Not In The Really Real World

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    Squibs are those little packs of fake blood that trigger to pop when an electric current is applied. So it looks like you got shot, on cue. The squibs were in the grocery bag. No blood, just a little something to break the "bullet" holes in the bag. The blood squibs were lined up behind the bag, under his shirt. So when he was shot on camera, it would look good, like he was gut shot for real. Except there was a chunk of metal or plastic lodged in the barrel of the revolver, left over from a tragic series of mistakes made during an exhausting film shoot. So when the gun fired, it may as well have been loaded with a real bullet. He went down, the squibs went off, blood spattered, director yelled "cut!" But it was wrong. It took the cast and crew a good minute to realize something was wrong. He wasn't getting up. He lay there, the fake blood masking the real wound in his abdomen. They were ninety minutes from the nearest hospital. The last night of shooting. Six days from his wedding.

    and that's how Brandon Lee died.

    I have a certain connection to The Crow. I found most of the issues in a bargain bin. It was beautiful, angry work. The creator lost a loved one, and poured his loss into this art, this story. It was the first comic I read that wasn't a comic. It meant something, it was trying to be something more. I wanted Brandon to play that character, years before there was a movie. I wanted Brandon to make a dozen movies, two dozen. But The Crow more than anything, The Crow first. I carry a weird bit of guilt for that. Probably doesn't help he's buried a few blocks from my house. Next to his Father.

    The Crow taught me how to use ink. The Crow taught me that a person could write and draw their own story, and publish it on their own terms. The Crow taught me that people I thought I'd see grow old and do really interesting things, could just end, and vanish away. And the survivors, the people who knew them, and how they could feel guilty in large and small ways, for their deaths.

    And now here we are with Heath. He wanted to do something more with what should have been a simple summer superhero movie. He brought everything he had, no compromise, to try to make it something greater. To tell a story, a real story. And it cost him everything too. Another man, lost wearing clown makeup trying to make a comic book real.

    There's a scene in The Crow, when one of the bad guys realizes Brandon's character is back from the dead. He knows this because he's the guy that shot him dead. And he says to him, "You can't come back. This is the really real world. You can't come back in the really real world."

    He was the actor who shot Brandon dead.

    It always makes me cry.

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    1. The Searcher 81 months ago | reply

      gocarrt: yeah I saw that. Quite frankly, he's more frightening without makeup.

      Makes me wonder if I should be sending in more stuff to magazines though.

    2. cocainomano 81 months ago | reply

      you're right...

    3. Jasmic 80 months ago | reply

      I saw the Dark Night a few weeks back. What an amazing film. And Heath was awesome.

    4. Life on Film 80 months ago | reply

      Is there anything else I can add to this? I don't really think so..
      I guess I relegate myself to saying thanks-your photostream is so different (in a good way) from anything else here

      Which raises the question... is photostream even the right word...what with the illustrations and words and all

    5. shan-suki 80 months ago | reply

      i dont get the story but the painting is amazing!!!

    6. *WHite HaLo* 79 months ago | reply

      god! great work =)

    7. Shangri-La Productions [deleted] 76 months ago | reply

      Hi, I'm an admin for a group called ART from Shangri-La, and we'd love to have this added to the group!

      Nothing short of BRILLIANT!!!!

    8. Shangri-La Productions [deleted] 76 months ago | reply

      Hi, I'm an admin for a group called Creative ART Techniques in Shangri-La, and we'd love to have this added to the group!

    9. Shangri-La Productions [deleted] 76 months ago | reply

      Hi, I'm an admin for a group called Illustrators SketchBook Etc...., and we'd love to have this added to the group!

    10. wishwon 76 months ago | reply

      you are a great artist, with some backbone. High level of skill man

    11. Zack Sheppard 76 months ago | reply

      Good to see the story in Fray! :)

    12. Simply Stardust 76 months ago | reply

      This story is truly touching, along with the art. I too have a soft spot for The Crow.

      Thanks so much for sharing.

    13. p@n [deleted] 74 months ago | reply

      very cool draw

    14. Drummy ™© 72 months ago | reply

      this image,and these words... i connect with them. i too loved brandon,the crow and followed both brandons and heaths career and death with personal attachment. i admire this and i am in awe of your talent.

    15. PIXXELGAMES - Robert Krenker 70 months ago | reply

      Hi, I'm an admin for a group called Roberts_ArtGallery (Admin-invite only), and we'd love to have this added to the group!

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    17. joesph09 52 months ago | reply

      great painting, the other art is good too.

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