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i've been without internet for nearly over a week. there has been a certain peace that i've enjoyed. a slowing down. pajamas in the backyard. evening walks. this includes holding onto river with every moment i have, knowing he'll be spending the month of august away from me. i can't believe it's already mid-july. i think about our big upcoming goodbye alot, i think i'll catch my breath at the end of august.
so, i've done alot of reading this week with no internet. and i just wrote down the best ever last line from a book that seemed to fit my mood today:
"there is the before. and then there is the after. happiness is what you choose, what you follow, not what follows you. these are the things i have seen, these are the things i now know, these are the things i will carry with me as i go."