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I had so much fun taking loads of photos of Luna and Binky running around over the field yesterday. This was my favourite of Binky with all 4 feet off the ground (don't believe what you hear about pugs being fat and lazy, it's all lies!! heehee)

 

The sun was shining and although a bit on the chilly side we had a fab time. What a difference a bit of sunshine can make! I hope you are all well and nearly ready for Christmas! I wish you all a very happy and healthy Christmas and New Year! xxxx

It can be hard work being Fat Cat

Decent picture after a long while.

I'm actually liking this.

And sorry for being fat.

 

(20/200)

HOME ALONE >>>> cranking up the heat and exposing ones self...but its never the same as when your actually there.. is it ??well im leaving this one on! i have deleated so many... but i need this for the record! plus to give my self a f**king food belly laugh

   

its freezing cold out side... its dull dark and miserable out.... i have cranked up the heat... dragged all the summer clothes out of moth balls.... its that time again! .... with corn beef legs and unwashed hair i endever to choose something to wear for my holiday.... its gonna be hot and its gonna be steamy... just how i like it...

seems when using the remote i forget to enjoy smiling ! ... funny that...

so best foot forward... here's a snippet of what i can choose from, i still have the same amout again, plus swim wear ... just not ready to go there... maybe candytangerine should have got another spray tan,,,,i like to travel quite light and will choose the stuff thats goning to go the distance, i tend to eat well on holiday so i need a few bits i can expand in to !

funny thng is i have dropped around 2 stone since october last yr. but i doen seem to create a different look... its only when i put on the tight stuff that clings there loos a difference ... but cant cope with seaing the wobbly bits that i still have....

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Homage to legendary director, Ridley Scott, his the 80's film, (The first) Blade Runner.

Ahead of it's time, it's a futuristic dripping with atmosphere take on 40's-50's film noir.

 

Introduced were robotic creatures called 'replicants', incredibly beautiful to look at,. they were model like lethal assassins.

Killer beauty more or less.

Remember, this was before 'booty' was in vogue (aka being fat is ok) Sorry, just an excuse to eat more.

These women were 6ft tall BEFORE platforms , not an ounce of fat on their bodies. Perfection .

 

Not capable of emotion , except for one replicant that was an anomaly....And wouldn't you know our hero found her. Not a forever good thing, but in the moment? A beautiful thing for both of them.

So very ahead of it's time, buy this movie on DVD.

It's well worth it.

Put it this way there 'd be no nonsense like Westworld on HBO if not for this movie. And after watching that existentialist series and make sense of it ( I don't have the time) I'll take Blade Runner any day !

(the best movie since is Mad Max Fury Road)

- "Off-Line" x Tim Yung - Nasa Phones

This set of phones comes in 8 different cases, 2 being fat pack only.

Available at Galleria Mall.

 

- HAVOC Bucket Hat available at @happycakedayforever

Hat comes in 12 colors and 3 texture options, watermelon texture comes is a fatpack exclusive.

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www.youtube.com/watch?v=6B26asyGKDo

 

I shot this for Noah because Noah may or may not have been selected by an unnamed Magazine as one of the world's 100 awesomest something or others that might rhyme with "dweeb" and he needed a picture but they probably won't use it because it doesn't look like how he looks in his famous YouTube video . We'll see.

 

oh yeah and he made a photo of me too and i really like it because A. he is talented and B. it's my first real photo since I stopped being fat.

 

How To Blow Off RockStars, A Famous Dude Named Jim & Filming Donny Osmond Do His Best Impersonation of Me

 

If you ain't a member or you ain't signed in with your "Safe Search" OFF , then you ain't seein what you oughtta. Take the appropriate measures or don't.

 

or you could just use this Guest Pass

Her I am being Fat and Sassy, well more fat!

EDIT~~~ This has gotten over 10, 000 views, and i wanted to bump it up and say thanks for all the comments and the views, and lets hope out of the almost 11,000 views, at least one person got some useful helpful information and maybe just maybe iot helped save someone.

I wanted these to be seen, especially this one. I didn't get any further than here with them, but almost 11,000 views is pretty good i think.

So yeah, again, thanks!

 

Now back to your regularly scheduled programing. I figured it was ok to bump this in front of today's 365 shot because it sucks so bad. LOL!

 

*** please please read the statistics i included. They are heart breaking, scary, and have me in tears right now......

View On Black

 

Today's disorder is a very broad termed one. I am trying to go alphabetically an the only thing other than "eating disorder" that began with "e" involved feces and urine, so i stayed away from those.

 

Plus i think eating disorders are a serious serious issue that should be made aware.

Let me touch on the actual picture for a moment. i am well aware that my body looks totally deformed and ab normal... i did that with the intention of portraying how people with eating disorders usually view themselves. A deformed and distorted view of reality.

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An eating disorder is characterized by abnormal eating habits that may involve either insufficient or excessive food intake to the detriment of an individuals physical and emotional health. The causes of eating disorders are complex and not yet fully understood. Eating disorders are estimated to affect 5-10 million females and 1 million males in the United States.[1] Although not yet classified as separate disorder, binge eating disorder[2] is the most common eating disorder in the United States affecting 3.5% of females and 2% of males according to a study by Harvard affiliated McLean Hospital. Bulimia nervosa was the second most common followed by Anorexia nervosa.[3]

(source wikipedia)

 

There are some staggering stats that i want to touch on here, read them, think about them, and please please please, if you know anyone suffering from this, or you yourself are, get help, or BE help.

 

1 in 5 women struggle with an eating disorder or disordered eating.

National Institute of Mental Health's (NIMH) guide, Eating Disorders: Facts About Eating Disorders and the Search for Solutions

 

Eating Disorders affect up to 24 million Americans and 70 million individuals worldwide.

The Renfrew Center Foundation for Eating Disorders, Eating Disorders 101 Guide: A Summary of Issues, Statistics and Resources, published September 2002, revised October 2003, www.renfrew.org.

 

An estimated 10 to 15% of people with anorexia or bulimia are male.

Carlat, D.J. Camargo. Review of Bulimia in Males. American Journal of Psychiatry, 154, 1997

 

90 % of those who have eating disorders are women between the ages of 12 and 25.

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration, The Center for Mental Health Services, offices of the US Department of Health and Human Services.

 

At least 50,000 individuals will die as a direct result of an eating disorder.

 

It is estimated that currently 11% of high school students have been diagnosed with an eating disorder.

ANAD Ten Year Study. National Association of Anorexia Nervosa and Associated Disorders. www.anad.org

 

15% of young women in the US who are not diagnosed with an eating disorder display substantially disordered eating attitudes and behaviors.

Girl Power!, a public education program of the US Department of Health and Human Services.

 

A Study conducted by Cornell University found that 40% of male football players surveyed engaged in some sort of disordered eating behavior. (Newsweek, 1994)

 

The most common behavior that will lead to an eating disorder is dieting.

Natalia Zunino, Ph.D, of American Anorexia and Bulimia Association, Inc.

 

The diet and diet related industry is a 50 billion dollar a year enterprise.

Garner, D.W., Wooley, S.C. (1991), "Confronting the failure of behavioral and dietary treatments for obesity." Clinical Psychology Review, 11, pp. 727-780.

 

35% of "normal dieters" progress to pathological dieting. Of those, 20-25% progress to partial or full syndrome eating disorders.

Shisslak, C.M., Crago, M., & Estes, L.S. (1995). The spectrum of eating disturbances. International Journal of Eating Disorders, 18 (3), 209-219.

 

According to a recent study, over 1/2 the females between the ages of 18-25 would prefer to be run over by a truck then be fat, and 2/3 surveyed would rather be mean or stupid.

Gaesser, G. (1996), Big Fat Lies: The Truth About Your Weight and Your Health. New York: Fawcett Columbine.

 

51% of 9 and 10 year-old girls feel better about themselves if they are on a diet

Mellin LM, Irwin CE & Scully S: Disordered eating characteristics in girls: A survey of middle class children. Journal of the American Dietetic Association. 1992; 92:851-53

 

42% of 1st-3rd grade girls want to be thinner (Collins, 1991).

Collins M.E. (1991) Body figure and preferences among pre-adolescent children. International Journal of Eating Disorders, 199-208.

 

46% of 9-11 year-olds are "sometimes" or "very often" on diets, and 82% of their families are "sometimes" or "very often" on diets (Gustafson-Larson & Terry, 1992).

Gustafson-Larson, A., & Terry, R.D. (1992). Weight-related behaviors and concerns of fourth-grade children. Journal of the American Dietetic Association, 92, 818-822.

 

81% of 10 year olds are afraid of being fat. 51% of 9 and 10 year old girls feel better about themselves if they are on a diet.

Mellin LM, Irwin CE & Scully S: Disordered eating characteristics in girls: A survey of middle class children. Journal of the American Dietetic Association. 1992; 92:851-53.

 

Time Magazine reports that 80% of all children have been on a diet by the time that they have reached the fourth grade.

 

2 out of 5 women and 1 out of 5 men would trade 3 to 5 years of their life to achieve their goal body weight. (Rader Programs)

 

91 % of women surveyed on a college campus had attempted to control their weight through dieting, 22% dieted "often" or "always".

Kurth CL, Krahn DD, Nairn K & Drewnowski A: The severity of dieting and bingeing behaviors in college women: Interview validation of survey data. Journal of Psychiatric Research. 1995; 29(3):211-25.

 

The average woman is 5'4" and weighs 140 pounds. The average model is 5'11" and weighs 117 pounds. Most fashion models are thinner than 98% of American women.

Smolak L. (1996). National Eating Disorders Association/Next Door Neighbors puppet guide book.

 

If today's mannequins were actual human women, based on theoretical body fat percentages, they would probably cease to menstruate.

Rader Programs. www.raderprograms.com.

 

Anorexia is the 3rd most common chronic illness among adolescents.

Public Health Service's Office in Women's Health, Eating Disorder Information Sheet, 2000.

 

A young woman with anorexia is 12 times more likely to die than other women her age without anorexia.

Mortality in Anorexia Nervosa. American Journal of Psychiatry, 152(7), 1073-1074.

 

Five to ten percent of anorexics die within ten years of onset, 18-20 percent die within twenty years of onset, and only 50 percent report ever being cured.

American Psychiatric Association (1993), "Practice Guidelines for Eating Disorders." American Journal of Psychiatry, 150 (2), pp 212-228.

 

20% of people suffering from anorexia will prematurely die from complications related to their eating disorder, including suicide and heart problems.

The Renfrew Center Foundation for Eating Disorders, "Eating Disorders 101 Guide: A Summary of Issues, Statistics and Resources," published September 2002, revised October 2003, www.renfrew.org.

0.5 % - 3.7 % of females suffer from Anorexia Nervosa in their lifetime.

National Institute of Mental Health. Eating Disorders NIH Publication No. 94-3477 Rockville, MD, 1994

 

1.1 % - 4.2 % of females suffer from Bulimia Nervosa in their lifetime.

National Institute of Mental Health. Eating Disorders NIH Publication No. 94-3477 Rockville, MD, 1994

 

Up to 19% of college aged women in America are bulimic.

Rader Programs. www.raderprograms.com.

 

Bulimia often occurs in athletes such as gymnasts, wrestlers, dancers, horse jockeys, football players, and runners.

2% - 5 % of the American population experience Binge Eating Disorder. National Institute of Mental Health. Eating Disorders NIH Publication No. 94-3477 Rockville, MD, 1994

 

Men constitute 40% of those exhibiting Binge Eating Disorder.

American Psychiatric Association. Diagnostic & Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders Fourth Ed. (DSM-IV). Washington DC, 1994.

 

The onset of Binge Eating Disorder usually occurs during the late adolescence or in the early twenties.

American Psychiatric Association. Diagnostic & Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders Fourth Ed. (DSM-IV). Washington DC, 1994.

  

My recipe for the new herring, lettuce wrap, sliced radishes, creme fraiche (all locally sourced, and the creme is from raw milk too), capers and a dash of pepper. Quite excellent, though a foodist friend said this year was good but not best, possibly the herring not being fat enough was the reason for the delay of New Herring Day originally planned for the 10th.

 

August 2015 update: apparently Russ Daughters still has them but cannot sell until the FDA clears something (?)

Valentina Márquez, Venezuelan, 20 years old. She had the complex of being fat, but I succeeded that she should show that she was proud of her body. Captured at the Portal de l'Àngel, Barcelona,

 

"Being fat liberated me from all the people who judged me by my size alone. I no longer interact with people who criticized me for my weight. As an adviser for girls, self esteem is a big part. They all often tell me how beautiful *I* am!"

 

Great job, Faith. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and photos.

Cha-no-ki, 茶の木, tea tree, Camellia sinensis (Theaceae)

 

Tea, the most loved and utilized plant in Camellia family has very small and indistinctive flower. But I like this kind of small camellia (^_^) Leaves, being utilized as tea, in wild has typical fat, hard and uniquely luminescent beautiful leaves.

 

The home place is supposed to be southern part of China, but as it is cultivated since ancient, not clarified. In Japan, brought from the continent, also has been cultivated since ancient, it is often seen naturalized to be growing even in the forest. This was in a shrine grove.

 

Camellia family is unique and common group in East Asian warm temperate zone or in the East Asian tropics on high altitude warm temperate equivalent zone. And later, British, who adopted tea in their food habitat, and further utilized tea as cash crop, found its equivalent place in tropical highlands in their colonies out of tea's home land such as in India, Sri Lanka, Malaysia, or far away in Kenya.

 

Camellia family plants are mostly and typically evergreen, the leaves being fat with thick cuticle layer on upper surface. The thick cuticle layer is supposed to be adoption to low temperature in winter or in the night, and it gives high luminescence to the leaves. Seeds are rich in high quality oil. Both of Tea and Camellia (Tsubaki, Camellia japonica) are utilized for oil production.

 

In China as tea is so deeply rooted, common Camellia, which has bigger and beautiful flowers were named after tea, like 山茶, which means "mountain (or wild) tea", whereas in Japan, tea and common big flowered Camellia are recognized under different context, called Tsubaki, 椿, of which character, meaning completely different plant in China.

 

Tsukuba, Ibaraki, Japan, Dec2007

Nikon D40x Micro Nikkor 60mm

Lee was doing some work on the sunny back porch,and of course Zoey was curious.

She's no where near being fat, but when she stretches she really looks like a sausage ! :-)

Whereas having a chiseled body may be a physical ideal in the modern times, being fat was once considered a natural beauty in China. As early as Han Dynasty, the rounded figures used to be desired. And in the early to mid 1900s, when wars were fought across the nation, being fat was once considered a sign of being “well fed,” even though this notion has slowly dissipated.

 

The “Fatty” sculptural series by Chinese artist 牟柏岩 Mu Boyan (b. 1976) depicts a naked male figure in unimaginable position. Here he is seen hanging onto a ledge and would not let go. Some art critics see the figure as that of sumo wrestler, though I highly doubt that at Chinese artist would be referencing sports culture from Japan.

 

Similar to the laughing men of 岳敏君 Yue Minjun, you either love it or hate it, but the one thing you cannot do is forget about it. And in that sense it is a successful piece.

 

Truly demented. Crazyisgood. Just the kind of art I love.

 

牟柏岩 Mu Boyan (b. 1976 Yunan, China)

Dot

2013

Color on Stainless steel

142 x 37 x 42 cm

 

# 牟柏岩 Mu Boyan

b. 1976

+ 1993-1997: 中央美术学院 China Central Academy of Fine Arts

+ 1997-2002: BFA, Sculpture, China Central Academy of Fine Arts 中央美术学院雕塑系,获学士学位

+ 2002-2005: MFA, Sculpture, China Central Academy of Fine Arts 中央美术学院雕塑系,获硕士学位。

+ 2005: Teaches at China Central Academy of Fine Arts 中央美术学院

 

# Aye Gallery

Rm 601, Unit 3, Yonghe Garden, Yard 3, Dongbinhe Road, Dongcheng District

Beijing 100013

China

www.ayegallery.com/

 

# SML Data

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+ GPS: 22°16'59" N 114°10'22" E

+ Location: 香港會議展覽中心 Hong Kong Convention and Exhibition Centre (HKCEC)

+ Workflow: Lightroom 4

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+ Series: 新聞攝影 Photojournalism, SML Fine Art, Art Basel Hong Kong 2013

 

# Media Licensing

Creative Commons (CCBY) See-ming Lee 李思明 / SML Photography / SML Universe Limited

 

Sculpture by 牟柏岩 Mu Boyan (b. 1976 China): Dot (Fatty series), 2013 (Color on Stainless steel) / Aye Gallery / Art Basel Hong Kong 2013 / SML.20130523.6D.14253

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My wife loves the stewardess look. Don't care for the hair! or being fat. Thank God something fits! 101407 Barb

Original iPhone5 image and processing by me using CameraBag, Infinicam and CS5.5.

If your dog goes lame in one of his hind legs, he may have torn or ruptured his cranial cruciate ligament, or CCL – similar to the ACL in humans. This ligament connects the back of the femur (the bone above the knee) with the front of the tibia (the bone below the knee). The CCL is responsible for keeping the tibia in place beneath the femur and stabilizing the knee joint.

 

There are multiple causes of dog CCL injuries, including activity, breed, age, and obesity. Raven was over weight, so keep the weight off. Probably the main issue with humans having Knee issue too --being Fat! Plus, labs can be prone to it. We learned a big lesson. emotionally and financially. It was weeks and months before she was fully recovered. After all the bills for consultation , xray , drugs , surgery, chiropractic and water therapy -it was 10K. Worth every penny as shes giving us more time with her!! great Dog.

How The Media Confuses (READ LIES) Americans About The Most Common Ways To Die

07/09/2015 10:49 -0400

Submitted by Daniel Drew

 

The Charleston church shooting flooded newsrooms around the world. Did the killer act alone? How much did he really hate black people? Should we burn every Confederate flag in the country? When will another racist strike next? Stay tuned for more! After reading this, one would assume there was an evil Confederate in every town, ready to open fire on every family in America. The reality is much different. The greatest danger to the average American is the cheeseburger they ate for dinner last night.

 

The best visual example of the state of the media is the recent Jake Gyllenhaal movie Nightcrawler, which documents his character's freelance career as a journalist who records grisly footage of violent crimes and accidents. His boss advises him, "Think of our newscast as a screaming woman running down the street with her throat cut." One quick glance at any major news source today, and one quickly discovers this is not an exaggeration. One study from the American Public Health Association found that some homicides were more newsworthy than others. The best murders for the news involve victims who are female, children, or the elderly. Top locations are in wealthy neighborhoods. Conversely, black and hispanic victims are not as exciting, apparently. A young white woman who is murdered in Beverly Hills will be all over every newsroom in the country, but a black man who got shot up in Compton might make a footnote in the LA Times if he's lucky.

 

Aside from the grotesque moral issue of masquerading journalists using violent crime as vile entertainment, an even greater tragedy is unfolding: the inability of Americans to properly assess risk in daily life. The pandering to our lower instincts via the tabloid journalism format has left a shocking void of real information and understanding. One popular statistical website, Five Thirty Eight, has provided a refreshing source of analysis in the otherwise mathematically oblivious journalism industry. Yet even Five Thirty Eight occasionally succumbs to a generally irrelevant story selection process with articles about lottery odds and sports instead of focusing more on science, economics, and politics. The average American knows more about LeBron James than the most common ways they could die. This is a failure of the journalism industry.

 

While you may never see a story about some random fat person dying from heart disease, that is actually the most likely way for an American to die. Second place is cancer. Nothing else even comes close to these two causes. Confederate racists, rogue policemen, terrorists, white thugs, black thugs, car accidents, airplane crashes, earthquakes, tsunamis, heat waves, blizzards, tornadoes, whatever you happen to be afraid of - it doesn't come close to the danger of being fat and dying of heart disease. It's such a huge factor, there's even an investment strategy for it.

 

If the media wants to continue their daily death tolls, the responsible thing to do would be to discuss how many people died of heart disease at the end of every broadcast. Every day, 1,674 people die from heart disease. That's the equivalent of three 747 airplane crashes every single day. In 2013, 611,105 people died from heart disease, which is more than the 407,000 Americans who died in World War II. Unlike other ways to die, heart disease is preventable 90% of the time. Yet instead of worrying about how to stop being such a fatass, Americans are more concerned about Confederate flags, gun control, police brutality, and ISIS. This is not a commentary on the validity of those issues. It's just a numerical analysis on the fact that Americans are avoiding the elephant in the room - which happens to be themselves.

 

Here are the numbers from the CDC above

 

In America, you're more likely to kill yourself than be murdered. Suicide is the tenth most common way to die, and it outnumbers homicides by more than 2 to 1.

Kevin's grand nephew's comment about Vidalia being fat and Curio being short (how he justified his belief that Vidalia was Curio's mother) made me wonder how much my critters weigh now. . . one way to find out!

 

Ariel: 7.2 pounds

Cumin: 7.8 pounds

Gumbo: 11.8 pounds

Raven: 7.8 pounds

MoMo: 9.0 pounds

Vidalia: 7.8 pounds

Curio: 9.2 pounds

Grigsby: 9.0 pounds

 

Bogart: 52.8 pounds (with his braces on)

Magnus: 80+ pounds, undoubtedly (I miss that boy.)

 

Ariel has lost weight since Magnus arrived, not surprisingly.

 

Raven had lost weight compared to last year, but I fattened her back up to her usual weight. I suppose she'd be fine a little lighter, too, but I want her to have reserve in case her kidneys give her trouble.

 

Somehow, my beautiful Vidalia is anything but fat. . . nor is Curio short, but that's a different matter all together.

 

[SOOC, f/1.4, ISO 100, shutter speed 1/1000]

 

This extended "holiday" has given me a boot in the ass I really wasn't expecting to get right now. I've known for a long time that there was a high chance that my son could end up showing signs of mental illness. It runs on both sides of his family. The signs have been there since he first started talking and whenever he felt really bad about anything he told us he wanted to stab himself with a sword. I don't know what parent's blood wouldn't run cold at hearing their two year old say such a thing, but for a person who went through suicidal periods- hearing him say such things felt like being killed myself.

  

For many years people have advised me not to "project" my own issues onto him. Since I've never told him I ever wanted to kill myself I don't think I was projecting myself onto him much. For years people have said "He's so young, just wait and see." Or they've said "Oh, he's just a normal kid, they all say that kind of stuff." But when I ask directly if their kids have talked like him they have always had to admit that theirs hadn't.

  

With Max's food issues people have consistently insisted that he is just playing us for power and that we're letting him step all over us. We've known differently. People are always trying to make it our own fault or suggest that Max is just being a spoiled kid because poor kids wouldn't ever get to choose what they eat and no kid will choose to starve.

  

But as I have been trying to just watch and listen, wait and see, I have seen him develop more and more into a vibrant version of Philip and I. Most parents would be thrilled because isn't that what so many people want? Little "minnie me's"? Which I think is creepy, but who cares what I think, huh? I never looked for my kid to be exactly like me and I have always been hopeful that in many ways he would not be like me because being me has been a 39 year challenge I wouldn't dream of sticking anyone else with.

  

I honestly don't understand how I managed to talk myself into believing that I could have a baby who wouldn't get my mental illness. But, I have agreed not to sit around mourning what I can't change and feeling like a piece of shit for being selfish enough to have a child.

  

So all these years I've been trying not to jump any gun or race to consign my child to a clinical labeling. But there comes a time when a mother knows better than everyone else- besides a professional psychologist. There comes a time when a mother has seen her child suffer for long enough with something he has little control over and isn't aware of. There comes a time when it hurts too much to watch; unable to help enough, unable to ease through every minute.

  

The truth is pretty hideous: I can't do this without professional help anymore. No, that's not quite the truth that I need to put out there into the light... OK. OK.

  

Parenting has driven me to drink. Most seriously. My goal this year is to lose weight, to drink a lot less beer, and to be healthier both physically and psychologically. Which I am unable to do while my child is so challenging to raise.

  

There. It is said. The horrible ugly is said at last. Having him home so much longer than usual has highlighted some things I've been worried about but which are now so blaringly obvious that if I ignore them any longer and anything bad happens to my boy because of it I won't forgive myself later.

  

The truth is that both my husband and my son need psychological help and yet I'm the only one in the family who is medicated. But never medicated enough and the longer they go without therapy or medication the harder I drink, the less I sleep, the fatter I get. I'm not saying I don't make choices here. But I'm saying that all these choices I am making are allowing me to put off complete mental exhaustion. They are giving me some kind of mental calm that otherwise would be decimated by everyone else's panic attacks in this house.

  

I can't force Philip to get help, and anyway, neither of us have medical insurance and won't be able to afford counseling or extra meds until we do. Or until we're making a lot more money than we seem capable of.

  

Max has medical insurance, however, and so it is time to get him professional help. I have been writing this post for two days now and have wrestled with the question of putting it here on my blog. I know so many people who would think putting something so personal about their kid out there for others to read is a violation of their privacy. There is some merit in that. But this is my story too. And if there is only one thing I can teach him in this life I hope to God it will be to never be ashamed of mental illness.

  

I have decided that telling it here is better. If he's angry at me for doing it when he's older then we can fight it out. Parents who keep this kind of stuff private are rarely spared anger anyway because what I've observed about parenting is that you can never do it right. Cardinal rule: you will fuck it all up.

  

How many other parents have asked themselves the same questions I have? How many other parents have had to make choices and decisions for their children that were terrifying and wished to god it was all easier to talk about? I'm not going to hide it. Someone else out there is wishing they didn't have to feel so alone and wishes they could know what other parents are doing in the same circumstances. God knows I wish I could know more parents who have a child like mine so I can know how they survive it. So I could navigate this terrifying path with a little more light.

  

This week I begin the process of finding a proper psychologist to assess Max because I believe he suffers from OCD and generalized anxiety. I am confident that I am not going to find I'm far wrong. I knew what I suffered from before I got an official diagnosis and I also was not wrong when I guessed my own mother's diagnosis which was confirmed several months ago.

  

I have made the following list to submit to Max's doctor:

   

Fiber Texture Sensitive: he won't wear denim or any slightly stiff cotton. He prefers sweat pants or soft sporty fabrics. Is very disturbed by seams in his clothing if he can feel them.

  

Other texture sensitivities: bumps in his socks he will not tolerate. He'll try on four pairs a morning to find a pair without them. If his clothes don't hang right they will drive him crazy. Mostly he's happiest when he's just in his pajamas at home. Things itch him and hurt him and bother him that seem inconsequential to everyone else. Getting him dressed has been a nightmare since he could fight me over it at 18 months old. Hates hats because they hurt his head.

   

Food Texture Sensitive: nothing mushy, EVER. Crisp textures are the best. When anything that's supposed to be crisp goes even slightly stale he won't eat it. Doesn't like wet textures, for example: if you wash slices of peeled apples because they got crumbs on them he won't eat them. Anything that is sticky is usually despised, especially if it gets on his face, hands, or clothes. Won't eat bread that is too dry and dense nor bread that is too white and squishy.

 

Taste Sensitive: This is a constantly evolving and revolving issue which drives me to drink.* He has such an advanced sense of taste that he can tell the difference between three vanilla ice cream brands. He likes things one day (or maybe for three) and then suddenly it tastes bad. Sometimes we go through periods where everything tastes bad. If you slightly over toast anything he can taste it as burnt.

  

More taste sensitivities: he once claimed for almost two weeks that everything tasted like coffee and it was almost impossible to feed him anything. I still don't know how he knows what coffee tastes like but he says his dad gave him a sip once.

 

Foods can't touch: If there is a microscopic crumb on a piece of peeled apple, he won't eat it. If he thinks his food has come in contact with any other food, he won't eat it. Especially if he suspects that it's come in contact with any of our food. He hates sitting next to other people's food, especially if he can smell it. Won't drink water if the outside of the cup is wet. Won't eat food if there is a drop of water on the plate. Won't eat two kinds of food on the same plate or at the same time. Won't sit at a table to eat meals. Ever since he was a toddler the only way we could get him to pay attention enough to his food to eat it was to let him watch movies while he ate it so that he wasn't really paying attention to it at all.

 

Foods can't be irregular: if an apple has a speck of a brown spot on it, he won't eat it. If there are holes in his bread, he won't eat it. If his egg hangs over his toast, he won't eat it. If an egg has a crispy edge he won't eat it and shivers in repulsion. If the egg has holes in it he won't eat it. If anything doesn't look like it's the right color or the texture is off or some piece of the food is ragged he won't touch it. I once got him to eat an irregular piece of cucumber by making him close his eyes and letting me feed it to him.

 

Other red flag issues: Often demands that we wash our hands before touching his food. Although he doesn't seem overly concerned about germs in general, we were sharing a piece of ice cream pie at a restaurant and he requested his own so that he wouldn't have to worry about touching our "spit area". He won't drink water that has sat around for too long. He won't let you reuse a bowl for a snack unless you wash it first.

 

Doesn't like leaving the house: He says he doesn't like going far from the house because it isn't comfortable. He hates going downtown, out to eat, to most people's houses, to school, to take a trip (unless it's to visit his friend Sam in California), or to go to friends' houses. He prefers friends to come here. If we let him he would stay in his pajamas for weeks on end and never set foot outside.

 

Doesn't play well with others: He really freaks out when people mess with his stuff. If they mess up his "set up" of Legos he treats it like a human rights violation and his friends and family don't like that so much. If they don't play exactly as he directs them to play he freaks out and has what appears to be a panic attack. Or gets angry. And yells. He can always tell when his stuff has been messed with. He arranges everything precisely. His favorite activity every morning (when he was ten months old) was to arrange a stack of videos very neatly and precisely. It was fascinating to watch.

 

He is extremely sensitive: It is the easiest thing in the world to hurt his feelings. Try joking with him. He tries to joke with other people but generally can't tell when they are trying to joke with him and takes offense. If people tease him he takes it seriously and thinks everyone hates him and feels like a horrible outcast. His hurt feelings alternate with retaliatory feelings of revenge.

 

Not overly sensitive to others: A great combination of traits, huh? He has almost no self control when it comes to voicing his opinions and feelings which are often very honest and frank and therefore quite upsetting to everyone. He doesn't understand that this is the same thing that others do that hurt his feelings. He doesn't seem to mean to hurt people and feels bad when you call him on it but continues to say whatever is on his mind at all times.

 

Expresses himself violently: With words. If he feels bad about something he's done he expresses it by saying things like "I should just die" or "I don't even deserve to have a family" or "I'm going to kill myself" or if someone has really hurt him he says things like "I hate so-and-so and will never talk to them again..." or worse yet "If so-and-so does that to me again I will kick him in the balls". Very extreme expression. Self harm has been in his vocabulary since he could talk. He used to bite himself frequently.

 

Odd quirks: He doesn't want to throw anything away. He tries to keep all the packaging to the toys he receives, all the instructions, and even the stupid little ads they always include. He won't throw old toys away either, not even if they're broken. He revealed to me one evening that he thought all his things had feelings and would be upset if he threw them away. He also doesn't like it when I clean the house because when it's clean he's uncomfortable. When the living room is tidy he says it's too "empty" and it bothers him.

 

Physical panic: Whenever he experiences physical pain or discomfort he dives quickly into panic mode in which you can hardly help him because he has already decided nothing can help and he won't let you near, but simultaneously he is screaming that he needs help and why don't you do something?! It doesn't matter if it's something really bad (it sometimes is, like the metal in his eye, and sometimes it's not, like a mild bug bite) his reaction is generally pretty severe. Yet I have seen the kid take the most intense falls from his bike and get up without a flinch even while he's bleeding profusely from the knee.

 

The Negative spiraling: One little thing going wrong in his day or his routine can make him see his entire life as a giant black hole of pain and decide that life is impossible and he sees no choice but to give up. Talking him out of his negative state is as exhausting as it is futile. It is strong and it is real to him. He can extrapolate the miserable outcome of any experience into the worst case scenario before you can take your first swig of beer.

 

Afraid of the dark: Lots of kids are afraid of the dark. Mine is very serious about it. Needs full lights on and prefers the hall lights on as well. He suffers bad nightmares often and this doesn't help. We used to turn the lights off after he went to sleep but he would wake up in the dark and be terrified so often that we haven't dared try that for at least a year or longer. He isn't a good sleeper and never has been, although it's become easier and better over time.

 

Random texture aversions: he hates anything sticky on his skin. He has an extreme aversion to getting blood on his fingers which has been quite an inconvenience since he has a terrible problem with gushing bloody noses. He would rather let the blood drip to the floor and wait until we find him tissues than to put pressure on his nose with his own finger which inevitably gets bloody. Which he then panics about. Not too keen to play on grass. Doesn't like to be barefoot outside, ever. He also will not sleep with flannel because it freaks him out.

 

Routines: All kids seem to thrive on routines but our kid holds firm to our routines as though his life depended on everything being the same at all times, every day. He hates going to new places, especially new places to eat. He hates going to new people's houses. He has daily routines that he will go to great lengths to maintain such as- eating his dessert, then pajamas, then brushing his teeth, then snuggle time. God forbid you ask him to brush his teeth before putting his pajamas on.

 

Deep Worry: He thinks very deeply about everything and unfortunately often worries about things as well and can't let go. When we moved he was really worried about our old cat Ozark who had been buried in our old yard last February. He kept thinking about him being alone there without us and feeling sad and abandoned. He thinks about the universe- galaxies and is very concerned about how they were formed and he wants to understand everything so much and it really disturbs him to get ambiguous answers. He's worried about so many things and there just aren't enough answers.

 

Over this vacation his world has shrunk and because of being snowed in and having a negative experience with a friend at the beginning of it he has not wanted to play with any friends (we've strong armed him anyway) and all he wants to do is remain in his pajamas every single day all day, he wants both his parents to never have to work again so they can stay home with him, and he wants us to play with him. He doesn't want to go outside, play with friends, see anyone but us (and his Grandma).

 

I suddenly saw what was happening- his world just became extremely small. It is very hard to be the only companion of a child. I don't want to be playing Legos and Bionicles for the next ten years. He should be playing with other kids and doing parent/kid things with us like baking cookies, reading, going on hikes, or to the park. I asked him why he never wants to go anywhere and he told me that it's because he isn't comfortable anywhere else. If I let him he will be a confirmed agoraphobic by the time he's nine years old.

 

So few parents understand what it's like to have a child like mine, unless they have a child like mine. The pain I feel for what he goes through and how easily he is misunderstood is like having my heart broken every single day. The wedge it puts between me and other parents makes me lonely and then when I get to talk to a parent who is having similar experiences it's like getting the freshest breath of air but I also feel like I want to monopolize them and suck their energy up because I don't have any of my own anymore so sometimes I keep my distance so I don't scare them off and that's lonely too.**

 

So much good is happening right now. So many positive changes have been finally coming through and I want Max to feel them too but instead he's just getting worse and worse. So while I really want to stop drinking a six pack of beer a night so that I can stop being fat and miserable which isn't how my spirit wants to feel- I am going to have to find a way to make my parenting life a hell of a lot less stressful because I can't parent my child right now on less than six beers a night.

 

Don't any of you dare judge me unless you have gone through what I go through every day. Don't anyone dare dish me up platitudes or tell me that going to alcoholics anonymous will give me the strength to live in a house with two untreated mentally ill people because I already know it aint so. I am never drunk and am not exactly ashamed of doing what I've had to do to not kill myself at the end of the day when it's been one long stream of panic attacks from three directions.

 

Every time I think I've spilled my darkest secrets I seem to find there's more. More. And more.

 

I know what my child needs and it isn't vitamin B12 (though, with his diet it's tempting to suspect a vitamin deficiency- we keep him on a steady supply of multi vitamins usually) nor does he need some metaphysical intervention. What he needs is a professional assessment so his options can be sorted through. He needs more support than he can get from his mentally ill parents. He needs therapy and possibly medication. And if I choose to wait until he's older it could be too late.

 

So along with the rest of my life I'm trying to clean up this year this will also need addressing because it is one of the greatest sources of stress in my life and it's not one that a hot bath can make disappear. If I'm going to reach my goals this year then I have to step up to the plate and stop being afraid of saying what needs to be said, of addressing the thing that scares the goddamn crap out of me. I've listened to other people long enough.

 

I've listened to them and I've listened to Max.

 

Max is this huge light of a person who's gifts are pretty incredible. He will never be like other kids or people because he was born to lead his own brigade. But he won't be able to see or use his own gifts unless his brain is allowed to rest. The greatest way that I can show my love to this amazing child of mine is to show him how to help his brain function better, to show him that having a mental illness can be a pain in the ass but most of us people with mental illnesses are people everyone else needs. We are people who see differently and have the power to show others how to see differently too; through many mediums such as art, science, words, and music. Mental illness can uncover what lies beneath the layers of this human sheen.

 

I am scared to get him an official diagnosis but I'm even more scared of what will happen to us all if I don't.

      

*I wasn't kidding. I'm still not kidding.

  

**A couple of blog friends of mine have been so generous as to share with me their own similar challenges with their kids and I have one local friend who knows what I go through because of her own experience with similar issues and I cannot stress enough how much it means to me when someone talks to me who knows what I have gone through and helps me not feel like an asshole or a failure of a parent. You know who you are- you have made me feel so much less alone and the three of you have offered much needed balm to me- THANK YOU!

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Off-Line" Spell It Out Hairpins

This set of hairpins comes in 3 different metal colors along with 5 words / sayings per set!

 

- "Off-Line" x Tim Yung - Nasa Phones

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missy, being fat as usual

 

Takumar 50/1.4/ambient light

  

14/8/2014: hey, missy got in explore. good missy!

  

To see more of Missy the cat, follow her on facebook:

www.facebook.com/misthecat/

I do not fear the thunder, for I know the Keeper of the wind and rain

 

365 blog | Photography blog

This is more representative of Batman's true colors. She's so fat now! If you could have seen her after each clutch of eggs was laid she looked deflated, like a ball where all the air leaked out. But now a few months after she laid the last clutch she's back to being fat and happy, just a beautiful specimen of Leopard Gecko-ness!

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5 reasons why I prefer taking pictures of statues over people:

 

1. Statues never complain about being fat or ugly.

2. Statues don't complain that they don't look good on pictures.

3. Statues don't get tired.

4. Statues don't get impatient when you take the time to get the perfect shot.

5. Statues don't talk.

 

Statues rock, people suck. ;-)

Beauty, what is that?

Beautiful, what does it mean?

 

Is it a law, a dream?

 

I find myself wondering the answer for these questions, without coming to a firm conclusion.

Beauty. It's so powerful, yet thought to be delicate. I feel caged, like a slave without freedom. Just because of a word. Just one word. Why?

 

Perfect. Ethereal. Gorgeous.

 

Where I live beauty means having blue, green eyes and light hair. Being tall, thin.

Why am I, having brown eyes and dark hair, not beautiful?

Why am I, being fat and short, not beautiful?

 

Even myself I can't deny the attraction of the word. How soft, how taunting it sounds, looks, smells, feels like.

 

Like a world of madness, full of liars, of pain, of sorrow. Why do we have to suffer to be beautiful? I want to be real, to be me. To be normal, to be fierce.

Why does the world tell me if I'm beautiful or not?

Why do I have to be miserable while magazines show me perfection?

Why should I be perfect?

 

Perfection is boring. Boredom means not interesting. I want to be interesting, I want to be imperfect then!

 

I love my widely-spaced front teeth.

I love my brown eyes, my brown hair.

I love my big forehead.

My fatness.

I won't lie, I wish I was taller though.

 

Beauty is nothing and everything.

Beauty is happiness, sadness.

Beauty is life, memories.

Beauty is a tear, a smile.

Beauty is a storm, an ocean.

Beauty is music, silence.

Beauty is art.

Beauty is strange, unique

Beauty is blue, green, orange, brown, yellow, black,

white, beige, pink, red, violet, gold, silver, amber.

Big, small, short, tall, thin, giant.

Rough, soft, sharp, tender, scratchy.

  

But the most important meaning of being beautiful, is being true to yourself.

 

Cristina

"Please tell my story. As a child I always wanted to be fairy sprite at parties, but people ridiculed me for being fat. I have found new confidence and now I'm the 'heavy fairy' at parties."

 

I'm sure you can fly just as well!

Horses that suffer from eczema or skin allergy (caused by a small kind of mosquito) can sometimes be wrapped from head to toe. This is also a fly blanket to avoid them being stung again.

There are blankets in all kind of colors, but the silver blankets have the advantage to reflect the sunlight. The thing on the nose is to prevent the horse from eating too much grass, since there are horses prone to illness (except just being fat) from eating too much grass, especially in the beginning of the season when there's lots of power in the grass.

  

www.powerfocus.nl

Just bought this autographed copy

of My story by Julie Couillard - 2008

 

(former girlfriend of Maxine Bernier)

 

Maxine Bernier resigned from cabinet in 2008 only hours before Couillard described in a television interview how he had left classified briefing documents for a NATO summit at her Montreal home. After all of this Maxine and noted other

M.Ps trash Julie Couillard about her past. Sad how politicians

take no responsibilty for their mistakes especially having

N.A.T.O confidential documents in their personal possession.

  

Maxime Bernier resigns over missing documents.

May 26 and 27, 2008 - Maxime Bernier resigned as Canada's Minister of Foreign Affairs after learning his ex-girlfriend Julie Couillard would reveal he left sensitive documents at her home.

 

See story below on YouTube :

 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=tfGcybmQYKs

 

Also found this interview by George Stroumboulopoulos

questioning Maxine Bernier on his mistake of having confidential documents. Instead of just admitting mistake

he tries to smear his girlfriend again but I give credit to

interviewer for stopping him that she was not the issue.

This is about 7 minutes into the interview. See below

on YouTube.

 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTjLSHSx6Pg&t=458s

 

Maxime Bernier PC MP (born January 18, 1963) is a Canadian businessman, lawyer and politician serving as the

 

Member of Parliament (MP) for the riding of Beauce since 2006. He is the founder and current leader of the

 

People's Party of Canada (PPC).

 

Prior to entering politics, Bernier held positions in the fields of law, finance and banking. First elected to

 

the Canadian House of Commons as a Conservative, Bernier served as Minister of Industry, Minister of Foreign

 

Affairs, Minister of State for Small Business and Tourism, which later became the Minister of State for Small

 

Business and Tourism and Agriculture in the cabinet of then-Prime Minister Stephen Harper. Following the

 

Conservatives' defeat in the 2015 election, he served as opposition critic for Innovation, Science and Economic

 

Development in the shadow cabinets of Rona Ambrose and Andrew Scheer, until June 12, 2018.

 

Bernier ran for the Conservative Party leadership in the 2017 leadership election, and came in a close second

 

with over 49% of the vote in the 13th round, after leading the eventual winner, Andrew Scheer, in the first 12

 

rounds. Fifteen months later, in August 2018, Bernier resigned from the Conservative Party to create his own

 

party, citing disagreements with Scheer's leadership.[1] His new party was named the People's Party of Canada in

 

September 2018.

  

Interview Julie Couillard gave in 2008

  

JULIE COUILLARD TALKS WITH KENNETH WHYTE ABOUT HER DEAL WITH MAXIME BERNIER, HIS DISLOYALTY, AND HER RESPECT FOR

 

THE PM

OCTOBER 20 2008

'All of a sudden, I'm a biker’s chick, I'm trash. He ran the other way while I drowned.’

 

INTERVIEW

 

JULIE COUILLARD TALKS WITH KENNETH WHYTE ABOUT HER DEAL WITH MAXIME BERNIER, HIS DISLOYALTY, AND HER RESPECT FOR

 

THE PM

 

I’m going to start at the beginning of your relationship with Mr. Bernier, and that very first meeting that you

 

two had.

 

A: Well, it was actually my real estate broker that invited me to a cinq-à-sept. I had mentioned to him a couple

 

of days prior that the Conservative party had approached me to maybe present myself as an MP, which really took

 

me by surprise. But to tell you that I ever took this proposition seriously, no. Still, I was curious about it,

 

and my broker says, we’re all going for supper afterwards and, by the way, a minister is going to be there, and

 

maybe you’d like to come and pick his brains, basically, about politics and everything to do with becoming 14

 

an MP. So I said yeah. He mentioned to me it was the ministre de l’industrie—industry minister—Maxime Bernier.

 

As a joke, my broker said, “He’s pretty cute, and he’s single, so who knows?” That’s how we first met.

 

Q: In the course of the evening, Mr. Bernier got a bit forward with you.

 

A: Well, actually, that was at the beginning of the evening. We had just sat down, and he leaned forward and

 

gave me a little peck on the cheek. And some people will say, “How come you got shocked by that? Because next

 

time you saw him you guys ended up being intimate on your first official date.” It’s not the same as if you meet

 

a guy for the first time, you hit it off well, and then it’s officially a date. First of all, my brokers were

 

there. It was a business meeting. I mean, I was in a

 

suit. That’s why it was totally out of place.

 

Q: You took him outside, gave him a lecture, and said you weren’t there as a little helper.

 

A: Exactly, yeah.

 

Q: What did you mean by little helper?

 

A: Well, that was the English translation. I’m not a girl that some company will introduce you to so that,

 

basically, if you find her cute you can have your way with her. Because there were other young girls, all of a

 

sudden, that joined our table, that were not businesswomen. They were there just to party. I wanted to make it

 

clear to Maxime that, you know, you’re a very nice guy, we get along great, and you’re handsome and all, but I’m

 

calling the shots and nobody else.

 

Q: It is kind of offensive for somebody to do that at a first meeting. Why not run from him?

 

A: Well, because he was very apologetic.

 

Q: So you don’t think he mistook you for a little helper?

 

A: No, because I can be very blunt. And he was taken aback.

 

Q: It wasn’t really a business arrangement he proposed when you started to see each other steadily, but it was

 

kind of a professional arrangement, right?

 

A: No. Maxime proposed a personal relationship with a condition attached to it. That’s how, really, it was

 

presented to me. The first offer was if I wanted to become his girlfriend, and if I would be interested enough

 

to have a serious relationship with him, there were certain strings attached to the fact that he was a

 

politician and a public figure. [They would have to go out for a year.] Though I was a bit shocked in the sense

 

that it’s not the most romantic way to ask a girl to go out with you, after his explanation I had to agree with

 

him. He was a politician, he was a public figure, and it came with the territory.

 

Q: Right.

 

A: I put myself in his shoes. Sometimes you do have to compromise because of your work. And at that point in

 

time, I didn’t anticipate not getting along with Maxime.

 

Q: In My Story, you describe some behaviour on his part that wasn’t terribly impressive, his temper tantrums,

 

throwing an iron across the room, and calling you when you’re at official functions with important people,

 

summoning you from across the room in a rude way.

 

A: While I’m talking with the wife of our ambassador nonetheless, yes.

 

Q: And then there’s the fact that you found out [that there were] other women.

 

A: There’s one specific event that I found out while I was his girlfriend, the rest I found out after I was just

 

his friend.

 

Q: There’s a considerable amount of stuff like this in the book about him, and I have trouble seeing what

 

attracted you two. Did you like him?

 

A At the beginning I did. A: Well, he’s easygoing, he’s fun, you’ll enjoy a good supper with a good bottle of

 

wine. And we did have a very strong attraction for one another, and you have to understand that we had a

 

longdistance relationship. Four days out of the week Maxime was not there. Every other weekend he had his two

 

daughters. Most probably, if Maxime would have been living where Fm living, after a month or two I would have

 

said, “You know what, buddy? This is not working out.” It took me six months because he got promoted and he

 

started travelling a lot, and sometimes I wouldn’t even see him for two to three weeks, so when we finally did

 

get together it was like our first date all over again. It wasn’t easy for me to realize that he was lacking

 

depth.

 

Q: Regarding the men in your life before Maxime Bernier, Gilles Giguère was murdered, and Stéphane Sirois was

 

fairly high up in a motorcycle gang.

 

A: No, he was not.

 

Q: No? What was he?

 

A: While I was with him he was not a biker. He gave back his patch, because that was my condition. I didn’t want

 

to go out with a biker. After I divorced him he went back into that world and eventually turned into a rat.

 

Q: You’ve been left heartbroken, broke, and embarrassed by various men in your life. Do you feel you have been

 

unlucky in love?

 

A: I’ve had my unlucky strikes, I have to admit. You have to understand that I was put in a position where I had

 

no choice to write a biography to re-establish the facts and my credibility, and had I written that book at 78,

 

let’s say, there would have been a lot more happy times. At this point in time in my life I made a choice of

 

keeping the good business ventures and my happy relationships for me, for the little I had left of my private

 

life.

 

Q: So you don’t think you have a habit of picking the wrong guy?

 

A: Well, I could have a better average.

 

Q: I get a bit confused about the end of your relationship with Mr. Bernier. It was in December 2007 that you

 

sort of broke up, but you continued to see one another. You were still more than friends, though.

 

A: Yes, we were. I had nobody else in my life, so j’ai rendu le pratique agréable, I made what was practical

 

agreeable. I mentioned to Maxime in December that our relationship was not fulfilling me and that I had no time

 

to waste, at my age, and I knew that Maxime was not the guy. And to tell you the truth, Maxime agreed that it

 

was better that we remained good friends, you know? I had given

 

him my word that I would remain his official girlfriend for a year and, to tell you honestly, though you know

 

that that person is not the person of your life, you still can grow very attached. I certainly didn’t do it

 

against my own free will or all those things that people implied, that I was paid to be his escort and whatnot.

 

That’s totally ridiculous. How many people had an ex that they kept seeing until they met someone else that was

 

more interesting? I think we have all done it. So all of a sudden, because he’s a minister, there’s this hidden

 

agenda behind it.

 

Q: Everybody’s trying to impose a story on your life.

 

A: It was much simpler than that, and a

 

1 had this image of George Bush as this cold person. He had a great sense of humour. That totally threw me off.’

 

lot duller than that, if you ask me.

 

Q: Well, it’s not very dull.

 

A: Concerning my relationship with Maxime it was. Yes, fine, I did have a fiancé that got assassinated, but that

 

was 12 years ago, and yes, I ended up divorcing a guy that used to be a biker before he went out with me, or got

 

married to me, but that was 10 years ago.

 

Q: Is that one of the things that was so horrifying for you about this? Because you’ve been working, travelling

 

in different circles, and holding your own with ambassadors and important people around the world. And then all

 

of a sudden, you’re reading about yourself in the paper.

 

A: All of a sudden I’m a biker’s chick and I’m this and I’m that and I’m trash and I’m a whore and I’m possibly

 

sent by bikers. What

 

the hell? That’s 10 and 12 years ago, so what does that have to do with anything now?

 

Q: Was it necessary, in order to re-establish your reputation, to go so deeply into Mr. Bernier’s character

 

flaws and his misbehaviours?

 

A: I think that it was. When you have a team of people who work 45 hours a week to portray you and to sell your

 

image in the media, getting to know the real, true person behind this image can’t be easy. It needed to be done

 

so that people would understand not his actions, but his inaction in this circus that crashed my life. Some

 

people will say, “Yeah, well, it’s pretty harsh.” Well, I’m so sorry but his silence was basically sending a

 

message to the public that he was endorsing everything that was being said. That man knew me, he spent a year

 

with me, six months as his girlfriend, and I was good enough to remain his very good friend for another six

 

months, and he still wanted me to stick around to keep accompanying him in all his official functions, so I

 

couldn’t have been such a vulgar woman and a slut and a this and a that and a biker’s chick. Yet he let all

 

these things be said about me, and he was the politician, he was the one who had all the tools to stand up and

 

say, “Listen, now, this is not right.”

 

Q: In March of this year it broke on TV that the minister is dating a biker chick.

 

Q: May, sorry, and he went underground.

 

A: Exactly, he started acting like he never even knew me. Do you honestly think that the media, politicians,

 

[the general] population would have been the slightest [bit] interested in what Julie Couillard did in her life

 

10, 11 years ago, 12 years ago? Who gave a damn? Nobody. Everybody became interested. Why? Because I was the

 

official girlfriend of a federal cabinet minister. He ran the other way waving while I was drowning.

 

Q: What should he have done?

 

A: Well, he should have at least straightened out the facts, and right from the get-go he could have stopped

 

this then and there. He could have said that this is all a cheap way of trying to damage his reputation and

 

damage the party that was in power, and that it had nothing to do with the real issues of our society today and

 

it was just cheap politics. He had all the tools and all the people. He knew that the RCMP, the Sûreté du

 

Québec,

 

la Communauté urbaine de Montréal, all of them, [that] did investigate me back then, came to the conclusion I

 

had nothing to do with organized crime aside from the fact that I was seeing people that knew people in that

 

scene, but on a personal level, and I was not implicated in the criminal activities of any sort. This was just a

 

cheap attempt to damage our government. That’s all it was!

 

Q: In the book, Stephen Harper comes off better than pretty much anyone else you encountered in that world. You

 

were impressed with him.

 

A: Yes, I was. I have to admit that I do not have the same political views as Mr. Harper but I do have a lot of

 

respect for the man.

 

Q: George W. Bush impressed you as well.

 

A: I had this image of this cold, very restrained person, but he was such a friendly and accessible guy, and

 

very light and funny. He had a great sense of humour. That totally threw me off.

 

Q: You say in the book that you thought you let Mr. Bernier off too easily. Is there more to the story that you

 

haven’t written?

 

A: The only more would be things that I do not think are of any public interest.

 

Q: He would, when you were together, complain about Mr. Harper being fat or being controlling. Doesn’t everybody

 

complain about the boss?

 

A: Maybe. But Maxime doesn’t have just a job, he’s a politician. That’s very different. He shouldn’t have a

 

right to disrespect our Prime Minister. And what really pissed me off is that Maxime was a guy that two years

 

before wasn’t even in politics and there you go, all of a sudden, because of Mr. Harper, he ends up, hey, the

 

minister of external affairs! Come on! The man might not be perfect, we’re all perfectly unperfect, but you

 

should respect him for giving you that opportunity.

 

Q: You answered this question already about the men in your life and your batting average. Do you think it’s the

 

kind of man you’re attracted to or the kind of man who’s attracted to you?

 

A: Well, I don’t know. I know for my part my flaws are more that I see a good-looking guy and he’s a good talker

 

and he’s a lot of fun and he makes me laugh, and then I have a tendency of more dreaming an image of that

 

person, and then I fall in love with that image, but the guy I’m falling in love with does not even exist.

 

That’s what I would have to watch out for. And because, I guess, of my looks some men are attracted to me for

 

the wrong reasons, they stop at what they see instead of seeing deeper than that.

 

Q: When you were travelling with Mr. Bernier and going to official functions, you did meet some people and you

 

exchanged business cards on occasion. Did any opportunities or any doors open for you because ofthat?

 

A: I didn’t really exchange business cards at all, to tell you the truth, when I was with Maxime. I’ve had the

 

pleasure of saying, “I’ve met our ambassador in Paris.” But I was the spouse of Maxime, that’s why I was there.

 

Q: Are you working now?

 

A: Oh, no. My life totally stopped. The seventh of May everything stopped.

 

Q: What are you going to do now?

 

A: That’s a very good question. I don’t have an answer. I still have a mortgage to pay, and a car payment and so

 

on and so forth. I concentrated on re-establishing the facts and reestablishing my credibility because nobody

 

will have anything to do business-wise with me—which is totally understandable—and I do not believe that the

 

same career is ever going to pick up again.

 

Q: Real estate?

 

A: No, real estate and development. I specialized in a very narrow niche, where you always have to be in contact

 

with the municipalities, with the provincial, even the federal government. M

Friday:

 

For 27 years, or close to it at least, I've heard the same word pounded at me: FAT

 

I think it's time a few morons learn something about every "fat" person.

 

It's a WORD.

 

Three little letters.

 

The reality is very simple, and I've said it before many times:

 

Being fat doesn't make you unintelligent. It doesn't make you ugly or lazy and it certainly doesn't determine how you live your life...unless of course you let it...

 

Sometimes, I do let it run my life...I let that word, uttered from the mouths of ignorant idiots break me just a little...Then a little voice pops in my head that says "Seriously? Fat? That was the BEST you could do?"

 

And brings me to this, fat is THE word to use to hurt someone. Which in my opinion, takes away its power. If this is your big weapon from your arsenal of stupidity, then wow, you're fucked.

 

Fat is so incredibly unoriginal. It's passe. It's been around since Adam noticed Eve was retaining water and look how well that went.

 

But really, is fat the best you can do? And you really think it's going to hurt me? Coming from a slow-witted, benighted jackass, you assume this will be your big moment? Get real. I've heard it from people I thought were friends, family who believe it will "help" and ex's who also ran out anything real to say. So why would it be special coming from you?

 

How about you insult my nose for a change? What about my eyes? Ooh, or how about my black hair and small upper lip? At least then, just maybe you can come up with something a little more groundbreaking.

 

Until then, shut the fuck up and pick up a book until you can come at me with something new.

 

So, that's my resolution: To teach you morons a few insults and let your pathetic attempts at hurt me, wash off like raindrops.

 

Oh and by the way, calling someone "a skinny bitch" is just as asinine. It's all the same, and it's all stupid.

 

Happy resolutions everyone...

 

For FGR's New Year Resolution

Sofa by the trash receptacles at an apartment house. See another view in Comments.

 

Shot on my morning dog walk, a great time for seeing with greater focus.

 

OVERTURNED is the Our Daily Challenge topic for Saturday August 29th, 2015.

www.flickr.com/groups/ourdailychallenge/discuss/721576555...

 

Did you ever feel unwanted, unloved, overturned?

"Loneliness and feeling unloved TWICE as likely to kill you as being fat... as scientists warn against elderly retiring to sunnier climes. US researchers urge people to stay socially active in their old age... Feeling cut off from others can push blood pressure up into danger zone can also disrupt sleep, leaving people feeling lethargic the next day... www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2560662/Loneliness-fee...

I've lost a good deal of weight in the past few months. I doubt if you could even call me "well built" whereas five or six months ago you might have been justified in calling me portly.

 

There was a time when someone might get called plump ~ not too bad being called plump ~ especially if you're a girl with a "nice rounded figure," or they might say that you were tubby but it wasn't very nice to be called bloated, or corpulent, and if you got called oversize, elaphantine, gargantuan or even megalithic then it was impossible to get away from the intuition that someone might be getting at you because of your size.

 

All of these distinctions have been dumped today.

 

You are either obese, or clinically obese.

 

DON'T THEY THINK IT'S BAD ENOUGH BEING FAT WITHOUT INVENTING LEGAL PENALTIES?

 

I hate todays self-satisfied, judgmental Puritans.

// On Explore //

  

I'm not sure what he is worried about... his land or his family ;-)

 

Shot at Athachamayam Green room – Trippoonithura, Cochin ‘09

 

എല്ലാര്‍ക്കും എന്‍റെ ഓണശംസകള്‍

 

:)

 

Try this എന്റെ ബാല്യത്തിലെ ഓണം by SreeShobin chettan

    

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Does being fat mean being ugly as well?

Just bought this autographed copy

of My story by Julie Couillard - 2008

 

(former girlfriend of Maxine Bernier)

 

Maxine Bernier resigned from cabinet in May 2007 only hours before Couillard described in a television interview how he had left classified briefing documents for a NATO summit at her Montreal home. After all of this Maxine and noted other

M.Ps trash Julie Couillard about her past. Sad how politicians

take no responsibilty for their mistakes especially having

N.A.T.O confidential documents in their personal possession.

 

Maxime Bernier resigns over missing documents.

May 26 and 27, 2008 - Maxime Bernier resigned as Canada's Minister of Foreign Affairs after learning his ex-girlfriend Julie Couillard would reveal he left sensitive documents at her home.

 

See story below on YouTube :

 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=tfGcybmQYKs

 

Also found this interview by George Stroumboulopoulos

questioning Maxine Bernier on his mistake of having confidential documents. Instead of just admitting mistake

he tries to smear his girlfriend again but I give credit to

interviewer for stopping him that she was not the issue.

This is about 7 minutes into the interview. See below

on YouTube.

 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTjLSHSx6Pg&t=458s

 

Maxime Bernier PC MP (born January 18, 1963) is a Canadian businessman, lawyer and politician serving as the

 

Member of Parliament (MP) for the riding of Beauce since 2006. He is the founder and current leader of the

 

People's Party of Canada (PPC).

 

Prior to entering politics, Bernier held positions in the fields of law, finance and banking. First elected to

 

the Canadian House of Commons as a Conservative, Bernier served as Minister of Industry, Minister of Foreign

 

Affairs, Minister of State for Small Business and Tourism, which later became the Minister of State for Small

 

Business and Tourism and Agriculture in the cabinet of then-Prime Minister Stephen Harper. Following the

 

Conservatives' defeat in the 2015 election, he served as opposition critic for Innovation, Science and Economic

 

Development in the shadow cabinets of Rona Ambrose and Andrew Scheer, until June 12, 2018.

 

Bernier ran for the Conservative Party leadership in the 2017 leadership election, and came in a close second

 

with over 49% of the vote in the 13th round, after leading the eventual winner, Andrew Scheer, in the first 12

 

rounds. Fifteen months later, in August 2018, Bernier resigned from the Conservative Party to create his own

 

party, citing disagreements with Scheer's leadership.[1] His new party was named the People's Party of Canada in

 

September 2018.

  

Interview Julie Couillard gave in 2008

  

JULIE COUILLARD TALKS WITH KENNETH WHYTE ABOUT HER DEAL WITH MAXIME BERNIER, HIS DISLOYALTY, AND HER RESPECT FOR

 

THE PM

OCTOBER 20 2008

'All of a sudden, I'm a biker’s chick, I'm trash. He ran the other way while I drowned.’

 

INTERVIEW

 

JULIE COUILLARD TALKS WITH KENNETH WHYTE ABOUT HER DEAL WITH MAXIME BERNIER, HIS DISLOYALTY, AND HER RESPECT FOR

 

THE PM

 

I’m going to start at the beginning of your relationship with Mr. Bernier, and that very first meeting that you

 

two had.

 

A: Well, it was actually my real estate broker that invited me to a cinq-à-sept. I had mentioned to him a couple

 

of days prior that the Conservative party had approached me to maybe present myself as an MP, which really took

 

me by surprise. But to tell you that I ever took this proposition seriously, no. Still, I was curious about it,

 

and my broker says, we’re all going for supper afterwards and, by the way, a minister is going to be there, and

 

maybe you’d like to come and pick his brains, basically, about politics and everything to do with becoming 14

 

an MP. So I said yeah. He mentioned to me it was the ministre de l’industrie—industry minister—Maxime Bernier.

 

As a joke, my broker said, “He’s pretty cute, and he’s single, so who knows?” That’s how we first met.

 

Q: In the course of the evening, Mr. Bernier got a bit forward with you.

 

A: Well, actually, that was at the beginning of the evening. We had just sat down, and he leaned forward and

 

gave me a little peck on the cheek. And some people will say, “How come you got shocked by that? Because next

 

time you saw him you guys ended up being intimate on your first official date.” It’s not the same as if you meet

 

a guy for the first time, you hit it off well, and then it’s officially a date. First of all, my brokers were

 

there. It was a business meeting. I mean, I was in a

 

suit. That’s why it was totally out of place.

 

Q: You took him outside, gave him a lecture, and said you weren’t there as a little helper.

 

A: Exactly, yeah.

 

Q: What did you mean by little helper?

 

A: Well, that was the English translation. I’m not a girl that some company will introduce you to so that,

 

basically, if you find her cute you can have your way with her. Because there were other young girls, all of a

 

sudden, that joined our table, that were not businesswomen. They were there just to party. I wanted to make it

 

clear to Maxime that, you know, you’re a very nice guy, we get along great, and you’re handsome and all, but I’m

 

calling the shots and nobody else.

 

Q: It is kind of offensive for somebody to do that at a first meeting. Why not run from him?

 

A: Well, because he was very apologetic.

 

Q: So you don’t think he mistook you for a little helper?

 

A: No, because I can be very blunt. And he was taken aback.

 

Q: It wasn’t really a business arrangement he proposed when you started to see each other steadily, but it was

 

kind of a professional arrangement, right?

 

A: No. Maxime proposed a personal relationship with a condition attached to it. That’s how, really, it was

 

presented to me. The first offer was if I wanted to become his girlfriend, and if I would be interested enough

 

to have a serious relationship with him, there were certain strings attached to the fact that he was a

 

politician and a public figure. [They would have to go out for a year.] Though I was a bit shocked in the sense

 

that it’s not the most romantic way to ask a girl to go out with you, after his explanation I had to agree with

 

him. He was a politician, he was a public figure, and it came with the territory.

 

Q: Right.

 

A: I put myself in his shoes. Sometimes you do have to compromise because of your work. And at that point in

 

time, I didn’t anticipate not getting along with Maxime.

 

Q: In My Story, you describe some behaviour on his part that wasn’t terribly impressive, his temper tantrums,

 

throwing an iron across the room, and calling you when you’re at official functions with important people,

 

summoning you from across the room in a rude way.

 

A: While I’m talking with the wife of our ambassador nonetheless, yes.

 

Q: And then there’s the fact that you found out [that there were] other women.

 

A: There’s one specific event that I found out while I was his girlfriend, the rest I found out after I was just

 

his friend.

 

Q: There’s a considerable amount of stuff like this in the book about him, and I have trouble seeing what

 

attracted you two. Did you like him?

 

A At the beginning I did. A: Well, he’s easygoing, he’s fun, you’ll enjoy a good supper with a good bottle of

 

wine. And we did have a very strong attraction for one another, and you have to understand that we had a

 

longdistance relationship. Four days out of the week Maxime was not there. Every other weekend he had his two

 

daughters. Most probably, if Maxime would have been living where Fm living, after a month or two I would have

 

said, “You know what, buddy? This is not working out.” It took me six months because he got promoted and he

 

started travelling a lot, and sometimes I wouldn’t even see him for two to three weeks, so when we finally did

 

get together it was like our first date all over again. It wasn’t easy for me to realize that he was lacking

 

depth.

 

Q: Regarding the men in your life before Maxime Bernier, Gilles Giguère was murdered, and Stéphane Sirois was

 

fairly high up in a motorcycle gang.

 

A: No, he was not.

 

Q: No? What was he?

 

A: While I was with him he was not a biker. He gave back his patch, because that was my condition. I didn’t want

 

to go out with a biker. After I divorced him he went back into that world and eventually turned into a rat.

 

Q: You’ve been left heartbroken, broke, and embarrassed by various men in your life. Do you feel you have been

 

unlucky in love?

 

A: I’ve had my unlucky strikes, I have to admit. You have to understand that I was put in a position where I had

 

no choice to write a biography to re-establish the facts and my credibility, and had I written that book at 78,

 

let’s say, there would have been a lot more happy times. At this point in time in my life I made a choice of

 

keeping the good business ventures and my happy relationships for me, for the little I had left of my private

 

life.

 

Q: So you don’t think you have a habit of picking the wrong guy?

 

A: Well, I could have a better average.

 

Q: I get a bit confused about the end of your relationship with Mr. Bernier. It was in December 2007 that you

 

sort of broke up, but you continued to see one another. You were still more than friends, though.

 

A: Yes, we were. I had nobody else in my life, so j’ai rendu le pratique agréable, I made what was practical

 

agreeable. I mentioned to Maxime in December that our relationship was not fulfilling me and that I had no time

 

to waste, at my age, and I knew that Maxime was not the guy. And to tell you the truth, Maxime agreed that it

 

was better that we remained good friends, you know? I had given

 

him my word that I would remain his official girlfriend for a year and, to tell you honestly, though you know

 

that that person is not the person of your life, you still can grow very attached. I certainly didn’t do it

 

against my own free will or all those things that people implied, that I was paid to be his escort and whatnot.

 

That’s totally ridiculous. How many people had an ex that they kept seeing until they met someone else that was

 

more interesting? I think we have all done it. So all of a sudden, because he’s a minister, there’s this hidden

 

agenda behind it.

 

Q: Everybody’s trying to impose a story on your life.

 

A: It was much simpler than that, and a

 

1 had this image of George Bush as this cold person. He had a great sense of humour. That totally threw me off.’

 

lot duller than that, if you ask me.

 

Q: Well, it’s not very dull.

 

A: Concerning my relationship with Maxime it was. Yes, fine, I did have a fiancé that got assassinated, but that

 

was 12 years ago, and yes, I ended up divorcing a guy that used to be a biker before he went out with me, or got

 

married to me, but that was 10 years ago.

 

Q: Is that one of the things that was so horrifying for you about this? Because you’ve been working, travelling

 

in different circles, and holding your own with ambassadors and important people around the world. And then all

 

of a sudden, you’re reading about yourself in the paper.

 

A: All of a sudden I’m a biker’s chick and I’m this and I’m that and I’m trash and I’m a whore and I’m possibly

 

sent by bikers. What

 

the hell? That’s 10 and 12 years ago, so what does that have to do with anything now?

 

Q: Was it necessary, in order to re-establish your reputation, to go so deeply into Mr. Bernier’s character

 

flaws and his misbehaviours?

 

A: I think that it was. When you have a team of people who work 45 hours a week to portray you and to sell your

 

image in the media, getting to know the real, true person behind this image can’t be easy. It needed to be done

 

so that people would understand not his actions, but his inaction in this circus that crashed my life. Some

 

people will say, “Yeah, well, it’s pretty harsh.” Well, I’m so sorry but his silence was basically sending a

 

message to the public that he was endorsing everything that was being said. That man knew me, he spent a year

 

with me, six months as his girlfriend, and I was good enough to remain his very good friend for another six

 

months, and he still wanted me to stick around to keep accompanying him in all his official functions, so I

 

couldn’t have been such a vulgar woman and a slut and a this and a that and a biker’s chick. Yet he let all

 

these things be said about me, and he was the politician, he was the one who had all the tools to stand up and

 

say, “Listen, now, this is not right.”

 

Q: In March of this year it broke on TV that the minister is dating a biker chick.

 

Q: May, sorry, and he went underground.

 

A: Exactly, he started acting like he never even knew me. Do you honestly think that the media, politicians,

 

[the general] population would have been the slightest [bit] interested in what Julie Couillard did in her life

 

10, 11 years ago, 12 years ago? Who gave a damn? Nobody. Everybody became interested. Why? Because I was the

 

official girlfriend of a federal cabinet minister. He ran the other way waving while I was drowning.

 

Q: What should he have done?

 

A: Well, he should have at least straightened out the facts, and right from the get-go he could have stopped

 

this then and there. He could have said that this is all a cheap way of trying to damage his reputation and

 

damage the party that was in power, and that it had nothing to do with the real issues of our society today and

 

it was just cheap politics. He had all the tools and all the people. He knew that the RCMP, the Sûreté du

 

Québec,

 

la Communauté urbaine de Montréal, all of them, [that] did investigate me back then, came to the conclusion I

 

had nothing to do with organized crime aside from the fact that I was seeing people that knew people in that

 

scene, but on a personal level, and I was not implicated in the criminal activities of any sort. This was just a

 

cheap attempt to damage our government. That’s all it was!

 

Q: In the book, Stephen Harper comes off better than pretty much anyone else you encountered in that world. You

 

were impressed with him.

 

A: Yes, I was. I have to admit that I do not have the same political views as Mr. Harper but I do have a lot of

 

respect for the man.

 

Q: George W. Bush impressed you as well.

 

A: I had this image of this cold, very restrained person, but he was such a friendly and accessible guy, and

 

very light and funny. He had a great sense of humour. That totally threw me off.

 

Q: You say in the book that you thought you let Mr. Bernier off too easily. Is there more to the story that you

 

haven’t written?

 

A: The only more would be things that I do not think are of any public interest.

 

Q: He would, when you were together, complain about Mr. Harper being fat or being controlling. Doesn’t everybody

 

complain about the boss?

 

A: Maybe. But Maxime doesn’t have just a job, he’s a politician. That’s very different. He shouldn’t have a

 

right to disrespect our Prime Minister. And what really pissed me off is that Maxime was a guy that two years

 

before wasn’t even in politics and there you go, all of a sudden, because of Mr. Harper, he ends up, hey, the

 

minister of external affairs! Come on! The man might not be perfect, we’re all perfectly unperfect, but you

 

should respect him for giving you that opportunity.

 

Q: You answered this question already about the men in your life and your batting average. Do you think it’s the

 

kind of man you’re attracted to or the kind of man who’s attracted to you?

 

A: Well, I don’t know. I know for my part my flaws are more that I see a good-looking guy and he’s a good talker

 

and he’s a lot of fun and he makes me laugh, and then I have a tendency of more dreaming an image of that

 

person, and then I fall in love with that image, but the guy I’m falling in love with does not even exist.

 

That’s what I would have to watch out for. And because, I guess, of my looks some men are attracted to me for

 

the wrong reasons, they stop at what they see instead of seeing deeper than that.

 

Q: When you were travelling with Mr. Bernier and going to official functions, you did meet some people and you

 

exchanged business cards on occasion. Did any opportunities or any doors open for you because ofthat?

 

A: I didn’t really exchange business cards at all, to tell you the truth, when I was with Maxime. I’ve had the

 

pleasure of saying, “I’ve met our ambassador in Paris.” But I was the spouse of Maxime, that’s why I was there.

 

Q: Are you working now?

 

A: Oh, no. My life totally stopped. The seventh of May everything stopped.

 

Q: What are you going to do now?

 

A: That’s a very good question. I don’t have an answer. I still have a mortgage to pay, and a car payment and so

 

on and so forth. I concentrated on re-establishing the facts and reestablishing my credibility because nobody

 

will have anything to do business-wise with me—which is totally understandable—and I do not believe that the

 

same career is ever going to pick up again.

 

Q: Real estate?

 

A: No, real estate and development. I specialized in a very narrow niche, where you always have to be in contact

 

with the municipalities, with the provincial, even the federal government. M

Just bought this autographed copy

of My story by Julie Couillard - 2008

 

(former girlfriend of Maxine Bernier)

 

Maxine Bernier resigned from cabinet in May 2007 only hours before Couillard described in a television interview how he had left classified briefing documents for a NATO summit at her Montreal home. After all of this Maxine and noted other

M.Ps trash Julie Couillard about her past. Sad how politicians

take no responsibilty for their mistakes especially having

N.A.T.O confidential documents in their personal possession.

 

Maxime Bernier resigns over missing documents.

May 26 and 27, 2008 - Maxime Bernier resigned as Canada's Minister of Foreign Affairs after learning his ex-girlfriend Julie Couillard would reveal he left sensitive documents at her home.

 

See story below on YouTube :

 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=tfGcybmQYKs

 

Also found this interview by George Stroumboulopoulos

questioning Maxine Bernier on his mistake of having confidential documents. Instead of just admitting mistake

he tries to smear his girlfriend again but I give credit to

interviewer for stopping him that she was not the issue.

This is about 7 minutes into the interview. See below

on YouTube.

 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTjLSHSx6Pg&t=458s

  

Maxime Bernier PC MP (born January 18, 1963) is a Canadian businessman, lawyer and politician serving as the

 

Member of Parliament (MP) for the riding of Beauce since 2006. He is the founder and current leader of the

 

People's Party of Canada (PPC).

 

Prior to entering politics, Bernier held positions in the fields of law, finance and banking. First elected to

 

the Canadian House of Commons as a Conservative, Bernier served as Minister of Industry, Minister of Foreign

 

Affairs, Minister of State for Small Business and Tourism, which later became the Minister of State for Small

 

Business and Tourism and Agriculture in the cabinet of then-Prime Minister Stephen Harper. Following the

 

Conservatives' defeat in the 2015 election, he served as opposition critic for Innovation, Science and Economic

 

Development in the shadow cabinets of Rona Ambrose and Andrew Scheer, until June 12, 2018.

 

Bernier ran for the Conservative Party leadership in the 2017 leadership election, and came in a close second

 

with over 49% of the vote in the 13th round, after leading the eventual winner, Andrew Scheer, in the first 12

 

rounds. Fifteen months later, in August 2018, Bernier resigned from the Conservative Party to create his own

 

party, citing disagreements with Scheer's leadership.[1] His new party was named the People's Party of Canada in

 

September 2018.

  

Interview Julie Couillard gave in 2008

  

JULIE COUILLARD TALKS WITH KENNETH WHYTE ABOUT HER DEAL WITH MAXIME BERNIER, HIS DISLOYALTY, AND HER RESPECT FOR

 

THE PM

OCTOBER 20 2008

'All of a sudden, I'm a biker’s chick, I'm trash. He ran the other way while I drowned.’

 

INTERVIEW

 

JULIE COUILLARD TALKS WITH KENNETH WHYTE ABOUT HER DEAL WITH MAXIME BERNIER, HIS DISLOYALTY, AND HER RESPECT FOR

 

THE PM

 

I’m going to start at the beginning of your relationship with Mr. Bernier, and that very first meeting that you

 

two had.

 

A: Well, it was actually my real estate broker that invited me to a cinq-à-sept. I had mentioned to him a couple

 

of days prior that the Conservative party had approached me to maybe present myself as an MP, which really took

 

me by surprise. But to tell you that I ever took this proposition seriously, no. Still, I was curious about it,

 

and my broker says, we’re all going for supper afterwards and, by the way, a minister is going to be there, and

 

maybe you’d like to come and pick his brains, basically, about politics and everything to do with becoming 14

 

an MP. So I said yeah. He mentioned to me it was the ministre de l’industrie—industry minister—Maxime Bernier.

 

As a joke, my broker said, “He’s pretty cute, and he’s single, so who knows?” That’s how we first met.

 

Q: In the course of the evening, Mr. Bernier got a bit forward with you.

 

A: Well, actually, that was at the beginning of the evening. We had just sat down, and he leaned forward and

 

gave me a little peck on the cheek. And some people will say, “How come you got shocked by that? Because next

 

time you saw him you guys ended up being intimate on your first official date.” It’s not the same as if you meet

 

a guy for the first time, you hit it off well, and then it’s officially a date. First of all, my brokers were

 

there. It was a business meeting. I mean, I was in a

 

suit. That’s why it was totally out of place.

 

Q: You took him outside, gave him a lecture, and said you weren’t there as a little helper.

 

A: Exactly, yeah.

 

Q: What did you mean by little helper?

 

A: Well, that was the English translation. I’m not a girl that some company will introduce you to so that,

 

basically, if you find her cute you can have your way with her. Because there were other young girls, all of a

 

sudden, that joined our table, that were not businesswomen. They were there just to party. I wanted to make it

 

clear to Maxime that, you know, you’re a very nice guy, we get along great, and you’re handsome and all, but I’m

 

calling the shots and nobody else.

 

Q: It is kind of offensive for somebody to do that at a first meeting. Why not run from him?

 

A: Well, because he was very apologetic.

 

Q: So you don’t think he mistook you for a little helper?

 

A: No, because I can be very blunt. And he was taken aback.

 

Q: It wasn’t really a business arrangement he proposed when you started to see each other steadily, but it was

 

kind of a professional arrangement, right?

 

A: No. Maxime proposed a personal relationship with a condition attached to it. That’s how, really, it was

 

presented to me. The first offer was if I wanted to become his girlfriend, and if I would be interested enough

 

to have a serious relationship with him, there were certain strings attached to the fact that he was a

 

politician and a public figure. [They would have to go out for a year.] Though I was a bit shocked in the sense

 

that it’s not the most romantic way to ask a girl to go out with you, after his explanation I had to agree with

 

him. He was a politician, he was a public figure, and it came with the territory.

 

Q: Right.

 

A: I put myself in his shoes. Sometimes you do have to compromise because of your work. And at that point in

 

time, I didn’t anticipate not getting along with Maxime.

 

Q: In My Story, you describe some behaviour on his part that wasn’t terribly impressive, his temper tantrums,

 

throwing an iron across the room, and calling you when you’re at official functions with important people,

 

summoning you from across the room in a rude way.

 

A: While I’m talking with the wife of our ambassador nonetheless, yes.

 

Q: And then there’s the fact that you found out [that there were] other women.

 

A: There’s one specific event that I found out while I was his girlfriend, the rest I found out after I was just

 

his friend.

 

Q: There’s a considerable amount of stuff like this in the book about him, and I have trouble seeing what

 

attracted you two. Did you like him?

 

A At the beginning I did. A: Well, he’s easygoing, he’s fun, you’ll enjoy a good supper with a good bottle of

 

wine. And we did have a very strong attraction for one another, and you have to understand that we had a

 

longdistance relationship. Four days out of the week Maxime was not there. Every other weekend he had his two

 

daughters. Most probably, if Maxime would have been living where Fm living, after a month or two I would have

 

said, “You know what, buddy? This is not working out.” It took me six months because he got promoted and he

 

started travelling a lot, and sometimes I wouldn’t even see him for two to three weeks, so when we finally did

 

get together it was like our first date all over again. It wasn’t easy for me to realize that he was lacking

 

depth.

 

Q: Regarding the men in your life before Maxime Bernier, Gilles Giguère was murdered, and Stéphane Sirois was

 

fairly high up in a motorcycle gang.

 

A: No, he was not.

 

Q: No? What was he?

 

A: While I was with him he was not a biker. He gave back his patch, because that was my condition. I didn’t want

 

to go out with a biker. After I divorced him he went back into that world and eventually turned into a rat.

 

Q: You’ve been left heartbroken, broke, and embarrassed by various men in your life. Do you feel you have been

 

unlucky in love?

 

A: I’ve had my unlucky strikes, I have to admit. You have to understand that I was put in a position where I had

 

no choice to write a biography to re-establish the facts and my credibility, and had I written that book at 78,

 

let’s say, there would have been a lot more happy times. At this point in time in my life I made a choice of

 

keeping the good business ventures and my happy relationships for me, for the little I had left of my private

 

life.

 

Q: So you don’t think you have a habit of picking the wrong guy?

 

A: Well, I could have a better average.

 

Q: I get a bit confused about the end of your relationship with Mr. Bernier. It was in December 2007 that you

 

sort of broke up, but you continued to see one another. You were still more than friends, though.

 

A: Yes, we were. I had nobody else in my life, so j’ai rendu le pratique agréable, I made what was practical

 

agreeable. I mentioned to Maxime in December that our relationship was not fulfilling me and that I had no time

 

to waste, at my age, and I knew that Maxime was not the guy. And to tell you the truth, Maxime agreed that it

 

was better that we remained good friends, you know? I had given

 

him my word that I would remain his official girlfriend for a year and, to tell you honestly, though you know

 

that that person is not the person of your life, you still can grow very attached. I certainly didn’t do it

 

against my own free will or all those things that people implied, that I was paid to be his escort and whatnot.

 

That’s totally ridiculous. How many people had an ex that they kept seeing until they met someone else that was

 

more interesting? I think we have all done it. So all of a sudden, because he’s a minister, there’s this hidden

 

agenda behind it.

 

Q: Everybody’s trying to impose a story on your life.

 

A: It was much simpler than that, and a

 

1 had this image of George Bush as this cold person. He had a great sense of humour. That totally threw me off.’

 

lot duller than that, if you ask me.

 

Q: Well, it’s not very dull.

 

A: Concerning my relationship with Maxime it was. Yes, fine, I did have a fiancé that got assassinated, but that

 

was 12 years ago, and yes, I ended up divorcing a guy that used to be a biker before he went out with me, or got

 

married to me, but that was 10 years ago.

 

Q: Is that one of the things that was so horrifying for you about this? Because you’ve been working, travelling

 

in different circles, and holding your own with ambassadors and important people around the world. And then all

 

of a sudden, you’re reading about yourself in the paper.

 

A: All of a sudden I’m a biker’s chick and I’m this and I’m that and I’m trash and I’m a whore and I’m possibly

 

sent by bikers. What

 

the hell? That’s 10 and 12 years ago, so what does that have to do with anything now?

 

Q: Was it necessary, in order to re-establish your reputation, to go so deeply into Mr. Bernier’s character

 

flaws and his misbehaviours?

 

A: I think that it was. When you have a team of people who work 45 hours a week to portray you and to sell your

 

image in the media, getting to know the real, true person behind this image can’t be easy. It needed to be done

 

so that people would understand not his actions, but his inaction in this circus that crashed my life. Some

 

people will say, “Yeah, well, it’s pretty harsh.” Well, I’m so sorry but his silence was basically sending a

 

message to the public that he was endorsing everything that was being said. That man knew me, he spent a year

 

with me, six months as his girlfriend, and I was good enough to remain his very good friend for another six

 

months, and he still wanted me to stick around to keep accompanying him in all his official functions, so I

 

couldn’t have been such a vulgar woman and a slut and a this and a that and a biker’s chick. Yet he let all

 

these things be said about me, and he was the politician, he was the one who had all the tools to stand up and

 

say, “Listen, now, this is not right.”

 

Q: In March of this year it broke on TV that the minister is dating a biker chick.

 

Q: May, sorry, and he went underground.

 

A: Exactly, he started acting like he never even knew me. Do you honestly think that the media, politicians,

 

[the general] population would have been the slightest [bit] interested in what Julie Couillard did in her life

 

10, 11 years ago, 12 years ago? Who gave a damn? Nobody. Everybody became interested. Why? Because I was the

 

official girlfriend of a federal cabinet minister. He ran the other way waving while I was drowning.

 

Q: What should he have done?

 

A: Well, he should have at least straightened out the facts, and right from the get-go he could have stopped

 

this then and there. He could have said that this is all a cheap way of trying to damage his reputation and

 

damage the party that was in power, and that it had nothing to do with the real issues of our society today and

 

it was just cheap politics. He had all the tools and all the people. He knew that the RCMP, the Sûreté du

 

Québec,

 

la Communauté urbaine de Montréal, all of them, [that] did investigate me back then, came to the conclusion I

 

had nothing to do with organized crime aside from the fact that I was seeing people that knew people in that

 

scene, but on a personal level, and I was not implicated in the criminal activities of any sort. This was just a

 

cheap attempt to damage our government. That’s all it was!

 

Q: In the book, Stephen Harper comes off better than pretty much anyone else you encountered in that world. You

 

were impressed with him.

 

A: Yes, I was. I have to admit that I do not have the same political views as Mr. Harper but I do have a lot of

 

respect for the man.

 

Q: George W. Bush impressed you as well.

 

A: I had this image of this cold, very restrained person, but he was such a friendly and accessible guy, and

 

very light and funny. He had a great sense of humour. That totally threw me off.

 

Q: You say in the book that you thought you let Mr. Bernier off too easily. Is there more to the story that you

 

haven’t written?

 

A: The only more would be things that I do not think are of any public interest.

 

Q: He would, when you were together, complain about Mr. Harper being fat or being controlling. Doesn’t everybody

 

complain about the boss?

 

A: Maybe. But Maxime doesn’t have just a job, he’s a politician. That’s very different. He shouldn’t have a

 

right to disrespect our Prime Minister. And what really pissed me off is that Maxime was a guy that two years

 

before wasn’t even in politics and there you go, all of a sudden, because of Mr. Harper, he ends up, hey, the

 

minister of external affairs! Come on! The man might not be perfect, we’re all perfectly unperfect, but you

 

should respect him for giving you that opportunity.

 

Q: You answered this question already about the men in your life and your batting average. Do you think it’s the

 

kind of man you’re attracted to or the kind of man who’s attracted to you?

 

A: Well, I don’t know. I know for my part my flaws are more that I see a good-looking guy and he’s a good talker

 

and he’s a lot of fun and he makes me laugh, and then I have a tendency of more dreaming an image of that

 

person, and then I fall in love with that image, but the guy I’m falling in love with does not even exist.

 

That’s what I would have to watch out for. And because, I guess, of my looks some men are attracted to me for

 

the wrong reasons, they stop at what they see instead of seeing deeper than that.

 

Q: When you were travelling with Mr. Bernier and going to official functions, you did meet some people and you

 

exchanged business cards on occasion. Did any opportunities or any doors open for you because ofthat?

 

A: I didn’t really exchange business cards at all, to tell you the truth, when I was with Maxime. I’ve had the

 

pleasure of saying, “I’ve met our ambassador in Paris.” But I was the spouse of Maxime, that’s why I was there.

 

Q: Are you working now?

 

A: Oh, no. My life totally stopped. The seventh of May everything stopped.

 

Q: What are you going to do now?

 

A: That’s a very good question. I don’t have an answer. I still have a mortgage to pay, and a car payment and so

 

on and so forth. I concentrated on re-establishing the facts and reestablishing my credibility because nobody

 

will have anything to do business-wise with me—which is totally understandable—and I do not believe that the

 

same career is ever going to pick up again.

 

Q: Real estate?

 

A: No, real estate and development. I specialized in a very narrow niche, where you always have to be in contact

 

with the municipalities, with the provincial, even the federal government. M

Eating Disorders and Body Image - (A project of BC Partners for Mental Health and Addictions Information)

 

view full article here

 

Eating disorders and body image dissatisfaction were once the domain of an obscure branch of psychiatry. But in recent decades, our culture has bombarded people with images of an ideal physique that is increasingly out of reach for the average person. According to eating disorders expert David Garner, body image dissatisfaction is increasing at a faster rate than ever as more and more people compare themselves unfavourably to this ideal. The question today is no longer "Who has a poor body image?" but "Who doesn't?"

 

A poll conducted by People magazine found that only 9% of women were completely happy with their bodies and 93% had tried to lose weight. In Canada, the situation is roughly the same, with almost half of women saying they consider themselves overweight.

 

Fear of being fat is so overwhelming that losing weight is the number one wish of girls between 11 and 17. More than half of 13 year old girls are unhappy with their bodies, and this jumps to three-quarters by age 18. Nearly 40% of students between the third and sixth grade have tried dieting and just as many girls between the first and third grade say they want to be thinner. And, alarmingly, almost one tenth of nine-year-olds have engaged in self-induced vomiting in an effort to lose weight.

 

[...]

 

Body image is the picture an individual has of his or her body and what she or he thinks it looks like to others. Researchers believe that concern over body image is really a mask for how a person feels about themselves: their self-esteem. In North America, body image has come to mean even more. For example, thinness not only represents attractiveness, it has also come to symbolize personal success, power, self-control and higher socioeconomic status, according to Dr. Liz Dittrich, who researches body image issues. Estimates from body image studies find that around 70% of women feel their bodies are too large. Interestingly, the average female body shape that men rate as ideal is consistently heavier than the body shape considered ideal by women. According to Jessie's Hope Society, this information demonstrates that the difference between poor body image, unhealthy dieting, and an eating disorder is usually a matter of degree.

 

[...]

  

Caution - Blog entry ahead.

 

I love that hair. I love those eyes. I love summer days late in the season. This day combined all three. A perfect day to be sitting next to Bear Lake.

 

I live where all four seasons expend the full extent of their energies. I'm really looking forward to this new season. I'm sitting next to an open window as I write this, feeling the very cool after-rain breeze. Love that too. I made cookies earlier this evening and I finally just ate one. They're awesome, and not even close to being fat-free. I probably won't eat another. I have to give them away or I'd weigh, well, more. If you're in the area, come by the office tomorrow. I may have some with me. They look a lot like this:

www.flickr.com/photos/sumsion/3046992739/

 

Listen to the Frenzy:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=i4d8PEEkqcw&feature=related

(It's a Beautiful Day - "Time Is")

 

When I think about how hard it is sometimes to finish the full hour of walking at the HWC, I just remember how hard it was just to finish a day carrying around an extra 48 pounds everywhere, all the time.

 

It's like the meme I read that said "Losing weight is hard. Being fat is hard. Choose your hard."

 

The pain in my back makes it hard to make my hour, but not as hard as being fat 24 hours a day. And so I refuse to quit.

 

Except for CoffeeMate. I did quit using CoffeeMate in my coffee when I had a 4-day stomach bug and couldn't drink coffee anyway. Since my sense of taste had time to adjust, I don't really miss it, and look.. I'm down another seven pounds after being stuck at 214 for over 3 months. Down another pants size, and about to have to pierce a second new hole in my belt. And now I relish the chance to climb stairs instead of dreading them.

 

Slowly, of course.. like all good things..

It's the "Femlin," as in "Female Gremlin."

 

And I'm guessing this Playboy model would probably be accused of being fat today.

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