Tomorrow Toby's ashes will be laid to rest at the foot of a tree in Fremantle cemetery.
In preparation, today, Brad and I placed Toby's ashes into the maroon satin and organza bag I made to match the gown and shawl Toby wore to her Year12 Ball.
Then I took photos. I'm disappointed because none of them turned out as I envisioned or hoped, but I've uploaded them because I wanted to make, keep and share a record of the 'next stage' in the life and death of Toby.
The bag with Toby’s ashes is on the dresser just inside our front door with a photo of Toby in a frame that Libby gave to Brad and me when Toby died. The little angel holding a dog, which reminds me of Toby, is a gift from my friend Lee. The origami crane is left over from Toby's funeral - this one might have been made by Libby or Ella, I think. scented candles from her funeral. The Shining Star bear is a gift from Libby [one of Toby's aunties], Ella and Matt [two of Toby's cousins] who bought it this Christmas because they wanted to name a star for Toby as a gift to me and Brad. In front of the bear is a folded paper and glass bead decoration made by Rowan [one of my sisters] as a Christmas gift for Brad and me.
In an attempt to increase the level of light and lend some festive cheer to this shot, I added Christmas lights. Toby used to have these lights around her bed. Like many children, she was afraid of the dark, and these little lights provided enough light for her to sleep by, and they made her room look like a fairy kingdom. Once she outgrew her fear of the dark, the lights reverted to Christmas decoration duties.