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    two days left of being an "active" associate for the bank.

    i'm so over this place it's kinda sad.

    a part of me, is excited to just bust outta here and be "free" and all that jazz!! another part, is starting to get nervous.

    am i doing the right thing?
    will i regret not looking for an office job sooner?
    stuff like that.

    it warms my heart how so many of my friends and family are being supportive and reminding me that i "got this!" and that i'm "going to do awesome!". it's so nice to get that feedback when i'm in this "what am i doing?" thing. it's good feeling like i'm not alone - yet it's a little nerve-wrecking when i feel those same eyes are on me waiting to see what happens next.

    do i trust and confide in my skill? yes. aside from those times where the setting and/or elements might not be exactly what i wanted, but absolutely yes. what i worry about is the income. i don't shoot to make a quick buck, but w/o a full-time job to fall back on, income will be something i've got to think about and consider now. and i think that's the part that makes me most anxy.

    i'm glad that i'm taking the opportunity and in all sense of the saying, running with it. i wouldn't quit on purpose to take on photography full-time, and everyone and their mom has asked ME (like i'm freakin' top management) why wouldn't the bank choose to keep me onboard, over some others that were chosen. it's a mystery. which is why i think it's happening for a reason, even if i don't get it.

    i'm going to hold on to the fearless part of me, and just go. this life of mine has been bumpy - and some times b/c of decisions i've made. but, in the end it works. somehow, it does. armando reminds me of that when i start to freak about things. and i gotta trust that this will too.

    oh right, 7 for 50of50
    and i had an SB900 w/ a diffuser on the body pointing straight at me. like a noob. :)

    .insomniac, youngsol, and 7 other people added this photo to their favorites.

    1. ) J@son ( 18 months ago | reply

      You are gonna rock it Suzy, just like you rocked this shot!

      Redbull gives you wings ;-)

    2. SooSee.Q 18 months ago | reply

      thanks my friend! :) and yo, that redbull almost killed me yesterday on my run!

    3. m.m.f.l.y 18 months ago | reply

      you are brave, and awesome... and you're right... trust yourself.

    4. youngsol 18 months ago | reply

      OMG We are going thur the same thing see my message!!! I Love this Shot TOO!!

    5. heathre 18 months ago | reply

      i'm so excited for you - sounds like scary but GOOD change. trust yourself xoxo

    6. catklein 18 months ago | reply

      It will all work out. Probably for the better. Just keep a positive outlook and go after your dreams, baby.

    7. wehaveapiperdown 18 months ago | reply

      go after your dreams Susy:) you rock:)

    8. not siskel 18 months ago | reply

      What Cat said. <3

    9. Claire A1980 18 months ago | reply

      Go with it it. I got laid off last year and it was one of the best things that ever happened to me. Go for it!

    10. Esther17 18 months ago | reply

      i almost always thought that things happen for a reason, as corny as that sounds, and i've got no doubt that you will rock whatever direction you choose. xoxo

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