(323/365) damsel-in-distress Face Down edition
"The purpose of life is not to be happy - but to matter, to be productive, to be useful, to have it make some difference that you have lived at all. - Leo Rosten"
I am a fiercely independent woman... and I hate asking for help or being a damsel-in-distress. I like to try and do/complete/accomplish/finish things on my own. I know I have talked about before about how it's hard for me to ask for help (among other things), but I find it infinitely more frustrating to feel like like I have not done anything. While I do find happiness a purpose in life, for me especially, it comes from items in the quote... to matter, to make a difference, to be productive, and be useful. And right now, I feel like I'm not. Truth be told... I feel like a lazy bum at the moment because I'm not working (and want to be). Even though I could take something outside the counseling field (and make a difference), I want to be counseling because I feel that's my most effective tool.
I'm trying to be happy and positive in my current present because it could most definitely be worse than it is now. Guess I need to work on my faith and gratitude and positivity...
**SIDENOTE: laying on tracks like this is extremely uncomfortable, damn you cartoon women for false reality!