yellow, others pink or a green, blue and forget-me-not brilliance. And without my expatiating on this theme it is obvious that putting little white dots on the blue-black is not enough to paint a starry sky."
- Vincent van Gogh