jour cent trente six (why don't you love me)
(136:365) this was actually inspired by my friend antoinette tran - and just kind of how i have been feeling. i had an awful morning - and i cried but it also gave me the guts to do something i have been pushing off for a very very long time.
i often feel like i am just pushed easily aside in people's lives - and that i am not really important. it's easy to feel that way sometimes - you know?
and this morning this was how i felt as i sat alone in my apartment (jason was out with his dad) i was convinced no one was showing up to my girl's night. i dunno.
turned out to be a great night - my two friends becki and becky (haha i know) came and jason's sister was here. we had a fun time - and in the end... well you know that thing i said i did? well .... i'll just say it worked out for the best... i think i will explain more about that tomorrow but it's a good good thing ^_^ so i'm really happy with how my 21st birthday played out.