I'm very introverted. Having an eating disorder makes it so much harder to make myself go out, see my friends (who love me for who i am) go to work, etc..
I have a hard time truly feeling things, and I think it's from years of emotional damage. From suffering from personality disorder (caused by my E.D.) It makes me feel very... non-human sometimes.
I get worried that maybe I'm not a good person. What kind of person has a hard time feeling?
I get worried there's a demon side of me, and I worry that one day I won't be able to hold her back.
It's the monster in me. The monster that the E.D. has placed in my mind.
Everyday I'm a survivor.