39/365 This day sucks so hard I can't even watch
I have no idea why this day is so damn blue. I guess just one of those days when I see all in darker colours than it is.
The fffking defence resit and stressful groupwork,
I ain't sure about my knowledge, what about university in the big picture?
Can I handle it, is this the thing I want to handle?
Damn, what am I going to do if this won't work out?
I don't want to go back, there is nothing I want.
How are they back home? My family?
What about the financial situation? (Better will not start)
I haven't seen my boyfirnd for some 3 weeks already and it could even make more.
Isn't that just great?
I want some strong shoulder by my side. A look at the right, at the left. Nothing.
Well have keep up think that the only person who will always be there is just me, myself.
I think today can be rated as unstable. I feel real crazy over this all.
Too many thing on my mind, way too many.
I'm so afraid.
Have to get move along and pass this shhh, no other choice,
and as Cudi says:
"See things do come around,
and make sense eventually,
Things do come around,
but some things trouble me"
I'm so feeling his Man on the Moon II today.
"These worries are heavy
They rest on my shoulders
My pride, it won't let me
Fall victim no more"