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03.365 (02.08.2009) Faith

Sometimes I don't have enough faith. This past week was an example of that. So many just plain crappy things happened to me. It was quite possibly the worst week of the year (so far) for me. Despite the wonderful weather we had. Yesterday at church I pretty much got knocked over the head from Jesus. He's like, DUDE HANNAH LISTEN TO ME FOR ONCE. My church has a podcast, and I can't wait to be able to listen to the sermon again.

 

I wish I could say more about this, but there are soo many thoughts running through my head right now. Maybe once I get a chance to listen to that sermon again I'll be able to explain more.

 

Faith is hard to have, when you don't trust the Lord, or when you find it hard to trust in Jesus. This week I was lacking in it, but I forgot to trust him, and know that he is always in control, and that everything does happen for a reason.

 

God help me to have the faith to trust you, and trust you to have faith in me even when I don't. Thank you for being my everything, and thanks for putting up with my crap, and my moods even though you don't have to. Thank you for loving me for me, even at my worst moments. Thank you for having faith enough in me to know that I will come around soon and see my mistakes. I love you Abba.

 

Trust You - Brandon Heath

 

I can’t walk without watching where I’m going

I can’t speak without knowing what to say

I can’t love without any hesitation, ‘cause I know that you don’t work that way

I can’t reach without something to offer

I can’t come now, I am so ashamed

I can’t hold out for you any longer, ‘cause I know that you don’t work that way

 

I’m not gonna fight you anymore

I’m not gonna try to lock the door

You took my life and gave me yours

There’s no reason why, I shouldn’t trust you with mine

 

It’s never easy changing direction

It’s so unnatural to loosen up my grip

Are you growing weary, of all my good intentions, ‘cause I know that you don’t work that way

 

I’m not gonna fight you anymore

I’m not gonna try to lock the door

You took my life and gave me yours

There’s no reason why, I shouldn’t trust you with mine

 

Some days this weight upon my shoulders is my shame I know I should know better

‘Cause you say that I must now surrender, there’s no other way

 

I’m not gonna fight you anymore

I’m not gonna try to lock the door

You took my life and gave me yours

There’s no reason why, I shouldn’t trust you with mine

 

I’m not gonna fight you anymore

I’m not gonna try to lock the door

You took my life and gave me yours

There’s no reason why, no good reason why

I shouldn’t trust you with mine

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Taken on February 8, 2009