Are the streets you're walking on,
A thousand houses long?
Well that's where I belong,
And you belong with me,
Not swallowed in the sea.
- Coldplay, Swallowed in the Sea
Hello my friends, long time no see! I have pretty much been neither here nor there for the past while. About 8 weeks ago I saw someone killed in a terrible snowmobiling accident. It was really bad.
I was really surprised at how hard it hit me. At first I was really depressed and slept a lot, then I couldn’t seem to get off the couch. For the next few weeks I found myself just going through the motions. Visions of what I had seen just kept going through my mind. One day I was an emotional mess the next I felt numb and detached from reality. When I did finally start feeling better I felt guilty because I was moving on but my friend was still dead.
Family and Friends tried to help, and I took comfort in knowing that they were there for me but I found that this was something I really had to go through on my own. It felt like I had a broken leg, it was just going to take some time to heal.
So it’s been two months and felt it was time to try to express these feelings in a photo. I wanted to show the feelings that I was going through – sadness, guilt, vapidness, confusion and isolation. I am feeling better now, but I don’t think I will ever be the same.
Thank you for all of your help and support during this rough time. I hope that I will be able to return the favor some day.
p.s. Yea, Chuck it does look like I've lost the remote. :)