9/9/10 - Heartbreak
Before I go any further with this entry, I just want to warn you about the content. Please remember this is my therapy for depression at the moment so it may make for upsetting reading, as it is brutally honest. Better out than in though as they say!?
OK guys, I'll come clean. There is a bit of acting going on in this photo.
However, many of us have experienced real heartbreak in one way or another in our lives. If you haven't, I hope you never have to feel it.
It is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.
I take issue with this statement. If someone could have told me at the start of my relationships about how much heartbreak I would suffer at the end, I would have stopped to think for a moment.
My last relationship ended about 3 years ago and I still get reminders of that horrendous heartbreak to this day. To have someone you love be honest with you and say they are not in love with you anymore, is the most devastating thing you will ever hear.
I don't remember what I did with myself for the next month or so because I was completely numb. Physically and emotionally. I haven't been the same person since really.
I'm still friends with her and I wish her all the best. She couldn't help how she felt. I would rather have her honesty than pity.
Don't get me wrong, I don't cry myself to sleep about it every night. Occasionally though, something will remind me of my feelings at the time and my heart sinks.
Maybe I will move on someday soon but I never want to go through that ache again. Catch 22 I guess!