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i spent the day mostly cleaning my room (with just a quick trip out for a few minutes) and i won't be done until tomorrow...seriously it takes two days when i do this because i'm never just happy cleaning it, i have to move things and organize the whole room all over again...also i packed away the things that remind me of marsea...if only just so it's not all there staring me in the face, breaking me down...i'm still hopefull we'll be friends again...

 

i'm stressed though...i feel like i'm being pulled apart...i can't be there for certain people like they want me to, i just don't have time...i never have TIME...i spend my day cooking and cleaning for my parents, doing every errand that pops into their head...i'm also dealing with the stress of opening a new office to sell alarms, running credit checks as well, and also working on a novel i think can really make it...so my time is rarely ever my own which is why i'm slow to respond/comment/write back/post/breathe...

 

i try my hardest to be there for everyone, but it's just not always enough...still, i'm lucky to have some amazing and wonderful patients friends...

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Taken on August 18, 2008