torn ballerina [series — III]
[The series has nine photos, which have been posted in sets of three: a main one and two photos posted in the comments. One was posted on Dec 29, another one yesterday and this is the last one.]
It's the last day of the year, and suddenly everyone's doing those 'a year in review' posts. While a part of me tells me to go with the wave and do it as well, I know I made my peace with 2010 when I finished my 365. Still, I feel like talking about it a little bit, so here goes:
2010 was for me, above all, a year of growth. I can say with the utmost certainty that I am not the person I was at this time, last year. So much has changed in me. I fell out of love, I was betrayed, in some sense, and overreacted to it. I grew. I fell in love again, harder, and that is still screwing me over. Most of all, I let go of all the innocence I had left. You see, if I had a penny for all the times people said to me this year: "you need to realize that life isn't what you want it to be" or "life's hard, suck it up and go", I'd be filthy rich. Until now, I had lived in this pretty, pink world, in which I did what I loved and in which friends are perfect and the ones you fall in love with always love you back, and where, no matter how dark things seem, there's always a little bit of pink to keep you alive. Well, that little bit of pink was ripped out of me this year, several times, by several people. But oh, I'm not a victim. I know I have an impossible temper, and I know I take things too seriously, too personally. I know that there are two sides to each and every story, but this is how I grew. This is how I thoughened up. It isn't the pretty way, but like people keep telling me 'there is no pretty way'.
This is the biggest reason why I like this shoot. Because it's pink. Because it makes me believe, even if it's just for a moment, that the world can be pink like I always thought it was.
[to all of my friends who finish their 365's today, congratulations! You did it! I'm very proud of all of you!]
Have a lovely 2011, everyone!