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luckywhitegirl 5:05pm, 1 January 2007
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luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
We won't. She wrote back:

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Hey Barb,
I'm sorry you feel that way about the CW. I remember things somewhat differently. I am sure, though, that we never intentionally excluded anyone who shared the same vision for the house and who wanted to work with us to bring it about - including you, Bob, Pat, or anyone else. David and Rebecca were the first "takers," (they were in their mid-20s, wanted to live in a Christian community, and needed a place to stay while Rebecca finished her doctorate; they were a joy and we learned a lot from each other) and since then we have had some wonderful and diverse people join us. We feel like we enjoy the support of the community, that people find the house to be a very welcoming place, and that it has been good for the community overall, especially those who need a place to stay and something good to eat. I miss being more involved. B.'s illness was really a punch in the gut... But we're doing our best. I'm sorry if our finally getting the house afer you had moved away (at the time we all thought permanently) hurt your feelings. It was chance that the house became available at that time. It's been rocky at times, but I'm so grateful we have the house and it has had the impact that it has had on folks despite the difficulties in mine and J.'s personal lives. And yes, I am happy for the most part. I feel like I can face anything with J. as my partner.

Thank you for the kind words about B. and about our past relationship. I am trying to see things in the big picture at this point in my life. Sometimes the immediate is so difficult and wrought with conflict. I trust that if we keep doing what we feel is right, being honest, trying to love.. that things will work out in the end.

Call me when you are ready to pick up your things and we can decide how best to get them to you.

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Didn't say she missed me too or that the friendship also meant a lot to her.

No, we won't see each other. I won't call her and we'll probably never talk about it again. It's just over. It's been over. For years.
Tom Hall (tommune) 11 years ago
Awww. Thoughts are with your during this difficult time.

Tom Tommune's 2007 in Austin
AliThinks 11 years ago
I'm sorry. ((hug))
AllanThinks 11 years ago
I'm sorry it ended like that. The only advice I can give is to look to a bright future. Don't look back.

Allan
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Monday January 29, 2007

Wow, things can change fast around here. A friend of mine and her partner and their 3 year old baby have moved into the spare room. For just a coupla weeks.

We've lived together before --in fact that was one of the best times of my life, back when we used to share a house on 4th Ave. That was back when she was just pregnant with him. Before I went to Colombia. It was Sand and Ian in the back room, my roommate Rob in the 2nd bedroom and our friend Randy (and often his boyfriend) on the porch. It was great. A real community house. We ate like kings. We'd grow everything in our garden and there was only one person in the house -Rob- who WASN'T a cook. Everyone else would whip up these amazing hippy gourmet dishes and that, for the most part, is where I learned to cook.

So needless to say I'm happy to have them back. And now they have Sol with them too. He's the most amazing child. I'm fascinated by him. Tonight for dinner Ian made his famous "Julio Caesár" salad which is his own invention of various sorts of kale tossed with virgin coconut oil (unrefined) and plain yogurt (equal parts with the coconut) then lemon or lime juice and lots and lots of seaweed (such as dulse) and a bit of salt. Season with whatever you like: black pepper, Braggs (which like soy sauce --if you use this don't use the salt) or freshly ground cayenne or jalepiño peppers, even finely grated dark chocolate, he says.

So anyway here's Sand and Sol setting the coffee table for our first dinner together. Sol is my favorite subject so if he's around, expect to be seeing lots more pictures of him over the coming weeks.

sAnd & sOl
AliThinks 11 years ago
Mmm. Lovely photo of lovely people. I'm glad that you have family living with you again, even if it is just for a while. It will do you good.

Alison
AllanThinks 11 years ago
What Alison said. Your entry reminded me of dear friends from my college days.

It's so wonderful to reconnect with them. I got a chance todso so at Christmas in New York. And it was so great to introduce Alison to my dearest friend (other than her).

Allan
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Tuesday January 30 (already?? sheesh where'd the month go?) 2007.

I showed Sol the garden today and we ate fresh peas and carrots. I mean really fresh. They came out of the ground and into our mouths (well, we washed the dirt off first). He's so cute. He's the only kid I know who will tell you what his favorite kind of kale is (it's dragon's tongue).

rabbit boy
AliThinks 11 years ago
I just love this photo. Sol is adorable.

Alison
CollardGreens PRO Posted 11 years ago. Edited by CollardGreens (member) 11 years ago
Hello again - I just came to realize you are in Gainesville, FLA, USA...I went to school there in the 70's (now I live in Paris).

Really funny place then...streaking (for benefit of those who do not know - it is running naked [nekkid in fla dialect] in a group through public places) just began - actually it was invented in Gainesville !!

Anyway - IF IF IF you have Collard Greens in your garden - could you take a photo of them for me?? I realllly miss them !

CollardGreens: Oops
Jonathan Riverwalker 11 years ago
good job with the lighting on sol's face in th candle shot
truly one of the greatest pleasures of gardening is watching kids' faces whey pull up a bright orange carrot from the ground ... and then you say - go ahead, eat it -

@greens - now come on - dya really believe streaking was invented in gainesville? floridians were the only one to EVER to think of taking their clothes off?
AllanThinks 11 years ago
A kid who loves kale? How cool is that? Kale was a staple in my family, although it took me many years to truly appreciate it.

Now Ali and I cook it all the time.

Allan
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Wednesday January 31, 2007

Last night I finished my best hat of the season. Here's a detail of it.

cable hat detail

Also today I spent $274 on more memory for my laptop and an external harddrive to back up my photos. This thing is just running way too slowly these days. I only have about 8 GBs free on my hard disk so maybe that's it. I'm guessing that's not very much. And I only have 256 MB of RAM which they say is the minimum. So more memory will make it faster and if I keep most of my photos on the external hard drive (I have thousands of photos and they're mostly the largest resolution possible) that'll free up space and should make it faster too. At least I hope so. I don't really know a lot about computers but I've been asking around and several people have suggested doing one or both of these things. [note to self: ask Danny G. in Peru about this too.] So I really hope this helps. Otherwise I'll have to buy a new computer!
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Thursday February 1, 2007

February 1st: Salad days

Off to a friend's birthday party, no time to write. Maybe later...
sunshinecity 11 years ago
wow, the detail of your hat is great... what a great colour!
That portrait of Sol is just fab!!! I love his little freckles!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
Jonathan Riverwalker 11 years ago
does Sol like salad?
Inside Out
mbauhs PRO 11 years ago
What a cute picture for the 30th! I love it. Some other really great portraits and closeups earlier in your diary too. nice.
BellaGaia PRO 11 years ago
I adore the photo of Sol for the 30th -- just precious. Everything is right about it -- composition, color, lighting, detail -- and it wouldn't be as good without the carrot -- great capture!

BellaGaia (Living with BellaGaia)
dda1605 11 years ago
great pic. of Sol on the 30th. A real commercial for carrots......


(Didier 2007 )
AllanThinks 11 years ago
I love that shot, Barb! A lovely composition.

Allan
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Friday January 2, 2007

Day 81

I got my new hard drive today (already! only two days after I ordered it) and I was going to post the photo of it today but I thought this one was more interesting.

sigh.

I feel like crap today. That's just all there is to it. Crap, crap, crap. I don't know what to do about it either. But I'm going to a sock workshop at the yarn store tomorrow so maybe that'll help.

God, I'm just so ready to get out of here! I want a new job, new friends, a whole new life.

It started yesterday. I have this aquaintance who sorta drives me crazy. She's very needy and flaky and --just weird. One time she came over and sat down and wanted to have a heart-to-heart conversation about how I had said something three years ago that hurt her feelings. I don't remember what I said last week much less three freakin' years ago!

So yesterday she called up in the afternoon and wanted to come over. I was just about to lay down for a nap so I said it wasn't a good time for me to hang out. Then I changed the subject and said I'd see her later that night (we were going to a party at 7). She changed the subject back and said that actually she really wasn't going to hang out she just wanted to come over and have some quiet time. Again I said it just wasn't a good time. She insisted and finally, not even bothering to mask the annoyance in my voice, I said fine through clenched teeth. Whatever. The door's open. I'm going to bed. And hung up.

I was really tired but I couldn't sleep. I finally got up and went out into the living room to find her laying under a blanket on the bean bag. I sat down on the sofa and asked her if we could talk. I told her I thought it was incredibly rude of her to do what she did and I know she's going through a hard time (she recently had an emotional breakdown) but that didn't give her the right to disrespect me and ignore my boundaries etc. The world doesn't revolve around you, I said. I want to be supportive but you've been over here the past two nights and I'm going to see you again tonight, so why can't I have a few hours to myself? She said she was sorry she felt like we miscommunicated and would go. So then to show I wasn't holding any grudges I showed her a hat I was knitting. It was for another friend of mine, I said but I don't think it's exactly her colors. It did remind me of you though, would you like it?

There was a long pause and then she said no that if I made it for someone else and not for her than it wasn't special at all and she got really insulted and left.

sigh.

Okay. So she's got issues. Maybe I didn't handle it so great but I still think my request that she not come over at that particular moment was reasonable. But I think I should've been kinder in my words. Or waited until I wasn't so annoyed before talking to her. At any rate it ruined my whole day. I hated having to go to the party afterwards. And even today I still feel badly.

The only bright spot is that my good friend Sand is here with her baby and they keep me happy. I'm really glad they're here right now.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Nice photo. Love the dog in the background.

Sometimes it's hard for people who're fragile to sense the boundaries. I'm sorry that you are feeling bad about what happened yesterday, but try to put it out of your mind. Your friend will either get over it, or she won't. I'm not saying that you have to be insensitive to that, but that it's not your problem.

Alison
satrina* 11 years ago
I think when all this happened she was thinking of nothing but herself, you let her know it wasn't a good time and she chose to ignore your request, how I see it you handled it the best way. Hope you're feeling better and it's great you have your friends there. Sol is so lovely, I like specially his pic with the carrot.

Satrina: av meg
Loca.... 11 years ago
Just catching up...
Sol is so so cute and lovely.

Like the hat you made, looks great.

I agrre with satrina* an d also hope you're feeling better today.

Loca
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Saturday February 3, 2007

socks! socks! socks! I've finally learned how to knit socks!! I went to a sock workshop. I probably coulda just followed the instructions on a basic sock pattern but it was good for me to get out of the house and hang out with some new people. Plus I learned that I was not picking up stitches the right way. Anyway it was so much fun I bought enough yarn to make three pairs of socks. And on the way home I stopped by Bohannon's and bought some hot boiled peanuts. (Bohannon's is a mom and pop gas station here.) Knitting socks and eating hot boiled peanuts! What a great way to spend a Saturday, so yeah I'm feeling a little bit better.

sock yarn and peanuts

But I still want a new job, new friends and a new life.
Jonathan Riverwalker 11 years ago
my buddy norm used to throw the peanuts down on the floor of his ram truck - and when i bought it from him (what did i need a full size truck for again please remind me - oh yeah so i could help all my friends move LOL) when i bought the ram i just carried on the tradition and i now i find it hard to stop - it doesnt get the same laughs in a civic ??

i want to learn to knit - in fact excuse me while i skip back to my diary to add knitting to my list for ebilflindas - bye :)
sunshinecity 11 years ago
that yarn looks so pretty! I'm glad you got pout of the house... sometimes a change of scenery is a good thing. I know what it feels like to be restless while you're waiting for something you really want to happen. Have patience, I'm sure it will all come together when you least expect it... it did to me!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Sunday February 4, 2007

I am so tired of waiting for these jobs I put in for to call me back. I thought for sure at least a couple would be interested. Nothing, nothing,nothing. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe Monday.

I had a pretty okay day yesterday. Today I'm having another bad one. I feel so crappy. That aquaintance I mentioned above the one that was so rude --I don't know. None of my friends sympathize with me very much on that and I feel badly for talking to other people about it. Like I was talking badly about her behind her back and I guess I am so I deserve it. Everyone's really sympathetic to her because of her breakdown. I should be happy she's getting all this support though. She needs it more than I do right now. But god I just wish I had one good close friend who supported ME (like someone who didn't know her). Someone I could vent to and not worry about them judging me. I don't have any one like that. All of my friends are good friends of hers. Jezus, this is so STUPID, I don't understand why it upsets me so much! Crap-o.
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
[rereading the above]
great. now I'M the one who has issues!
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
I am feeling a little thoughtful now ... and a little ambitious. I think I should move to Spain.
AliThinks 11 years ago
:-)

Why not? Start looking for work there. I'm not sure how the visa situation is compared to France, but there have to be ways to get work and a visa.
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Sunday February 4th, 2007

The photo was taken before midnight, not posted before midnight. I wasn't going to take one at all but I changed my mind at the last minute. The cornucopia of living with my friend Sand. Those things at the bottom, did you know they used to be called Aligator Pears? At least according to a reference to an early 20th century novel I'm reading....

February 4th: Cornucopia

Just got back from seeing Pan's Labyrinth with a couple movie-going buddies of mine. It sorta helped my mood. A little. Maybe. Maybe things will get better tomorrow. I've officially applied for a grand total of eight jobs so far. It's too soon to be so discouraged.

because the only job I could get there would be teaching english and I coulda done that six years ago and saved myself all the trouble of getting this degree in IR. That's why not.
AliThinks Posted 11 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 11 years ago
I was hoping it wouldn't be like France (i.e. only getting a job teaching English).

Eight jobs is not many. Really. Hang in there.

Alison

PS: I'd forgotten about "alligator pears"! :-)
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Monday February 5, 2007

I applied for the nineth job today. AmazonWatch. Environment and Human Rights Coordinator. Based out of San Fran. $37-39/yr!

Here's the book I finished today:

Dos Passos

John Dos Passos... One of my favorite, favorite authors. I think we read The Big Money in one of my lit classes. I never read the rest of the USA trilogy. But today I just finished the first novel in the series, The 42nd Parallel. Excellent, just excellent.

This was one of those books I just liked living in. I was sad when it ended. I guess I just like being back in that golden age of socialism when Wobblies were everywhere and the revolution was just around the corner. Anyway, maybe later I can copy an excerpt here. Dos Passos --if you remember from school days-- used different literary techniques: the camera eye, which is like like snippets of daily life back then sorta autobiographical. Newsreels which are like cut and paste headlines from the papers and then the bulk of the novel is the stories of these various characters who are kinda representative of different classes (you know the corporate PR guy who makes a killing inventing the Chamber of Commerce, the poor working stiff who realizes the system only benefits a few and he's not one of them, the secretaries who end up working for the Rockefellers and the Carnegies etc.) It's just a great historical novel. If you liked the movie Reds you should revisit Dos Passos. He s reminds us what was great about this country.
satrina* 11 years ago
I've never read any of his books but this one sounds really interesting, I'm making a list for the books I wanna buy when I get a job, I'll put this one in it.

Satrina: av meg
sunshinecity 11 years ago
don't despair on the job front! I know it's awful waiting for someone to call you, but sooner or later it will happen... look at me! I've been looking for a job since october and only got hired now in feb.!!!!
Patience is a virtue you'll have to learn to have!!
Best of luck!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
I know, I know... I'm trying to get better, fer real! lol...


you'll like it, then! I promise!
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Tuesday February 6, 2007

Didn't do much today but worked on a sock and biked to the grocery store. Saw this tree on the way. I don't know what it is.

red white and blue
satrina* 11 years ago
I don't know what it is either but it looks great against the dark blue sky
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Wednesday February 7, 2007

February 7th: Lavender and aloe
eelend PRO 11 years ago
very delicate :)
satrina* 11 years ago
Great DOF! The one in the bottom is aloe?
AliThinks 11 years ago
I love the photo of the tree from the 6th. And the shadows in this photo are nice.

Alison
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Thursday February 8, 2007

February 8th: Sadie
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
yeah, well, it's a kind of aloe but yeah... it's still little so that's why it's a bit hard to recognize.
sunshinecity 11 years ago
oh what beautiful pic from the 6th!!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
satrina* 11 years ago
This is one happy dog! Love her expression :)
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Friday February 9, 2007

Sand and Sol

This is my friend who is the mother of Sol, seen above eating a carrot. I love hanging out with them. Today we went to the playground where I took lots of pictures and we all got to play on the new playset that has lots of interesting contraptions that playsets didn't have when I was a kid.

It was an okay day today.

I planted some new seeds in my garden. I wonder where I'll be when they come up.
AllanThinks 11 years ago
Playgrounds in my childhood were nothing like what they create today. But we still had fun. And we exercised our imaginations.

Glad you had a good day. We did, too.

Allan
AliThinks 11 years ago
Happy dog, happy kid. :-)

Alison
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Saturday February 10, 2007

Not much happened today. I read Bill Bryson's memoir and have almost finished a sock. I went to the garden once to see if the seeds I planted yesterday had done anything interesting yet! lol.. Sadie posed for me in the sun.

February 10th: garden dog
sunshinecity 11 years ago
what a cool garden, what's growing there?

Great portrait of Sol and his mom!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 11 years ago
Ooh, I love Bill Bryson, but I haven't read that yet. Did you like it?

Alison
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
yeah for the most part I liked it. It's a great tour of the 50s. Pretty incredible sometimes but those were the times I guess. It was good. Maybe a little jarring sometimes when he switches gears unexpectedly and gets serious midway. I felt like I was waiting for a punchline that never came a coupla times. So maybe it felt a little strained for that? Not enough to make me stop reading though. I dunno. It's not a book you want to analyze really. It's just good. You should read it. It's the only Bill Bryson book I've ever read. I'm thinking of reading something else. Got a recommendation for me?

Now I'm starting Middlesex by Jeffery Eugenides. you read it?
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
those are mostly lettuces and greens in the background.
satrina* 11 years ago
Sol is such a natural model, he has a great smile.

Satrina: av meg
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Sunday February 11, 2007

February 11th: Sunday papers
AllanThinks 11 years ago
I can't think of a better way to spend a Sunday morning.

We only take the local paper on the weekends (Friday through Monday mornings). The rest of the week, we read it online.

I've been thinking of taking the New York Times on Sunday. They have local delivery here. Allan
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
yeah me too. It's much more economical to get Sunday delivery than it is to buy it in a store. ($3 v $5) but I don't know when I'm going to be moving so... still. I feel a little indulgent spending $5 on a newspaper! But I feel like if I've missed a couple of my normal news shows during the week it's worth it to catch up on Sundays.
ebilflindas 11 years ago
Sol--what a perfect name for such a sonshiney lad!
_____
ebilflindas: Everyday Dad
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Monday February 12, 2007

I had a pretty good day today. I finished my second sock but I still don't have a pair... well, unless you count this as a pair:

February 12th: two new socks

Click the photo for a more detailed explanation of how I ended up with two different socks.

Sand and Sol and Ian left to go to Anastasia Island today. They're going to camp out there and my friend Antonio and I are going to join them for the day tomorrow. Except the forecast is for rain so I'm not sure but that's the plan anyway.

Knitting is a good thing to do when catching up on radio news programs so I listened to the Diane Rehm show, Democracy Now and a couple Spanish language news programs.

I also rearranged my tiny living room slightly to try to gain more space. With four people, one dog and one cat in the house space is a priority.

I've started a new book I really like a lot. Middlesex by Jeffery Eugenides (or did I tell you that already?)
Samrag 11 years ago
See in your diaries here above that you are searching for new friends.

I shall be your friend :)

You'll find me on msn at sam_wan_kenobi [at] hotmail.com

cu
satrina* 11 years ago
Great socks, I like the left one better, I think it has to do with the tighter knitting.

Satrina: av meg
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
thanks Sam! I'll add you to my contact list!

yeah, you know me too (the tighter knitting) but there's also something to be said for the stripes. There's something very satisfying about striped socks.

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DIARY UPDATE :
We're not going to Anastasia Island tomorrow. Thunderstorms. Instead we're going canoeing this weekend. Hopefully. (there's a thing about "the best laid plans" you know).

I've had a productive evening. I've been doing some research on guestworker programs and learning A LOT and I found some really great articles today, one on an immigration law website which I passed on to an old professor I had over at the law school (no I didn't go to law school; I just took a class on trade and human rights law over there). So I'm feeling like I'm accomplishing something and not just sitting around on my ass waiting for a job to come my way (which maybe I am doing but what can I say? It's discouraging roaming the same old jobsites and not finding anything new. Tomorrow I'll look again.)
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Wednesday February 14, 2007

Happy Valentine's Day y'all...

Dear Valentine...

There are blizzards up north. All that snow and ice in DC and NY. That's where I'd be living probably if I stayed here in this country.... hmmmm....none of these jobs have called me back yet and it's been at least two weeks since I applied for most of them. you know what I'm thinking today? Since I don't seem to have much luck getting a job here anyway, why not just go to Spain and teach English? Once I get there I teach just for a little bit and then I can probably eventually work my way into the non-profit sector. It's worth a try ain't it?
AliThinks 11 years ago
Ooh, very pretty!

Happy Valentine's Day!
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
thanks Ali!
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
hmmmm..... I'm still trying to figure out what to do. here's the dilemma. I can wait around the US and maybe or maybe not get a job in my field in a cold, snowy northern city. Or. I can move to Spain, teach english for a year until I can work there legally, then maybe or maybe not get a job in my field in a nice warm Spanish speaking city in a country with universal health care and other great social services where UNICEF says is a better place to raise kids than in the US. ... So why not just go?
AllanThinks 11 years ago
Man, I have to learn how to knit socks.

I can't wait for the dogwoods to bloom here.

Allan
CollardGreens PRO 11 years ago
Yow ! Haven't been to visit in a while...are the dogwoods blooming early this year? Nicely done on the 14th.

I moved away from Jax Beach 8 years ago to Paris. If you have the chance to move to Spain - DO IT !! Don't look back - Spain is a wonderful location and you would be hard pressed to find a more friendly population. If you speak spanish from FL you may find some adjustments depending on the region of Spain - but ....give it a go is my advice.

Lots of luck on your decision.

CollardGreens: Oops!
drab chicken [deleted] 11 years ago
the heart shaped flower is fantastic fun. so pretty too
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
thanks for the encouragement! I'm so torn. It all depends on what you mean by "chance" when you say "if you have the chance to move". I don't know if I'll ever just have the chance but I could create it. My main worrry is what would I do for jobs?

Here's a question for you then? Ho did you find work in Paris when you went?

thanks glory

! socks are great Allan. I like them 'cause they're so practical. I finished the second purple one today. Now I really do have a true pair!
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Thursday February 15, 2007

Okay NOW I have a pair....



I finished the second purple sock today. That's the good news. That's what got accomplished. What didn't get accomplished was finding a job and/or making a decision about what to do/where to go.
CollardGreens PRO 11 years ago
Chances are like knitted socks...they don't exist until you make them. In all of EU at the moment there is a need for certified english teachers. The certification is not too expensive and not too long to obtain. I am sure UF offers something. There is a special certificate (I forget the name but give me time) that is always requested. Spain is a good port of entry - visa laws are a little more relaxed there. Just a few random thoughts. Once again - good luck with your decision - bon courage.

CollardGreens: Oops!
AliThinks 11 years ago
Sweet photo...and maybe CollardGreens has some words of wisdom!

Alison
dda1605 11 years ago
Lovely picture on the 14th.
agree with Spain, Portugal and Greece are good options. Less sunny but maybe more in a need of English teacher are the eastern european countries (Hungary, Bulgaria, Romania) or the Baltic countries.
Good Luck.

(Didier 2007 )
AllanThinks 11 years ago
Good luck in deciding what to do.

I love those socks.

Allan
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Friday February 16, 2007

I'm not ready to post a photo yet today but I did want to jot down some thoughts. This is a diary after all...

First, thanks for the comments and encouragement and well wishes everyone. I feel accompañada and in this life, I'd say that's not doing too bad.

I am feeling slightly more human today. Last night was... well. One of those nights. I had to bundle up and rush out in the middle of the night an hour before the library closed to get a copy of an Anne Lamott book. It was worth it. I spent the rest of the evening with her. She's a pretty good person to hang out with when you're feeling shitty. I keep a note card and a pen handy to write down things I need to remember like: Be Patient. and Don't do anything Stupid.

I don't want to move to Europe under these conditions. When I graduated with my BA the first thing I did was move half way across the country to a big city I thought would be a cool place to break into the kind of work I wanted to do (human rights/political action sort of thing). I had no job and knew no one. Within six months I was so homesick I thought I was going crazy. So I came back. And I resolved that I would never move anywhere so far away without first having a job in place. Otherwise not only are you unemployed, you're unemployed in a strange city with no friends and nothing to do.

hmmm... Portugal and Greece, eh? Those sound nice too. I looked it up and found some articles that recommend Portugal over Spain as it's easier to find work there. Plus I could learn Portuguese which might useful at some point (more useful for someone like me I think than Greek). I do want to go. I just don't want to end up making another stupid (and expensive) mistake.

I'm trying to learn how to live in the present. Be here now. Live now. Read. I have time to read these days. I should be happy with all this time on my hands. Instead I spend the vast majority of it worrying. It's a terrible habit. I think I get it from my mother.

I'm going off to look at more jobs.
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Friday February 16, 2007

Okay here's the photo of the day today:

February 16th: kombucha

Click the photo for a description of what it is.

I had a better day today than yesterday. I'm considering a Plan B. A deadline. Something to the effect of, if I don't find a job I love in a city I *want* to live in by the end of March, I'm going to go to Portugal and take a 4 week TEFL certification course (plus 2 weeks of Portuguese!) and try getting a job over there. I'd really like to learn a THIRD language (hehehee... see? I'm already becoming more European!! You heard that old joke: Q: What do you call a monolinguist? A: a norteamericano! lol...)

Anyway I think it's a pretty good plan. It means I will have looked for work for three months all told. That's plenty of time to sit around on my ass. I can't sit around here forever, ya know!

Hope you all have a great weekend. Stay warm all you northern hemisphere folks!
CollardGreens PRO 11 years ago
TEFL - thats the name I was trying to remember. Portugal ! Excellent choice !! Porto, Lisboa, the coastal climate, the port (wine not dock), fado music and the language. Great choice for someone on a budget - but remember converting your money to euros...at the moment $1 = 1.30 Euro and a euro buys almost what the dollor will. Portugal is one of the more reasonable places to live in terms of cost.

Desejo para você êxito e uma vida longe de flórida.
Este conselho de um americano que fala múltiplas linguagens

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luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Saturday February 17, 2007

One of my better changuas
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Sunday February 18, 2007

This is Caleb. He's the 14 month old kid I take care of on Sundays for an hour at Emmanual Mennonite Church. He's a sweetie.
Life is good on a cold day when it's warm out, someone's given you a hat to wear and is now pushing you in the swing and doesn't mind that you're drooling all over yourself.

Today his half brother was with us too and so was Antonio. It's his --my friend Antonio's-- last Sunday accompanying us. He's moving back to Colombia. I'll sure miss him when he's gone but I guess we can keep in touch through Skype and IM and all that. We went out to lunch with some of the young people from the church afterwards and then we were going to go out to a farm and see some sheep but it's very cold out and it's nice and warm inside and I've suddenly become very sleepy listening to Radio Paradise and tooling around on the computer. I'll catch y'all later.

UPDATE:
I just successfully (I think) reinstalled Windows on my 2 yr old laptop. Along with the memory I bought and the external hard drive to back up all my photos my computer is in tip top shape and is sssuppper fast! Much easier for visiting diaries and leaving comments! ;-)
eelend PRO 11 years ago
oh, he's so cute!!!
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Monday Feburary 19, 2007

Ironically I didn't spend much time on the computer but here's today's photo:

dusty old keyboard

The Monday morning crop of new job postings was a let down. Mostly repeats. Nothing new or exciting. I looked at the garden, took my dog for a walk, did laundry, went to the library, read books and took a hot bath. I have cramps. But I'm thinking about Spain and Portugal.
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Tuesday February 20, 2007

I am so friggin' bored I could scream. Despite having A TON of books and movies around me, completely indulging my inner news junkie and searching through want ads on the web, I am bored to tears. So here's today's photo.

Day 99

You know what else I was thinking I'd like to do? Try freelance writing (again). Another Plan B could look something like this. I could go back to South America... my friend Antonio is moving back to Colombia this week (I could probably stay with his family in Bogota) and take the CELTA (english teaching certification) course there. Maybe I could even visit Venezuela and find some stories about what life is like under 21st century socialism. For one because I'm really curious and I don't think we're getting the whole story up here (or even most of the storIES plural because I think there are many) and I like to help get a more balanced view to a North American audience.

I have to admit that this idea came from Orwell. I found his documentation of the Spanish Civil War when I was looking at books on Spain. He went over there for the same purpose (and ended up fighting against the Fascists, getting wounded and coming back home). Don't worry there's no chance of me replicating the second part of Orwell's experience but I'd really like to replicate the first part. Just the idea of knowing something very exciting is happening in another country and that feeling that you're not getting the whole story and you want to go down and find out for yourself...

I'm a good writer, I just have no portfolio to speak of. I'd have to totally start from scratch and just hope that I can break into the world of freelance writing on my own merits with no journalism degree or anything. But I know that's possible. I just have to think...

--barb (daily photo diary)
CollardGreens PRO 11 years ago
Strike a match...light the candle.

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sunshinecity 11 years ago
Hey that's a pretty good plan B!! You've done a lot of brainstorming in my absence from your diary!!
don't think it's not possible to become a freelance writer... I have a friend of mine you'd love! He has the same interests as you. He has a degree in economics, with a major in underdeveloped countries or something like that.... He's extensively traveled south America and is currently in Brazil doing I'm not sure what, but I know he's writing freelance for a "left wing" italian paper called "il Manifesto" ...
I wonder if I can't get him in touch with you... he seems to be doing the things you much talk about, maybe he'd have some tips for you... I dunno.
If you're interested....

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
sunshine thank you! I'm grasping for straws here so yeah, contacts of contacts of contacts... whatever works! especially if you think he'd actually write me back! If you want, you can tell him to check out my blog (<a href="http://www.luckywhitegirl.com"lucky white girl.com to get a sense of my politics. maybe it'll lead to something...?

Oh by the way, I rethought that CELTA course in Colombia. I forgot, duh! if I'm going to be teaching in latin america I don't need the CELTA certificate. (It cost $2,000 for the course and most places there in Latin America will take any native speaker as qualification enough; you don't need a degree) So that would change also. If I did this Plan B I would just go down there and find a job teaching english while I worked on my new career as a freelance journalist. I'm already collecting places to submit stories to when I have them.

I'm feeling much better now! :-)
satrina* 11 years ago
You have a couple of great plans there, just go with the one you think you'll be happier in the end.

And that's what I need to do, make a couple of alternative plans in case things don't work the way I want to...

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AllanThinks 11 years ago
I just have to think...

No. You just have to believe. Reach for your dreams.

Allan
CollardGreens PRO 11 years ago
Ditto here on the believe...

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dda1605 11 years ago
I think you have to move....I mean, your plan B or any other plan that will make a change in your life. The everyday life monotony and immobility will kill your dreams. Go for it .....

(Didier 2007 )
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Thursday February 22, 2007

priority

Remember when I said I reinstalled Windows and things were great? They weren't. All I did was a repair reinstall. It worked a little for a bit but I still wasn't happy. And then I read that doing repair reinstalls usually just carries over whatever problems were causing the slowness in the first place.

So I did a full clean reinstall of windows. You know, wiped out everything. It's taken days to recover but now I'm sure. The system is sleek and fast. There are some stupid things I forgot to save... like my address book in my email program and the password for one of my email accounts. And the biggest problem is that I now have NO WORD PROCESSING PROGRAM on my computer. I had Word Perfect but I don't remember how I got it. I didn't have an install CD for it. I don't know where it came from. I'm not sure how to get another copy.

And so needless to say this is why I haven't been around the past few days. Still trying to catch up.
AllanThinks 11 years ago
Ouch.

I do everything possible to not have to do a complete reinstall. I reguarly run a registry cleaner program, and two different spyware scanners.

It's hard enough to move all my important files to a new computer when I buy one.

I think my next computer will be a Mac.

Allan
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
yeah a computer geek friend of mine said if you run Windows you pretty much have to do this every couple of years at least because the registry gets all clogged up but he didn't mention anything about a registry cleaner -- where'd you get it?
AllanThinks 11 years ago
I have tried a number of them over the years. I am currently using Ccleaner.

Previously, I used one called RegScrub. There are a number of freeware and shareware ones out there. Just Google "registry cleaner".

Allan
luckywhitegirl Posted 11 years ago. Edited by luckywhitegirl (member) 11 years ago
Friday February 23, 2007

This is a sorta famous documentary. It's called Winter Soldier and it was made in 1972. I say sorta famous because it's a little unclear to me how much its infamy is due to one of the guys featured in it living around here. Here he is, the one in the middle who looks like Charles Manson (it was the times, man, ya digg it?)

... just for the record (1971)

So anyway I know this guy, not as seen here testifying before Congress in 1971 about the atrocities of the Vietnam war. I know him as ... um, how should I say this diplomatically? --a local famous person who now does political campaign work for progressive candidates for city and county government. I know him as one of the Old Skool Leftists, which is my term for anyone over 50 who has spent their lives doing some kind of union organizing, anti-war work, was ever a card-carrying Red of some sort, including old Wobblies or who personally knew Caesar Chavez. Mr. Camil clearly fits that description for me. He once volunteered to be my campaign manager should I choose to run for City Commmission (lol!!) and that may have contributed to my impression that he is slightly odd and incomprehensible.

Plus he really likes fish. Not that that qualifies one for weirdness but it does make him multidimensional which is important because I know quite a few Old Skool Leftys who have become unidimensional with age. Meaning it doesn't matter what you talk about with them the conversation will eventually lead back around to whatever is their own particular White Whale. But Scott's not like that. He's Old Skool but he also likes fish and plays volleyball and has a personal library that makes me jealous.

The point of all this is just to say that Friday night I got to see this other Scott Camil, this one who testified before Congress in 1971 and ... well... it was very interesting.
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Saturday February 24, 2007

This is my old friend Chris Zurheide aka Caz. He stopped by and we went out to the Prairie to see if we could see the Sandhill Cranes and it was my intent to take my daily photo out there but I forgot my camera battery so alas, no photos of the prairie... I took this one when we got back home. Caz is a wonderfully kind and gentle soul. He's a great lover of books and movies and he teaches English and ESL at the local community college.

February 24th: A Caz in my living room
luckywhitegirl 11 years ago
Sunday February 25, 2006

Kids these days...
CollardGreens PRO 11 years ago
mmmm...just right !

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