I forced myself out into the day after we got dumped with 16+ inches of snow last night. I forced myself to take photos. I took pictures with my digital, with my Holga, and with my Pentax 35mm. It didn't really work to make me feel more inspired, but it was something anyway. I was telling my husband, I guess it is natural to have a slump after another trip to Detroit where I come so totally alive. I know the trip was in November, but I only recently finished posting the last of the pics I will likely post from that trip (so it was nice to have the experience stretch across to now). But I'm left feeling empty. There aren't so many similar places to go where I live, and not as easy to find people to come with me (who I trust and with whom my husband is comfortable with me going).
This slump I feel now combined with the usual slump of winter has me
feeling really defeated at the moment. I know it will pass, and I am
busy trying to drum up support for my solo show in September, but the
last few days I'm even second-guessing my decision to do that. I mean,
who the fuck do I think I am? Can I really find enough supporters to
make it happen or am I totally kidding myself? I start giving myself
serious anxiety when I think like that! I try and remember that
September is a ways away yet.
[You totally do NOT have to give me any response to this ramble here, by the way...I'm not fishing for compliments, I'm merely letting this shit out of my head and trying to let people know my head a bit better.]
Anyway! I'm hopefully going up to visit the fabulous Jennifer tomorrow for the weekend, if the weather gives us a break that is! Maybe I can stop and get some interesting shots on my way up and definitely around her 'hood while I'm up there. A change of scene is always good. Maybe I should also double up on my Vitamin D dosage. LOL
(cross-posted to my blog)