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AliThinks 8:09pm, 17 December 2006
Moi, Alison -- New! Cropped!

I also blog at AliThinks, and I will probably be doing a little crossposting between here and there.

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AliThinks 11 years ago
Jellisssss.....

March 27, 2007

Mr. Jones is an indoor cat. He is very jealous that we are out here, and he is in there.

Also, we have music out here. Life is good. :)
satrina* 11 years ago
You can really see the jealousy in his face, poor thing :)

Satrina: av meg
eelend PRO 11 years ago
it looks good really
:)


eelend's 2007
sotonrich 11 years ago
Man he looks pissed.....I'd cover your furniture/chair legs if I were you.....cat revenge is dangerous :D

Breathed Upon - my 2007 daily dairy
sunshinecity 11 years ago
oh how cute! you put your speakers on the windowsill!!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
BellaGaia PRO 11 years ago
Welcome to the mirror..... I've been in therapy since 1999. Best thing i ever did for myself and my daughter (she started last year -- I was concerned about her ability to express her anger in a healthy way) hang in there... incremental change... that's growth... it won't happen over night. you'll become best friends with someone you may have lost touch with ... you :-)

" BellaGaia (Living with BellaGaia) "
ebilflindas 11 years ago
Visiting your thread is so inspirational--from seeking therapy, to eating in one's own backyard (we haven't done that in so long), to filling up growlers! The latter two I'll be working on, the first I'd like to explore, but not until I have it covered.
dda1605 11 years ago
Funny therapist you have.......SHE is supposed to help you define "who you really are".......
I hope you didn't pay :)
(Didier 2007 )
AliThinks 11 years ago
I know! He still gets upset when we are out there.

Thank you. :)

He just pouts for a while, then chews on Allan's arm. ;-)

Yes, it's nice to have music outside.

Ahhh, thanks for the reassurance. I know this is good for me. I am sometimes impatient, and I'm feeling like I want the answers NOW! :-)

Well, I am glad I can be an inspiration! Being outdoors is great. I am really appreciating the weather these days. And growlers, well, what can I say? :-)

Ha! But I need to look deep within, don't I? And she is asking me the hard questions. So yes, I did pay. :-)
AliThinks 11 years ago
End Of The Evening

March 28, 2007

This evening we went to a beer tasting at a local German restaurant/bar. $10 for advance tickets ($15 at the door) got us free beer samples for three hours. And free food, too. We got to taste many domestic and imported beers (I enjoyed the Grimbergen Dubbel, being a fan of the Blonde) and eat spicy bratwurst and chips.

The tasting ended at 9 p.m., or 21h, and our friends A. and J. came to our house for a last beer before heading home. I took this photo then; that's A's hand on her bottle of Kentucky Ale. We were outside. The weather was warm and clear.

It was nice to go out with our friends. On the other hand, I kind of had the wind taken out of my sails today. I wrote about it here.

That pretty much set the mood for the rest of the week, and I stayed away from reading blogs and diaries. I did continue taking photos, so I am just now catching up with things. I just looked at the clock, and it is 12:00 a.m. on April 1st....
AliThinks 11 years ago
New Sheets

March 29, 2007

We bought some new sheets (on sale! at Kohl's!) to put not on our new mattress (which we got today -- well, actually, it was delivered to the neighbor across the street late yesterday, but we walked over and got it today), but to put on the other beds in this house.

We've put our old mattress on my daughter's bed upstairs, because there was an air mattress on it up until now. Fortunately, she only had to sleep on it for a month last summer. I am hoping that having a real mattress will make her feel more at home this coming summer. So we got a couple of sets of sheets (on sale!) for her bed, and we decided to refresh the sheets that went on my son's bed. They were at least 20 years old, and maybe more. I think these new ones will be a bit softer and more comfortable.

I didn't take any photos of the new mattress, or us moving the old mattress upstairs, because, hey, that's BOOOORING! The sheets are not that much more interesting, but at least there is a little color to them. :)
AliThinks Posted 11 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 11 years ago
Lunch At Third Street Stuff

March 30, 2007

Photo taken with my Fronch cell phone.

We ate lunch with A. at Third Street Stuff. It was our first time eating the food there; usually we just get coffee or browse the shop.

Not long after we began eating, a young woman sat down near us and began a conversation with one of the employees of Third Street. This woman's voice was so loud, so grating! I looked at Allan and A. and mouthed "Shut up! Shut the fuck up!" A. said "Her voice hurts my soul."

She was obnoxious.

Once she got her food and froufrou coffee drink, though, she was quiet. Later on, we heard the employees (and even the owner!) of Third Street Stuff saying farewell:

"Bye, Ali!"
"See ya, Ali!"

I looked at A., looked at the owner of the shop, who was packaging my purchases, and said, "I'M Ali!!!"

I hate to have my name associated with someone so freakin' LOUD, see.
AliThinks Posted 11 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 11 years ago
Community GetTogether, March 31, 2007

March 31, 2007

This afternoon we attended a community event for Barack Obama; we watched his webcast and then discussed it afterwards. Most of the folks at the meeting were from our local Drinking Liberally group. It was nice to see those friends in a different venue, and listen to Barack Obama's answers to questions from regular people.

You can read my nascent opinion of Obama here.
ItinerArts Posted 11 years ago. Edited by ItinerArts (member) 11 years ago
I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one with a low tolerance for obnoxiousness!

I'll take a look at your Obama link.

www.flickr.com/groups/2007/discuss/72157594528937014/
AliThinks 11 years ago
Yah, you want I should post the video I took of her? Just so we can gripe about the obnoxiousness? ;-)
satrina* 11 years ago
I just read your blog and I agree with the comments, you're better off without that guy

Satrina: av meg

Oh, and I love your Squidward impersonation :D
AliThinks 11 years ago
Hehe! Thanks!
AliThinks Posted 11 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 11 years ago
Ombre

April 1, 2007

Today was not a good day. I have felt pretty bad all day. It's not physical. It's in my mind and heart.

I spoke with my children today, and I had a good conversation with my son, who's nine. On occasion we move beyond "I don't have anything to tell you," and today was one of those days. I made him laugh, and he told me again how much he loves the dragon tattoos I gave him. He also told me about the garden he is going to plant: potatoes, tomatoes, beans, lettuce, radishes. This makes me happy, and I am pleased that he is where he is, and that his father would think of such an enriching experience to share with him.

Then I talked to my daughter. She will be twelve in a couple of weeks, and I know that she is going through some physical and hormonal changes right now. Today she expressed her anger at me, anger that I am not living in France, anger about everything that surrounds that. What upset me the most was that I could hear her father's words through her. The same man that thinks of such wonderful activities for our children harbors a lot of bitterness toward me and my new life, and he doesn't hesitate to share it with our children. Much of the time he does not speak the truth, but rather his own version of it, and the kids have noticed the discrepancy between their father's words and their mother's actions.

But today was different with C. She was annoyed with me, as she told me. I said that I understood why she might be upset, but I also told her she was being cheeky. She said "I know" in a very firm, confident voice.

All the reasons I came back to the States now seem feeble and selfish. I feel selfish, but at the same time I am very, very angry. It is hard to explain here, when there is no record of my history on Flickr. My blog will give some sense of it, but then again, not really. I have put myself "out there" without really revealing my very tender underbelly.

Thank goodness I will see the therapist again tomorrow. That's all I can say.

Also, this photo kind of symbolizes how I feel about myself: I am but a shadow of Ali(son) today. I also posted this photo in the monthly Photo Theme at Radio Paradise. April's theme is "Vessel," and I am a vessel; I have borne these two children whom I love so much, even if they don't realize or understand it right now.
dda1605 11 years ago
I read your thoughts about Obama. I didn't read his book, but I like his "parcours".
I am sure he is more coherent than the actual president, but the question is (I think) what is the "delta" he can bring to the democratic campain, is he different / better / has more chances than Hillary for instance.

(Didier 2007 )
lramiro520 11 years ago
I'm sorry to hear about the bad conversation between you and your daughter. Since I'm not a mother, I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like to be so far away from your kids. I don't even know what to say except that I hope these negative feelings pass quickly and that better days come soon. Keep your head up.

Of course, I don't know the circumstances that led to the separation between you and your kids, but everytime I read about you and your children it reminds me of the woman that lives with my parents right now. My mom and dad are renting a room to a Filipino woman and her 13 year old son. She has another younger son (approx 6 yrs old) who lived in the east coast with her for awhile. However, the kid was such a trouble maker that absolutely no one was willing to take care of him while the mom was working to earn money to support her kids. So she had to make a decision. A tough decision. And what she decided was that she had to take her little boy back to the Philippines...and leave him there. It breaks my heart. So he's still there and she's still here, but I can only hope for her to have better days....

The Other Side Of The Fence
eelend PRO 11 years ago
i wish i could give you some advice... but what could i say
my father has worked at a ship since he was 20, and, until i was twentysomething, he used to be at home just two months every year
for many years, i felt i only had a father on Christmas or in summer
it was strange and it made me feel sad, angry, weird... and my mum was the one who suffered it
but, you know, things change
one day, you wake up and realize life isn't easy and everybody has a way to follow
and you forgive all you think you have to forgive (mostly to yourself) and keep on living

don't worry :)

eelend's 2007
Tom Hall (tommune) 11 years ago
Aw, those are some hard feelings to go through....

Just remember we all do the best we can at the time we make each decision.

Kids lash out or bottle up when they have feelings, and in wildly inappropriate or painful ways.... you have to be patient for the relationship in the long run.

Best of luck at working through all of that. Thoughts are with you.

Tom Tommune's 2007 in Austin
AliThinks 11 years ago
Barack Obama is a breath of fresh air.

Thanks. I'm feeling better. My kids live with their dad because I thought they would be better off in the school and community they had grown up in. There is more to it than that, but that's the short answer. I hope that your parents' tenant has better days in front of her, too.

Thanks for the reassurance. :-) I know that in a few years I will look back on this and (maybe) smile.

Thank you, Tom.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Outside, For Once

April 2, 2007

It was a good day. I had a good session with my therapist, and felt good about that. Allan and I continued to enjoy our back yard. Allan took a risk and carried Mr. Jones outside. The cat seemed scared at first, but then relaxed in Allan's arms. Allan brought him inside soon after that.

Yeah, it was a good day.
AliThinks Posted 11 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 11 years ago
In The Wind, Before The Storm

April 3, 2007

Our wonderful weather changed this evening, and a storm rolled through. Allan and I took some photos of the swift clouds outside, and I took a few self-portraits in the wind and impending rain. Yes, the wind was blowing hard enough to make my heavy, thick hair do THAT!
ebilflindas 11 years ago
Mr. Jones looks rather comfortable there.
It's nice to see a smiling Ali! I love the green of the grass in the bg.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Thanks. :)
AliThinks 11 years ago
Yawn

April 4, 2007

Kept thinking about Martin Luther King, Jr. all day.

And I've slacked off on reading diaries this week. My apologies. I've got a lot on my mind, and I'm tired. I tried to take a photo of myself yawning, and this is what I got. I'm keeping it, though, because it makes me laugh.

Off to bed...
satrina* 11 years ago
Yes, it it good to see you laugh and -almost- see you yawn :) I also love the green background in your last two shots.

Have sweet dreams!

Satrina: av meg
BellaGaia PRO 11 years ago
Great pix. Sounds like you have quite a bit on your mind -- I know what you mean about flickr not hosting your history -- there's much we reveal, but you like me sound like there's a lot that's still excluded from public eyes. Get some rest this weekend :-) oh by the way, i have one that just turned 12 -- sometimes they're just unkind.

BellaGaia (Living with BellaGaia)
sunshinecity 11 years ago
I love your last few shots. Your self portraits, especially the one where the wind is almost knocking your head off are wonderful. I love the colours!

I hope you manage to work out the things that trouble you, in your heart and in your head. I'm sure it can't be easy.
It's funny how little we know of one another, yet I feel so close to some of you, it's as if you're all family!

Take care of yourself Alison.
*Hug*

I still am awful sometimes... I wonder why. I gues it's just the nature of children and their parents to eternally conflict of one level or another.

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
leesure PRO 11 years ago
Sorry to hear about your struggles with your life w/o the kids. I can only imagine how hard those decisions must have been. My thoughts are with you over this holiday.

Lee
'stee 11 years ago
oh, lovely. how hard it must be to be a mother. you seem to be having some rough times of it this year. for what it's worth i think you are a beautiful human being, and that's just from getting to know you through this mdpd project. i can only imagine how much more light and grace you bring to the people in your offline, every day life.

i hope your therapy is going well. bella advocates it rightly - i think it's the one of the best things i've ever done. i'd be interested in updates about yours if and when you're willing to share.
x

--
stee's 2007: a blank canvas
eelend PRO 11 years ago
no, no, don't apologize
you're tired... well, have some rest
that's all you need to do

have a nice day, sweet :)

eelend's 2007
AliThinks 11 years ago
Thank you! My dreams are bizarre more than sweet, but I do enjoy them.

Yes, yes, yes.

Thank you. It's not easy. And I know what you mean about feeling close to people!

Thank you. It was not an easy decision to come back to the States. Right now it's hitting me especially hard.

Your kind words mean a lot! Thank you!

But I do apologize. I want to be there for others, because others are there for me. It is in my nature to want to help people. Right now it is hard to get past my own troubles, though!

Thank you all for the sweet comments. I do appreciate it!
AliThinks 11 years ago
April 5th was a shitty day

April 5, 2007

It was a shitty day on all fronts.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Drunk

April 6, 2007

As bad as my day was yesterday, it probably didn't compare to this man's day. Twenty-four hours separate the two photos. Thursday night neither Allan nor I could sleep, so at 2 a.m. we got in the car and began our trip to Pittsburgh. Hey, better to leave at 2 than at 6 or 7, right?

We got to the 'Burgh at around 9 o'clock, and spent the day having coffee, checking into the hotel, napping, eating a late lunch, walking around downtown, and having a fairly early dinner with my dad and his wife. After dinner, we went back to our hotels, got our cameras, and walked around Pittsburgh's Cultural District (YES! It does exist!) for a while.

I felt sorry for this drunk man. No one was helping him, and I am just as guilty, if not worse. I actually took pictures of him. He was right next to the nice hotel, though, and somehow that made it better, worse, insert adjective here.
AliThinks 11 years ago
The Eminent Btezra

April 7, 2007

This afternoon Allan and I met up with a very talented Flickr member. Craig, aka btezra, has a knack for capturing the beauty of Pittsburgh and its denizens.

The three of us had a couple of pints of beer at Piper's Pub on the South Side of Pittsburgh. We talked about photography and other important matters, and had a really good time. I think that Allan and I will make our next trip back to my hometown coincide with one of the Pittsburgh Flickr group's events...
AliThinks 11 years ago
Kismet? Or Is It Synchronicity?

April 8, 2007

Before we went to my family's Easter gathering, Allan and I walked around the Strip District. (That page has a link to the Pittsburgh Flickr group's Strip District Walk at the beginning of April. It's cool. Check it out!)

Most everything was closed, because of the holiday. One of the Asian markets was open, and it was doing lots of business. We walked around and took photos of signs and things. As I was framing and snapping this photo of the sticker promoting public transportation, a bus rumbled by. I thought that was cool.
AliThinks 11 years ago
In West Virginia

April 9, 2007

On the way home.

I took this at a rest area in West Virginia. I know it's not very exciting, but I just didn't feel like taking my camera with me when we were out and about with my sister and my niece before leaving Pittsburgh.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Blogging My Life

April 10, 2007

It's fitting that on my third blogiversary, I should spend the day blogging. I wasn't writing on my regular blog, though. I started a new one, after my therapist gave me some homework. I am supposed to create a timeline of myself based on photos and self-portraits. Rather than create a huge lumpy file that I'd have to e-mail to my therapist, I created this new blog.

Today I wrote a bunch of entries, and I'm still only up to 1975. It's tough going, and not only because I tend to procrastinate. The weekend away didn't help, and the thought of having to really think about myself made it worse.

I'll keep persevering, though. I owe it to myself.
ebilflindas 11 years ago
Quelle bonne idea, Ali, to create a new blog specifically for this assignment! If you were into wikis, I suppose you could've created a personal wiki.

Hope your weekend away did you some good!
eelend PRO 11 years ago
i love the April 6 pic, although it's so sad

i think creating that blog is a very good idea, ali
:)

eelend's 2007
sunshinecity 11 years ago
Sounds like your week end away was an interesting one.
I hope your week goes well!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
stevelyon PRO 11 years ago
I dig your pics of Mr. Jones. He's quite photogenic.

(chicanerii)
barb howe 11 years ago
oh Ali I missed what happened with your daughter. I've been completely forgetting to check up on diaries lately and less yours because I see your photos in your photostream but I miss all the commentary. Anyway I'm sorry to hear that that was part of the backdrop to the bad day. I like eeland's words: "you forgive all you think you have to forgive (mostly to yourself) and keep on living". That's a difficult thing to do.

--barb (aka luckywhitegirl)
DPD: la vista desde aca
dda1605 11 years ago
Just catch up with your diary and read the story about your girl (I know it was a long time ago). I just wanted to tell you I was in the same situation with my son but he never expressed anything regarding the situation. At least you have a kind of dialog with your daughter.
And a part ca, some great pictures, loved the one on the 8th.

(Didier 2007 )
AliThinks 11 years ago
I do suppose I would ahve created a wiki, indeed! The weekend away was good, for sure!

Thanks, eeland!

Yes, it was interesting! And thanks!

Thankyaverahmuch, Steve.

It's not easy, Barb. We're on better terms now, but it's still not easy. She has an e-mail address, but has had no internet access at home for two months. I feel that if we had that, we could communicate better. As it is, neither of us is vefry good on the phone...

Thanks. It is hard to talk to kids sometimes. I know I am lucky that she will verbalize. I can't imagine talking to my mother about how I felt at that age, because I never did it. Time will tell, and as a good friend says, "time takes time."
AliThinks 11 years ago
Thank you, all of you, for your support.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Looking At The Rain...

April 11, 2007

It rained pretty much all day long, and Mr. Jones spent a lot of time curled up NOT in his window seat, but in various chairs away from the window. I caught him looking outside during a brief hint of sunshine. It was still raining, mind you, but the sun was apparent. I was too lazy to go look for a rainbow.

Today's session with my therapist was good: she gave me lots to think about. I am still working on the timeline/blog, and will put a link in the diary when (if?) I am ready.

It's been hard to keep up here. I've also been lagging on my blog reading. Too much information, runnin' through my brain...too much information, drivin' me insane...to quote The Police.

Nevertheless, I am thankful for the little community we have here! I hope to be able to put more into it soon.
eelend PRO 11 years ago
i really love mr. jones
he looks so elegant

glad you had a good day
:)



eelend's 2007
barb howe 11 years ago
Hey Ali,

I don't know if I mentioned this but you talking about seeing your therapist reminded me that I wanted to tell you that I went back to see mine this past week and you know that was the highlight of my week? She can listen to all my shit and just say yeah, you know, that's perfectly normal! I've never felt less judged by anyone. If a therapist can make their client feel as good as I feel after I've been to see Ruth, well, they're doing a damn good job!

Also i think there's something to be said for long-term therapy too. To have someone like that not just as a temporary helpmate but as you might have a regular doctor or mechanic --someone you just always have in your life, even if just held in reserve at times. Ruth, my therapist, I've known for 5 years now! I haven't gone to see her every week during those five years and sometimes I've gone for years without seeing her at all but when things get bad I know I can just call her up and she'll be there. For me, who can always mitigate a compliment by rationalizing that the person doesn't know the "real me", it's really reassuring to know that because she's known me for so long she probably has a pretty good idea of who I am and I can't pull the wool over her eyes, ya know? I can't put on an act for her. So if she tells me I'm okay and I'm not crazy, I can't make any excuses such as thinking that she's only saying that because I put on a good act today. No, no. Ruth knows. I can trust her opinion.

So anyway I just think it's great you've found someone good and I hope your relationship with Sally is as helpful and therapeutic and productive as is my relationship with Ruth.

--barb (aka luckywhitegirl)
Daily Photo Diary
lramiro520 11 years ago
i've been lagging behind too...so don't worry!

that's a fascinating assignment your therapist gave you. you've reminded me that i should go see my therapist soon too.

The Other Side Of The Fence
ebilflindas 11 years ago
You and those '80s songs!
;-)
Many miles away
something crawls to the surface
of a dark Scottish loch...
sunshinecity 11 years ago
I wonder if us Europeans are missing out?? We're no where near as close as being so "in" to therapists as most people in the US. so many swear by them?
Are we more reluctant to ask for help or think we don't need help, or is the other side of the globe just more needy to share?

Sometimes the other continent seems so different. I wonder if I'll ever fit in, when I move to the US. LOL
lramiro520 11 years ago
@sunshine: do you think it could be because europe carries a little more of a stigma for mental health than america?? (i don't have any experience with european health care, so i have no idea). i just started seeing a therapist a year ago when my mood started going downhill and to my surprise, i really liked it! therapy is a great opportunity to vent in a confidential manner and if you're matched well with your therapist then the sessions can really do wonders and really get you thinking about yourself and your behaviors in ways that you've never thought about yourself before. i think a big reason why americans are so into therapy these days is because of media. in my opinion i think it all started when advertisements started popping up for perscription medications of all sorts...from depression to male impotence. i think those advertisements really put out a strong message to americans saying, "there's no shame in seeing a doctor for your problems". another side of the story is that with all of the internet resources out there, perhaps americans are too willing to self-diagnose themselves and decide to call into a doctor's office at any chance they can get.
dda1605 11 years ago
Reading all of you, i am begining to feel a bit old fashion because I don't have a therapist (yet). I will have to think about it........
ItinerArts 11 years ago
When I lived in NYC, it seemd that everyone I knew was in long-term therapy. Here in Taipei, people think you must have BIG problems if you see one.

Cute cat!

www.flickr.com/groups/2007/discuss/72157594528937014/
leesure PRO 11 years ago
I think lagging is a comon problem. I'm having enuf trouble keeping up with my own diary posts.

Hope you're feeling better!

-Lee
AliThinks 11 years ago
All of you! Good to see you!

There is definitely a stigma attached to mental health issues. Years ago, when I told my French husband that I wanted to see a therapist, his first reaction was "Non non non, les gens vont penser que t'es folle. T'es pas folle." (No no no no, people are going to think you're crazy. You're not crazy.)
AliThinks 11 years ago
Um, Yeah. I Know It's Gross.

April 12, 2007

As I was preparing to cook dinner, I found my jar of harissa in the fridge.

Oooops. I thought harissa couldn't spoil. That's some hellacious mold, isn't it?
AliThinks 11 years ago
A Day At The Races

April 13, 2007

Today an old friend of Allan's (and his wife) came for a visit. The weather was pretty nice, so we spent the afternoon at Keeneland. These little girls approached the racetrack excitedly. Their mother sat a few feet back. She was dressed in a similar manner: pastel pinks and greens. It made me smile.
AliThinks 11 years ago
April 14, 2007

Fuckity. I forgot to take a photo today. I even had an idea for one, but I spaced it. This is the first "hole" in my daily diary.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Shit!

April 15, 2007

No, this is not a reaction to having to file taxes. It's me saying "SHIT!" after realizing I didn't take a photo yesterday.

It's also an expression of my feelings about this weekend's weather. Friday was sort of nice, but it's been raining for the past two days, and it's cold, and I am so ready for sunshine and warmth.
leesure PRO 11 years ago
What's wrong with this weather? It's just liquid sunshine. ;)

I have a good friend running in the Boston Marathon tomorrow. Good thing he's a triathlete since he may have to swim some of the course. :)

Lee
sunshinecity Posted 11 years ago. Edited by sunshinecity (member) 11 years ago
I think you make some good points. It's something I've never really thought about until I started reading about your experience. I think it definitely does bring a lot of good and should be taken into consideration by many more people than it is.
I wonder though if as Europeans, who often have stronger family bonds and values, we find comfort in sharing with relatives and loved ones, (who obviously aren't professionally prepared) rather than seeking a "stranger". We are after all a society that allows children to live with their parents until they marry! I'm almost 31 and still live at home. This is the norm, for the Italian lifestyle!

I love your "grrr" face!!
; )


~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 11 years ago
Liquid sunshine! Ha! Good luck to your friend!

You make a good point, but I certainly could not have spoken to my French family about what was going through my mind. Perhaps that's my American side?

And have you seen the film Tanguy? It deals with an adult child living at home. ;-)
lramiro520 11 years ago
I think the whole point about strong family bonds is a good one. I also wonder if that's also (unfortunately) part of why the stigma is greater in europe than it is in the states. if issues are kept within the family, and family issues are never leaked to others, and no one talks about these issues outside of the family, then they often become taboo in society. sunshine's comments remind me of the last time my father was hospitalized for clinical depression--This was back in 2000. he was hospitalized before that in 1993 for the same problem and at that point my mom asked me not to tell anyone about what happened because she was afraid that they would think he was crazy. But after his second hospitalization in 2000, there was a party in a few months later, which included some family friends that my parents have known since the early 80's--my parents decided to open up to them about my dad's issues, And it was AMAZING. Of the 6 or so families represented at the party, we learned that night that 3 of families at the party had members who also experienced clinical depression, and more surprisingly those individuals were amongst the ones sitting in the room listinening to my dad "confess" the issues that he was having. It's amazing. They''d all known each other for about 20 years and until this one event, none of them knew that the others had the same mental issues. So it has only been within the past 5 or 6 years that the taboo of openly discussing mental health has began to crumble in the US. Hopefully, it will become easier in Europe one day as well.

The Other Side Of The Fence
lramiro520 11 years ago
PS: Ali, before I read the caption, I thought the harissa picture was actually strawberries and cream! :)

The Other Side Of The Fence
eelend PRO 11 years ago
i don't know what harissa is, but it looks great
:)

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dda1605 11 years ago
WooooW.......something that cannot hapens to me. If I have harissa in the fridge, it will be on the table at every meal.
sunshinecity 11 years ago
LMAO at your strawberries and cream" comment!
= P

~ sunshinecity,
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AliThinks 11 years ago
Thanks for sharing that!

It's a hot red pepper and garlic paste.

Whereas I only use it in my couscous...
AliThinks Posted 11 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 11 years ago
Thinking Happy Little Thoughts

April 16, 2007

I called this photo "Thinking Happy Little Thoughts." I'm trying to not think about things. So much crap is happening today. Not to me, personally, just in the world in general. A massacre at an American university. Other things.

Sometimes I wonder about this world we live in.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Happy Birthday, Ma Belle

Today is my daughter's 12th birthday. I miss her. She doesn't think I do.
sunshinecity Posted 11 years ago. Edited by sunshinecity (member) 11 years ago
She's so beautiful!
She's almost a "teen".... girls can get like that at times. Forgive her, in time I'm sure she'll come to realize how much you do really.

I was just wondering after I posted this comment (hence me coming back toi edit it...), does she know of the existence of your flickr account? Does she know of your blog or of this day to day photo diary? i'm sur there are probably some things you wouldn't want her to know, like how her father can irritate you or other personal things a 12 year old kid shouldn't be in the know about, but maybe a similar project , something edited just for her eyes, will help her understand how much you really do think about your kids, even when they have no idea.

Just a thought....

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 11 years ago
Thank you! She is beautiful, isn't she?

She knows of my Flickr account and my blog, but she doesn't look at them on a regular basis. For two months her dad has not had internet access, so she can't even really check her e-mail. (Don't get me started on that. It irritates me to no end.)

I do have a Vox blog that I haven't done much with, and I have an account at Tumblr...or maybe I could try Twitter and set it up just for her eyes...thanks for the idea. Of course, first she needs internet at home. And then, of course, when I say I miss her and think of her, she asks why I don't move back to France then...unfortunately it is not that easy...
sunshinecity Posted 11 years ago. Edited by sunshinecity (member) 11 years ago
yeah seems like one of those situations with no head or tail, as we say in Italian!
Hope she gets internet access soon!

BTW, do say hi to Allan for me.... his photos and daily tales are missed! Everything OK I hope.
= )


~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
barb howe 11 years ago
cute pics of your daughter. gosh Ali, that must be so hard to deal with. I can't even begin to imagine! I just think that with a mom like you, she must know deep down how much you love her even if she's not saying it right now. Maybe she won't say it again for the next ten years but eventually, I bet she does. If she has half your genes, she's a smart kid! She'll come around!

--barb (aka luckywhitegirl)
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eelend PRO 11 years ago
she's very beautiful, Ali


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leesure PRO Posted 11 years ago. Edited by leesure (member) 11 years ago
She knows Ali...she just won't let you know that she knows...ya know? And, yes...she's gonna break hearts...and not just yours.

lee
ItinerArts 11 years ago
Lovely daughter! I'm going to have one of my own soon, and can't even begin to imagine the complications.I hope you & she get past this rough period soon.

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'stee 11 years ago
i love that photo of your daughter on the right - did you take that?
i hope she had a happy birthday!

--
stee's 2007: a blank canvas
AliThinks 11 years ago

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

I didn't take the photo on the right; my friend Amber did.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Agnes Came Over...

April 18, 2007

It was just a day, you know? The highlight was having Agnes here for American Idol, then South Park. I love Agnes.
AliThinks 11 years ago
All Made Up

April 19, 2007

This afternoon I got all gussied up (well, okay, I put makeup on and tried to look nice) for a job that Agnes hooked me up with...a promotional event for Woodford Reserve Bourbon. When I arrived at the liquor store, I found out that the event had just ended! Can you say miscommunication?

I didn't mind, though. I went to Joseph-Beth Booksellers and browsed before heading home. And the best thing is that I will get paid anyway.
AliThinks 11 years ago
The View From Fayette County

April 20, 2007

I mentioned that I'd been hired to work a promotional event at a liquor store...well, today, I did a sampling at a place called First Chance/Last Chance Liquors, on the county border. Kentucky has a number of "dry" counties (Kentucky has a number of counties, period: something like 120, which is enormous), and at the border of each "wet" county is a liquor store.

I called this "The View From Fayette County," because Fayette is wet. (Thank Goddess we live here.) The other side of the sign reads "The View From Scott County," and you can see it here. Indeed, the concept of wet and dry counties is pretty bizarre to me, even though my home state of Pennsylvania has some pretty archaic liquor laws. And don't even get me started on the comparison between here and France.

Anyway, I had a great time working this tequila tasting, and I've let it be known that I'm interested in other similar gigs. I hope I can do a little more of this work. The pay is great and it's FUN!
AliThinks 11 years ago
Montgolfière

April 21, 2007

This weekend there were a couple of balloon races in town. Last night we went to see the inflated hot air balloons. They were merely there for show, and Allan and I got a few good photos of them. This morning at 7, the balloons took off for their first race. Three of them floated over our house. I loved the colors of this one in the morning sun.

Later we went to a book fair. We met a local journalist whose blog we read, and then after that we stopped in a shop owned by another Flickr user -- she discovered my photo stream in a Google search for another local place, and got in touch. It was cool to meet her, too.

Late in the afternoon, we went back to the balloon "headquarters" to see the second race, but one by one, the balloons were deflated. We think there was too much wind.

It was a good day.
AliThinks 11 years ago
What I Am Reading

April 22, 2007 - Earth Day

It's been a beautiful day in the neighborhood. After a nice lie-in, as my friends from the UK would say, I puttered around. I thought about updating this diary and my blogs, but instead I decided to go outside with my book. It's a very interesting (so far) history of the French language.
AliThinks Posted 11 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 11 years ago
Sorta Happy!

April 23, 2007

It's been an excellent day, despite having to wake up for an "early" dentist appointment. I had to have a filling replaced, and oh woe, if the sensitivity continues, I will have to have a crown put on the tooth. Not a major big deal in the grand scheme, but I do have a "thing" about teeth, and I'm rather proud that all I have are fillings: no veneers, crowns, bridges, what have you.

I took this with the D70 while my face was still numb, to see if I looked weird. (And to answer your question, yes, we do have mirrors; I just like to take photos of myself.) (Oh, and yes, I know I have a big zit.) That I used the D70 is significant, because today my beloved D50 came back to me! Nikon repaired the shutter and performed a "cleaning and check-up" (just like my dentist did). It's quite exciting to have my old sweet D50 back. I've taken a few photos with it, but haven't uploaded any yet. Tomorrow...

Also, I had a very good therapy session this afternoon. So it's been a great day. I'm feeling good.
Tom Hall (tommune) 11 years ago
Love that pic and all the emotive pics before it.... quite a range of emotions!

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leesure PRO 11 years ago
First I have a great day yesterday, now you have a great dsay today...I hope this is a trend!!!
leesure PRO 11 years ago
Just saw the bit about Woodford Bourbon! What were you going to do for them? And more importantly, can you score me some of their delicious product? ;-) As you can see, I'm a bit of a bourbon connaisseur.
leesure PRO 11 years ago
OK...3 replies in a row. How did I miss that you were livinh in Kentucky?? I could swear you were in NY? Am I nuts?.......wait, not sure I really want an answer to that.
AliThinks 11 years ago
Heh. Thanks. Glad you can see it.

I hope it's a trend, too. Re: Woodford Reserve, the master distiller was signing their special Derby bottles. I was supposed to smile, look pretty, and point people in the right direction. I wish I could score you some WR, but I didn't even get any of the tequila I promoted the next night! And I don't know how you missed that I was in KY. I'm from western PA, but I ended up in KY via France. Life is but a dream...and no, you're not nuts. :)
ebilflindas 11 years ago
It sounds kinda funny, a tequila tasting in bourbon country!
It's great to hear that you've had a string of good ones! Here's to more!
(And that was quite a bit of catch up,eh?)
'stee 11 years ago
"Am I nuts?.......wait, not sure I really want an answer to that."
haha! i ask myself that without wanting an answer, either!

how is your face still so lovely even when it is numbed?? 's no fair.
;)
leesure PRO 11 years ago
@Ali, I think the confusion came from your Jan 2 post where you were sending your kids souvenirs from NY.
sunshinecity 11 years ago
Ohh wow, a job with Woodford Reserve huh, my fiancé would be soooo jealous! Like I told Allan one time, during our drive in Kentucky last summer we just HAD to stop off and visit their distillery! Are their Bourbon Balls addictive or what!!?!
Yeah there are a few messed up issues with the wet and dry counties there... it's hard for a European to fully grasp that concept.... but hey, ya just live through it right? We ended up buying our bottle of Woodford once we were back home, it was almost 40% cheaper back "home" in Indianapolis than it was in Kentucky... now THAT'S funny!

I am loving your Hot air balloon shot... and I'm glad you enjoyed the outdoors and your book.

I like your self portraits btw!
~ sunshinecity,
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eelend PRO 11 years ago
you have a beautiful smile



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