In Between Awake And Asleep
This photo is beginning a new series for me, one based on my struggles with having chronic fatigue. It's largely not well understood, by both the medical community and the population at large. People who have it are often have their symptoms questioned, are made to believe it's all in their head, and sometimes accused of simply being downright lazy. From my own experience and speaking with many other people who have chronic fatigue, nothing could be further from the truth. We fight extremely hard against this illness and try every possible treatment, go through every test imaginable. I myself have had almost 30 doctors appointments and have seen eight different specialists just this year.
I wanted to start this series to address many of the misconceptions surrounding the disease and also give those who do not have it the ability to experience it vicariously through my works. It's hard to grasp how life-altering and truly debilitating being exhausted all the time, no matter what you do is. I hope that this series will help raise awareness off the disease and help eradicate many of the misconceptions the public has about it.
The one I chose to kick things off with is about the feeling of constant fatigue itself, which is often accompanied by an inability to sleep once you're actually in bed. It's incredibly frustrating. You spend your entire day wishing you could just go back to bed, and once you're there, you do nothing but lie awake. Very similar to people who have insomnia. I often feel like I'm living in my own twilight world, neither fully awake, nor quite asleep.
I hope you all enjoy this one and the many which will follow it.