Why Me

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Sometimes the scariest things aren't what you'd expect. For me, I am terrified of walking home alone at night incase I get raped or murdered, I am terrified of being in a plane crash, scared of walking on train tracks, moths (the devils creatures) and all sorts of typically scary stuff. But I think the scariest thing at the moment is that I am (once more) losing my hair. I found a bald patch again last night and just broke down. I do not know if I can handle it again. I'd forgotten how scary it is. The thought of losing my hair twice in 2 years is damn scary - I thought after it started growing back the first time that I would be ok, but I have been stressed lately and its taking it's toll. The patch isn't very big, but I know if I don't nip it in the bud, in 3months time I could have lost 2 thirds of my hair again. Which sucks.

Aaron has been amazing, so has my mum. I told him I didn't want him to have a bald girlfriend, he told me that I could buy a million wigs and have a million different hairstyles. My mum has rung up school, and I might be dropping philosophy because thats mainly what is stressing me.

So this photo is here because right now, I am damn scared. Hopefully if I sort stuff out now, no more will fall out. But if not and what happened before happens again, then I will just get through it and make something good come out of it. At least this time I have someone by my side who makes me feel beautiful no matter what.

This is my first ever self-done strobist shot, go me :D Used my new lights. Will take some getting used to, but it was damn fun :)

3 days until I go see Aaron!! Hooray!! :)

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  1. Jeanne McCandless 81 months ago | reply

    Love it so much !

  2. Ashleigh_Thompson 79 months ago | reply

    Wow this is outstanding you should enter it into national geographic website

  3. B.W. Johnson 76 months ago | reply

    Creepy cool :)

  4. scarletinfinity 76 months ago | reply

    this is wonderful! so much emotion is present, it's quite haunting.

  5. Marco de Waal 73 months ago | reply

    Nice picture! Excellent!

  6. vladimir DGama 71 months ago | reply

    Beautiful works
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  7. Adriana Hepburn 67 months ago | reply

    Amazing! I love the idea!!

  8. harrietsmith301 62 months ago | reply

    I have been looking at your work for my AS Photography. I'm also doing a 365 and your photography within your 365 is incredible. I especially like this image. Would love to be able to photograph as well as you.

  9. A R I T R A 62 months ago | reply

    wonderful pic n a gr8 description!

  10. gingles969691 55 months ago | reply

    That is a cool way to depict the fears we all have in us at different times!

  11. Jun "D" Phan 34 months ago | reply

    I adore this one

  12. jaciii (off&on) 32 months ago | reply

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  13. binilraag 12 months ago | reply

    Loved the background..

  14. BasilSimonUK 9 months ago | reply

    Negative expectations results in a fearful existence. This image is a true expression of emotional turmoil. You are extremely good at presenting your fear in visual art form. I feel for you. As you gain experience of life and you survive more of those situations you most fear you will gain confidence in your true safety. Good luck and keep at the photography! We gain art from trauma!

  15. Photography by Michael Nagy 9 months ago | reply

    Amazing photo! So much emotion

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