82/365 After 5 years, its still eating me apart
Today was supposed to be a good day, and it was. Went to the movies with some friends and had some fun !
Until .... i saw my Ex-Girlfriend. With just my friend as his boyfriend i got some kind of chest pain and wanted to cry . Thank god i hold it, and pretended i was happy !
But i havent told you the story yet... she and me go back a long time ago... She and i were a couple, be enjoyed it while it lasted and we broke up . Still she was my best friend and she was the most awesome woman i have ever met. Not like today i say i have firends but those dont match up to what she was. She was special and incredible . The stuff that she and i did were awesome and we enjoyed each others company.
This was before i screwed up!
Well at the end i stop talking to her for no reason whatsoever she tried to reach up to me i kept blocking her . One day she stopped talking to me . After that i realized i needed her , that she is important to me !and how much of a jackass i am. Anyways i tried to apologize but i've heard nothing about her and i never saw her again.
Today in the mall i saw her boyfriend/my old friend , so i said ''Hi'' so we talked a little bit and she came with those beautiful eyes and long and sweet hair. She told me how much time it has been since weve seen each other and how was life. I couldnt talk to her properly 'cause i had another girl waiting for me so i didnt want to be rude. So i kinda hurried stuff up and saild goodbye not knowing if ill ever see her again or even know if she wants to know me again . I have no contact with her ... No facebook, twitter, flickr, or even a cellphone at hand.
I truly wish at least she can be my friend again. Gosh i really miss her .
Im asking god and praying i will get a second chance . And all that i did to her back them its still eating me up inside. For 5 years with that pain inside. Sometimes i cant sleep thinking about it . I wish i can apologize and hope she could forgive me.
So anyways feeling really sad by now .
This photo is just showing 1/100 of how im feeling.
Have a good night .
And hope you like the photo.