Millie again: Hunts Point, Bronx
"Perhaps if people see my picture on the computer they can pray for me. I am getting too old for this. When you're tired you're tired." Below is what I wrote on Millie last time I saw her:
Millie, 40, got into heroin at the age of twenty-three, and has been addicted since. For the last seventeen years she's been in and out of rehab and jail (possession and prostitution) and mothered four children. Her first three children she gave to her mother, and when her mother passed, to her sister. The sister, unable to support them, gave them to the state.
When she found out she was pregenant with a fourth, a little over a year ago, she entered a methadone clinic. 'I was almost always clean, I really wanted it for myself and my child. When I was seven months I slipped, I did a speedball. The baby was born premature and addicted to crack.' This child was also taken by the state.
Soft spoken but direct when I asked what her dream was she said, "I just want my kids. I can't ever do crack or heroin again. I can't."
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