Walking along the forest path...
Yes, it's time for another Strawberry Singh meme...
1. Regardless of your current number, how old do you actually feel?
I recently turned 44, but there are times I feel a hell of a lot older. The phrase "old soul" has come up a lot, and the paunch and grey hair tell me that I'm growing into it. At least now, I know enough to deal with stupid shit by not dealing with stupid shit and letting the stupid deal with their shit themselves. (But I don't feel so old... I don't feel so old... I don't feel so old... No, I don't feel so old...)
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Never trying, because the odds are you can accomplish what you need to do, but some asshole's hiding a piece of information from you because they're afraid you'll succeed (or they're a lazy fuck). Write that shit down, hand it over, and get the fuck out of my way, you asshole. And don't run away when I come back to ask questions, because that'll just make me want to beat you harder and bloodier.
3. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
Depends on why the average life span is 40... high infant mortality rate? If you can't take care of an infant or take care of yourself to have a healthy one, DON'T FUCKIN' BREED. Leave that job to the people who can do it right, and consider a job in the help-those-people-do-it-right industry. Besides, I'm already out of diapers (and not far off from being in them again).
Regional or global conflict? Despite all the Time Magazine and Newsweek headlines claiming there's a civil war of Red vs. Blue or race wars or gender wars or wars on Christmas or other shit like that, I don't see cities burning or guns blazing. Do you? And the terrorists are welcome to keep punching New York City and Washington DC and Seattle and Los Angeles in the nuts... just don't mess with Texas, fuckers.
Or is this due to an overall decline in the environment because we've been pumping, dumping, and spewing shit all over this planet for the past few centuries?
But, hey - I'm already 44. Lots of shit that should have killed me has knocked me down and slid right off, so three cheers for me.
(And I'm not fuckin' average, baby.)
4. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
I want to do the right things, and do them right. What worries me is inaction and waiting to engage/intervene when someone needs assistance, but is too proud or unaware to ask. However, after having gotten bit by swindlers, snake-oil peddlers, and a wide range of frauds, I'm less prone to jump into situations.
5. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Mr. Michael asked this in Senior Philosophy class back in High School, and I was the only one to say joyful simpleton. When he asked why, I said "Look around. There's lots of volunteers here to fool themselves into dealing with the world's problems. Not that they'll ever solve them. And I wouldn't have to be up so fuckin' early to answer these stupid questions."
I got thrown out of class a lot.
6. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
That's a toughie, because I used to have a list in the thousands, but there were a few incidents where people used my name to open doors they had no business opening. So, I've got to protect the value of that relationship... now that list is under 200 and I'm cutting people loose day by day. I've curbkicked a shit ton of people over the years because they've irritated the hell out of me with their bullshit or their lies, or they're just too goddamned stupid to slow down and deal with all the time, or I don't really care to know if they're online or offline just now... if they need to get a hold of me, they can do a Find or email me. And because the Friends List doesn't let you categorize and sort the names based on the nature of the relationship, I'm prone to poking out the eyes or cutting people loose who misuse the contacts list for marketing and show announcement spam (ie Lauren Weyland, JWheels). So, to those people, of course not... I've been horrible, because I'm not willing to put up with their noise and crap, or let them dump their shit on me because they're too busy lying to themselves about it.
"Don't bother me with stupid shit that you can do for yourself." is rule number one, so I assume I'd expect that out of the me-like other.
On the other hand, when I'm not busy with something else important, I've been known to be a good listener, and to offer a perspective for someone who has made the effort to try to solve or accomplish something themselves. Or, if they need some kind of distraction, yeah, I'm known for having a pick-me-up laugh or two. (Even if it's pretty fuckin' dark.) And then there's the ones facing a serious nasty or awful situation that's right in my wheelhouse... those, I'll roll up my sleeves and growl "Not on my watch, fucker." before solving... but that's just for the rare folks who are honest with themselves, up against the wall, and have shown themselves to be trustworthy to others.
So, in that case - yes.
7. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
Yes. And I had every right to be. Some lazy fucker lied to me (MB Darrow) and stuck me with babysitting a totally fucked situation that was a waste of time, energy, money, and soul. And PodShow/Soho turned out to be a scam, when you think about the relationship with Adam Curry that didn't exist. If I had been told the whole story, I'd have told him to fuck himself and his worthless crazy-ass scheme. But it hardly seems to matter now, but I've made a point not to deal with the person who was the source of that bullshit, and when people ask me about that person, I give them a radioactively-glowing reference to warn them off. Because, people can grow and change, but a manipulator and exploiter is not a full person, and they never change their parasitic nature, no matter how sweet they talk themselves up (ie Skylar).
8. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
A bit over a year ago. Getting the new job and writing up stories like a storm in the downtime, all while riding my bike around to grocery stores and other places.
Didn't last. Darn.
9. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
Likely not. After buying the house and taking care of a few odds-and-ends, I'd go back to work. But the next time that a publishing deal comes up, I'd likely sign it and say goodbye to the 9-to-5.
10. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
The doctor, to see if this shit's contagious and if I've got it too.
11. What do you feel is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Purpose and accomplishment in a productive and honest manner, and to enjoy doing it.
The best scars are the ones you can point to and tell a really good story about.
12. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
Because many of the things we do are judged on immediate results, not on the long-term benefits or results.
13, What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
Nothing, because I judge myself constantly, and that's the only judge that matter.
Other people have an Inner Child that needs coddling and pampering and tiptoeing around.
Fuck that shit. I beat the shit out my my Inner Child and released a pack of Inner Pit Bulls after his whiny baby ass.
I have an Inner Richard Feynman that's a merciless son of a bitch when it comes to getting shit right, but when you do get your shit straight, he's pretty fuckin' funny about it.
Everybody else is full of shit, doesn't have the full perspective, or needs to spend more time assessing their own actions instead of mine.
14. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Um... babies don't talk or understand things, so what's the fuckin' point?
Be proud of your accomplishments and achievements, and what adds to your experience and skillset. Do not waste effort or energy in pride in your label or category, or make a career out of it (ie Jesse Jackson, Al Sharpton). The only cause you're advancing is your own at the expense of people who actually do shit for a living.