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Learning to Sell Yourself - The next chapter in My Journey “Home”

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Only two weeks after my pageant début I pushed myself to once again to sharpen my presentation skills by entering a local amateur talent contest.

 

One of the many mental road blocks that I must tear down is the “intimidation factor”. It seems I am surrounded by girls whose talents and experiences all overshadow my novelty and naiveté. Nevertheless, I am training my timid side to persevere through my self-doubts and self-unworthiness.

 

The major differences in this leg of my journey is that I am learning to appear comfortable, congenial, and charismatic with an audience as opposed to my public outings en femme where I am learning to appear comfortable, congenial, and charming with individuals. Both skills necessitate practice, persistence and even more practice.

 

While performing Stephanie Mills’ HOME, I psychologically presumed there would be snickering at my performance. I felt my inexperience was palpable so when I heard cheers from some in the audience I instantly brushed it off as pity (you can see how messed up I am in the head, so sisters don’t envy me!)

 

But when the dollars started pouring in so much so that I lost my place in the music I realized there must be legitimacy in their support. I thank God for this demonstration that changed my perspective on the spot.

 

I am learning how not to sell myself…short!

 

Love, Denise

  

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Taken on May 15, 2012