Christian "Gudda": East Tremont Bronx
Christian, 39, has been at VIP Community Services four 4 months. He started selling drugs at 15. Initially he didn't use much, "I am a hustler more than an addict. I could take dirt off this floor and make something." As he grew successful he started taking greater risks, "I though I was the king of New York. I was addicted to the fast lane. I was so used to having large quantity of drugs around, but the money was the bigger high. I'm manipulating like a puppet master."
Almost ten years ago he descending into heavy drug use; PCP, LSD, and pills. "I'm a unique drug user. I don't do what everyone else does." He lost all his money, did jail time, and was stabbed 12 times, "My own people set me up to rob me." Talking about PCP he said "I was doing crazy shit; car surfing, train surfing."
Now clean he wants to refocuses on his studies. He showed us his notebooks, filled with writings and songs, books that are his passion and that he always keeps close. In High School he was a very good student, on the debate team, and he attended College for Electrical Engineering. Christian hopes to go back to College, perhaps get certified as a plumber or welder.
When I asked him how he wanted to be described he said "I never judge nobody. You find out that some addicts come from prominent places. I have been at both places, high and low."
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