© Sarah Allegra
I frequently mourn the health I once had, the life I once had, everything ME has taken away from me. I mourn for those who I wish I could have gotten to know in this life and not just in the next. I still mourn the loss of our previous home with our incredible neighbors, even though this place is finally feeling more like home and we have great new neighbors here. Mourning is a universal human experience; I'm sure every one of you can think of things you mourn.
My new city has a lovely, tiny, serene, old little cemetery within what would be walking distance for most people from my home. I wanted to shoot there when I had the excellent Teri Wyble over (quite a while ago now, I'm terribly behind on editing). I didn't know exactly why I wanted to shoot there, or what I was trying to say at the time. This sometimes happens. I've learned by now to just go with it, that its reason will become clear to me later. That was the case with this image. I asked Teri to imagine this was the grave of someone she loved and missed horribly; someone whose loss she still mourned. I don't know if she was tapping into a loss in her own life or if she's just very good at imagining, but she portrayed exactly what I wanted:
Loss. An inability to move on from the blow of death.
But I didn't want it to be completely bleak. The birds swooping in to comfort her speaks to me of the healing that comes after we let ourselves grieve. Yes, you have to pass through the darkness first, but there is eventually light. Sometimes it comes to you on feathered wings when you least expect it.
Whether the viewer has recently experienced this themselves or not, it's such a common part of just being human, I wanted to create this. Not to wallow in the mud of despair, but to remind myself that the heaviness will someday lift. The pain will ease. The grief will lessen. Maybe even, a treatment will eventually work.
Thank you so very much, Teri, for your beautiful, emotive modeling! You are a wonderful human being and model. :)
Enjoy, my friends! If this speaks to you, I'd love to hear what it brings up if you'd like to share that in the comments!
Read more about this image and recent life/heath adventures on my blog.