this shouldn't be happening to me
Oh god, this isn't supposed to happen to me. They said if I just pretended everything was fine then nothing could touch me. They said if I think of myself and only myself and kept doing everything I wanted to do then I would be fine. They said it was only the other people that this would happen to. The people who weren't like me. They said I'd be fine.
I can't touch things now. I always touched things even when they said we shouldn't. I touched that and that and hugged that and I let that touch me a few times especially in the places they said we could touch but only if we planned to touch forever. They said it would never happen to me. They said I'd be fine.
It's happened now. It's happened to me. It might happen to everything I touched because I didn't think anything would happen. It wasn't my responsibility to look after everyone else. It was them that should have kept out of harm's way. But it's happening to me. It's happening to everyone like me. But they said it would never happen to me. They said I'd be fine.