Self Portrait, from 2010ish.
She was beautiful, she was loved.. she was in love with life. She had it all, so she thought. She'd felt it all, done it all.. She'd lived, so she thought.
She had no idea..
She laughed. She exploded with happiness. And she force fed her brain unmanageable amounts of serotonin and dopamine every day.
So happy, couldn't even put it into words,,
Followed by total devastation.. For there were no words.
She thought she was at the bottom sometimes, yet, she had no idea ..
She thought she had it all.
Until finally she lost it all..
& Thought she'd lost it all.
She had no idea
So to get rid of the broken heartache, she force fed her brain unmanageable amounts of serotonin and dopamine, again and again.. Until her brain had no more left.
She thought she'd felt depression. & horror.. But she had no idea.
Rock bottom was coming..
It was inevitable. It would come. & Eventually it did.
((to be continued in additional photos))