torn ballerina [series — III]

[The series has nine photos, which have been posted in sets of three: a main one and two photos posted in the comments. One was posted on Dec 29, another one yesterday and this is the last one.]

 

It's the last day of the year, and suddenly everyone's doing those 'a year in review' posts. While a part of me tells me to go with the wave and do it as well, I know I made my peace with 2010 when I finished my 365. Still, I feel like talking about it a little bit, so here goes:

 

2010 was for me, above all, a year of growth. I can say with the utmost certainty that I am not the person I was at this time, last year. So much has changed in me. I fell out of love, I was betrayed, in some sense, and overreacted to it. I grew. I fell in love again, harder, and that is still screwing me over. Most of all, I let go of all the innocence I had left. You see, if I had a penny for all the times people said to me this year: "you need to realize that life isn't what you want it to be" or "life's hard, suck it up and go", I'd be filthy rich. Until now, I had lived in this pretty, pink world, in which I did what I loved and in which friends are perfect and the ones you fall in love with always love you back, and where, no matter how dark things seem, there's always a little bit of pink to keep you alive. Well, that little bit of pink was ripped out of me this year, several times, by several people. But oh, I'm not a victim. I know I have an impossible temper, and I know I take things too seriously, too personally. I know that there are two sides to each and every story, but this is how I grew. This is how I thoughened up. It isn't the pretty way, but like people keep telling me 'there is no pretty way'.

 

This is the biggest reason why I like this shoot. Because it's pink. Because it makes me believe, even if it's just for a moment, that the world can be pink like I always thought it was.

 

[to all of my friends who finish their 365's today, congratulations! You did it! I'm very proud of all of you!]

 

Have a lovely 2011, everyone!

  • Ana Luísa Pinto 4y

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  • AR [inactive] 4y

    Aww doll. *hugs*

    There IS always a dash of pink in every dark phase and you above all people should know it! I mean... you're the personification of la vie en rose!

    Plus, that shot is probably one of the best I've ever seen from you. High five, pal. :)

    xx
    And a wonderful 2011! :D
  • Dina_x 4y

    : o beautiful.
  • Angelica 4y

    you are stunning, on the inside, i mean-- and of course, the outside-- but in this shoot, combined with your wise words, it's almost as if your inner beauty is just pouring out, almost radiating! and it's beautiful.

    i think pain is beautiful-- most of my pain is pink, in my dreams, in my mind.

    happy new year
    x
  • Leon Alvarez 4y

    we'd love to have your photo added to the group.



    “BALLET & ARTS”
  • LisaToft 4y

  • {chloeplease} 4y

    this is so dreamy. I love your photostream :)
  • Lauren Hitchman 4y

    Simple and elegant... SOOO BEAUTIFUL>
  • Eilidh McMillan 4y

    Absolutely love it!
  • www.kasiaskrzypek.com 4y

    fall in love with it
  • Linda 4y

    very nice!
  • thursdayaffairs 4y

    The first one in comments I adore. Actually, the whole series is exquisite.
  • JoyHey 4y

    WOW. In love.
  • Amr Tahtawi 4y

    well done, amazingly heaven like
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Taken on December 29, 2010
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