Day 259/365 ~ Shyness is Nice and Shyness Can Stop You from Doing All the Things in Life You'd Like To [Explored!]

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October 24, 2011.
Featured on the Flickr blog March 21, 2012. Thank you :)
This is one of my wonderful friends and her Polaroid
Thank you Tane for the testimonial <3

I used to think that I was just merely one of those people who preferred being alone. Or that I was unfriendly, or slightly segregated from the rest - something along those lines, something that would explain the discomfort I felt in social situations, the tenseness when I had to meet someone new, the fear of standing up in front of a large audience to speak.
Then people told me, quite simply, that I was shy. That was all.
And I managed to accept it, after that. Couldn't look someone in the eyes? That was fine, I was shy. Dislike public speaking? That was okay, it was still considered being shy. I was scared of meeting new people, hated plunging into huge groups and crowds, persistently refused to look at anyone in the eyes, would rather walk into a door than walk into a classroom full of people who, I knew, would lift their heads up and gaze at me.. in the few seconds they were probably wondering, 'Who is that girl' I would process the fear of being judged, the fear of being stared at, sick awkwardness and tension. Basically, everything unpleasant.
If you're shy, you, too, would understand all those feelings. The unspoken social pressures of being able to fit in, being able to be accepted, avoiding public humiliation, avoiding so many things. So, so many things. It stops me from approaching people, talking to strangers, looking friendly, appearing confident, speaking publicly, and so on. I wonder sometimes if that is why I have somehow fallen into the world of photography, because holding a camera on the pretext of capturing a moment also acts as an opaque shield for my emotions. I think of all the people who don't know the reasons, who don't know in essence who I really am, who just think of me as 'that photographer'.. that reminds me again of how passing quick judgement on someone just causes you to lose a person who you might have known, but never bothered to find out. They have lost me, in that sense.

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  1. Ellwantstoholdyourhand<3 61 months ago | reply

    THIS IS STUNNING<333 Just perfect!

  2. genya rachel 61 months ago | reply

    soo pretty :) I love the light leak.

  3. beyoung 61 months ago | reply

    i want that camera!

  4. Tané 61 months ago | reply

    perfectly stated .haha and love the take ~~! <3
    it wouldn't be to bad having one of those..
    thanks for the tag ^^

  5. fatimabrrn 61 months ago | reply

    beautifully taken and processed.

    I can totally relate. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in those thoughts.

  6. aishia☯ 61 months ago | reply

    i completely agree with you <3
    i love this <333

  7. Emz Nocedo 61 months ago | reply

    oh my your the subtle leak and that polaroid...and your stop motion, you are truly talented and amazing.

  8. amandawxr 61 months ago | reply

    i can completely relate to that <3

  9. Enrojecerse [deleted] 61 months ago | reply

    que bonitaaaaa

  10. bellejune 61 months ago | reply

    honey, i have missed you so.

    this is absolutely beautiful<3
    the color is stunning, the light leak and that camera!! i want!


  11. still hoping. 61 months ago | reply

    Your description hits me so hard. It's like you just put my life into your lovely words, thank you so much. I completely understand it, that shyness.
    Ahh your polaroid is so awesome! The background and the leak are perfect!

  12. winter hearts [deleted] 61 months ago | reply

    your nails and camera are lovely. so are the pale colors. :) and your words also hit me hard, like Charmaine said. i've always been considered "shy," and it's hard to be put into that category all the time. photography is an outlet for all those things i could never say.

  13. sameraaaa [deleted] 61 months ago | reply

    your nails <3

  14. YagmurB 59 months ago | reply

    aww polaroid <3
    and photo is beautiful.

  15. johannas' 59 months ago | reply

    i used to be like that

    beautiful photo !

  16. Aiswarya@ [deleted] 55 months ago | reply

    a beautiful shot...:)
    nice to come across this,a true reflection of me n my feelings,n many other shy n introverted people around,understand each n very word n the feel behind it....take care :)

  17. brunneta 52 months ago | reply

    i guess I'm kinda shy.

    but i think the best photographers are the shyest people. <3

  18. VictoriaNaboursPhotography 48 months ago | reply

    I love all your photos :) Amazing job :)

  19. m_travels 11 months ago | reply

    I have one of those! But no film :( great photo! Fun!

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