you were my home (explored #123)
i know you're trying your hardest
and the hardest part is letting go
and when we look to the sky
it's not mine, but i want it so.
but i guess
that i can live without you but
without you I'll be miserable at best
you're all that i hoped i'd find
in every single way
and everything i could give
is everything you couldn't take
cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
and the hardest part of living
is just taking breaths to stay.
i want you all to read this.
have you ever had a point in your life, where you cared so much for something / someone, and you watched them leave? watched them basically fly away, and all you could do was stand there and watch them leave? basically all you could do was stand there and hold onto your hat. the only thing you had left so it wouldn't fly away too? and while they're leaving you just wonder "what did i do? what did i do that was SO WRONG? what didn't i give to you? what did i say to make you hate me so much you'd walk out of my life?" if you have. relate to this, because this is all i have left in memories, and i know it can't just be me who has gone through this.
i hate desertion.