J Lo: Hunts Point, Bronx
"I'm like a walking corpse. I just want it to end already. I don't have dreams no more." -- J Lo
J Lo, 40, was raised in a middle class home in Florida, where she was born to parents addicted to heroin, who both later died of AIDS. At 30, she journeyed to Hunts Point to bury a family member and stayed, where she began abusing drugs and doing sex work. Initially, she worked in a neighborhood factory. "I was coming out of the paper factory with a check for $68, when a guy pulled up and said 'how much?' I said, 'how much do you usually fucking pay?' He said, '$100.' I said, '$125.' And then he gave it to me, and I said, 'oh shit, it's this easy?'" Heroin followed, as did a long-term relationship with a man she calls her enabler.
"When I started doing heroin, I guess my body remembered it from my parents. It was easy for me to catch on. I'm at the point where I don't understand it. I just want more." About herself, she said, "I'm very kindhearted, naive at times. I'm lost and scared."