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AliThinks 8:09pm, 17 December 2006
Moi, Alison -- New! Cropped!

I also blog at AliThinks, and I will probably be doing a little crossposting between here and there.

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AliThinks 12 years ago
:-)

That little bit of your ear is called the tragus. It did hurt more than a normal ear piercing, I'm sure. I've had my ears pierced for ages, so I don't really remember how much it hurts on the "normal" part of your lobe. So yes, it hurts, but the pain doesn't last long. The healing takes much longer than for a piercing in your earlobe. I had the first tragus done in October, and it can still feel sore sometimes. This one I had done yesterday, funnily enough, feels much less tender. Hope that helps!
AliThinks 12 years ago
January 25, 2007

January 25, 2007. A shadow of myself. Here is today's blog entry:

Today my regular (as in, I've seen her twice) massage therapist couldn't work due to a pulled muscle, so I got to have a massage by Rhonda. She told me that she worked the tissue a little deeper than Yvonne, and I said that was okay.

Hoo boy. I can definitely tell she went deep. First, I could feel it during the massage. I had no idea there were so many pea-sized knots in my back. Now, three or so hours later, I'm a little sore. This is okay.

Allan drove me to my appointment, since you can usually pour me into the car when I'm done. (Really, I could drive, but it's nice to zone for a while after a massage). On the way there I ranted to him a little bit about how I'm feeling. It's like this cycle of inertia and frustration. I think of things I want to do, but I have absolutely no motivation. So I don't do anything. Then I get frustrated. And on it goes.

Some might see this as an extension of my tendency toward procrastination, and it probably is. It's definitely been exacerbated by this crappy house situation that I have to deal with. (Things are slowly coming together with that, by the way.)

The thing is, I have no pressing deadlines or obligations. This probably seems like a cool thing to you -- I can just see you rolling your eyes and telling me to get a grip -- but I've come to a realization, thanks to a Wellbutrin-fueled dream.

After so many years of doing a job I didn't want to, living a life I didn't want to, being someone I didn't want to, I am free. Cue The Who or the Soup Dragons, your choice. Now that I can do whatever I want, I'm lost. I don't know what to do. Yes, I realize that this is a great privilege, and it is hard for me not to feel guilty about it.

There are so many choices out there. It's a little overwhelming sometimes.

Rhonda told me that she used to be a psychologist. I think next week I'll ask her if she can recommend a therapist. Because I think a little counseling might help me get over some of this stuff. I've always said that blogging is a great form of therapy, and it is, but there's nothing like face time.

*Wow. I actually did it. I mentioned the "being lost" thing. You have no idea how long it's taken me to get the motivation to write that.
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Tout comme l'autre fois que j'ai ecrit quelque chose qui m'a vide, je me retrouve incapable de l'ecrire en francais. Comme vous avez peut-etre constate, je ne traduis pas forcement ce que j'ecris en anglais. Je prefere utiliser ma voix francaise. Et la, je ne peux l'exprimer une deuxieme fois. Encore je laisse tomber les accents et tout ca, j'ai horreur de taper en francais sans marque diacritique mais j'ai une espece de malaise en ce moment. Je ne peux rien faire, je ne peux rien y faire non plus.

Desolee. Je suis crevee.
satrina* 12 years ago
"It's like this cycle of inertia and frustration. I think of things I want to do, but I have absolutely no motivation. So I don't do anything. Then I get frustrated. And on it goes."

I've been feeling exactly this way for some time and I know it can be a really exhausting process, still have to figure out the way to move out of this situation...

Wish I had wise words to say but sadly I can only say I understand how you feel

Satrina: av meg
'stee 12 years ago
i don't presume to know you or your situation, but it seems to me that you've gone through a difficult time that you are still trying to get closure on, and being in limbo with the house situation means you cannot yet close that chapter of your life. given all that, it's hard to have a clear mind to work out what to do next. don't be too hard on yourself, and give yourself time.

i hope things make a turn for the better for you soon.
x

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stee's 2007: a blank canvas
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thank you.

You are so very astute. I just need to give myself permission to be like this. It is not easy.
sunshinecity 12 years ago
sometimes just admitting something to ourselves is the biggest step...
I know how you feel. I too lack motivation to do things sometimes, and the more I have nothing to do, the less I want to do. Being highly unsatiisfied with my work, because I'm without a job has left me feeling all sorts of depressed and insecure.
I'm sure you'll find your way soon, and if this means having to seek some "external" support, then go for it! What ever it takes...
Hope you feel better soon!

I love the shadow of the cat, such a perfect capture!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thank you! :-)
AliThinks Posted 12 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 12 years ago
January 26, 2007

January 26, 2007

This is what I coooked for dinner: roasted sweet potatoes and onions. And salmon en papillote. It was an orange meal. And I'm miffed that my photos of the ginger grater didn't come out the way I wanted them to.
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Le dîner : patates douces et oignons rotis. Saumon en papillote. Un repas orange.

Enervée car les photos du râpe à gingembre n'ont pas été bonnes.
sunshinecity 12 years ago
sound yum, except for the fish....
definitely not a fish eater over here!!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 12 years ago
You don't know what you are missing. ;-)
satrina* Posted 12 years ago. Edited by satrina* (member) 12 years ago
Oh yes, I love to eat fish -please don't tell my babies I just said that-, specially salmon.

Satrina: av meg
AllanThinks 12 years ago
That was a lovely, tasty meal. Thanks for making it.

Allan
AliThinks 12 years ago
OK, I won't tell! :-)

You're welcome. I feel like I need to perfect the cooking technique for the fish, though. So, you know, I'll do that again soon.
Tom Hall (tommune) 12 years ago
Yummmmm! You're making me HUNGRY!


Tom Tommune's 2007 in Austin
dda1605 12 years ago
Tasty and dietetic......Very good for my diet.

(Didier 2007 )
AliThinks 12 years ago
It was delicious. I ate the leftover vegetables for breakfast. :-)

And easy, too.
durhamyankee 12 years ago
I love orange food.

And this looks fantastic. I'm jealous.

Dwm's everday
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks! Don't be jealous. Get yourself some sweet potatoes! :-)
AliThinks 12 years ago
January 27, 2006

January 27, 2007

My daughter told me she was reading this book. Of course, she's reading it in French, so I bought a copy in English for the next time she visits. It's pretty good so far.

I wonder what she'll think when she finds out I'm reading the same book she is? Well, never mind, I've read all the Harry Potters, just as she has. But I haven't read Eragon yet. She LOVES that book.
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Ma fille m'a informée qu'elle est en train de lire ce bouquin. Bien sûr elle le lit en français, donc j'ai acheté une copie en anglais (ou V.O., je devrais dire) pour sa prochaine visite ici. L'histoire est bien pour l'instant.

Je me demande ce qu'elle va penser quand elle sait que sa mère lit le même livre qu'elle. Ben...peu importe. J'ai déjà lu tous les Harry Potter, tout comme elle. Mais je n'ai pas encore lu Eragon. Elle ADORE ce bouquin.
AllanThinks 12 years ago
So, how is it?

Allan
stevelyon PRO 12 years ago
I dig this shot - feels like a quiet evening at home.
Meelifluous PRO 12 years ago
Looks cozy. Nothing like snuggling up with a good book.
barb howe 12 years ago
Is this by the author of Eragon? I heard the movie is awful.

--barb (daily photo diary)
AliThinks 12 years ago
Good so far. The scary thing is that I was editing it in my head as I was reading.

Thanks. I spend far too much time on the internets and not enough reading.

I know. Which is why I should curb my internet habit and start reading more!

No, this is a different author. I heard the movie wasn't very good, too. My daughter told me "If you read the book, just remember that the first 50 pages are really boring." So far I haven't been motivated to start the book. I have no idea why.
AllanThinks 12 years ago
I've been trying to read the book for a while. I have made it about 100 pages in, and I find it boring.

But I have never been into Dragon Rider Fantasy.

Allan
'stee 12 years ago
those sweet potatoes look delish. i might have to steal that idea for dinner tonight!

your daughter is lucky to have a mum who takes an active interest in the things she's interested in...if my mum ever even asked what i'm reading at the moment i would faint with shock ;p

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stee's 2007: a blank canvas
Tom Hall (tommune) 12 years ago
Hahaha, a born editor, that hilarious! :) I constantly do that when reading anything. I look at a whole page of paper, my eyes instantly go to the typo. Or I pause on a paragraphy, mentally making it read better... especially humor... "if only they'd taken that word out, the cadence would be better..."

Tom Tommune's 2007 in Austin
ebilflindas 12 years ago
Instantly go to the typo, Tom? ;-) (or is that editor-lingo?)

I just ate, but those sweet potatoes and onions look divine--and then you had to mention the salmon en papillote!

You look so cute in that last one, so youthful!
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ebilflindas: Everyday Dad
msspider66 12 years ago
I think I have two Harry Potters left to read. A few years ago my ex aunt (a reading teacher) lent me all of the ones that were out at the time. I plowed through one a day. Loved them, but haven't gotten around to the newer ones.

[Ms Spider66]
AliThinks 12 years ago
The sweet potatoes were wonderful. And my daughter is almost 12...going on 27...it is the least I can do, since I am so far from her right now.

Ah, a kindred spirit! :-)

The leftover potatoes were delish (no leftover salmon, though). And thanks. I'm not old and I'm not young. Wait. Yes, I'm young but...you know what I mean! :-) Youthful is a great adjective!

I loved the Harry Potters, too, but I do think that I might need to reread #6 before #7 comes out.
AliThinks 12 years ago
January 28, 2007

January 28, 2007

My older brother can't believe it. I'm a fan of college basketball now. He was a star on our high school team, but didn't play in college. And he's taught his sons to love the sport.

I'm not sure why he's surprised. Okay, so I didn't go to all his games in high school (we graduated one year apart), but I used to love to shoot hoops with him in our driveway. In fact, I used to be able to make a pretty good layup. (I see now that the layup is one of the most basic moves in basketball. Oh well. I thought I was pretty good. Not good enough to try out for the girls' team, but I digress, and I don't want to talk about my lack of self-confidence here:)

Now that I live here in Lexington with Allan, I have the privilege of attending all the University of Kentucky men's home basketball games. Allan holds season tickets that have been in his family since the late 1940s. If I don't go, another person takes my place (and there are times I choose not to go).

It's exciting. And today's game against Tennessee was especially exciting; we'd just lost two games we could have won, and spirits were down. UK was neck and neck against Tennessee until the last half of the second half, when we pulled ahead with a couple of sweetly choreographed plays and three-point shots. Final score? 76-57.

Think about it: the one sport I liked to "play," one of the sports I like to watch on TV (tennis is the other), and a chance to be RIGHT THERE for the team? How could I not be a fan?

See my set of photos taken at a previous game here.

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Mon frère ainé n'y crôit pas. Je suis maintenant fan de basketball -- au niveau universitaire, pas au niveau pro. Il était star de notre équipe au lycée, mais n'y a pas joué à la fac. Et il a transmis son amour pour ce sport à ces fils.

Je sais pas trop pour quoi il est surpris. Bon, je ne suis pas allée à tous ses matchs au lycée (on y avait un an de différence), mais j'adorais faire des baskets avec lui dans notre driveway (comment dire? ce n'est pas un parking devant une maison, is it?). Et en fait, j'étais pas mal aux layups. (A priori c'est l'un des trucs les plus basique dans le basketball. Merde alors!)

Maintenant que je vis à Lexington avec Allan, j'ai le privilege d'assister à tous les matchs "home" de l'équipe masculine de basketball de l'Université de Kentucky. Allan détient des billets pour chaque "saison" (pardon, mon vocabulaire manque ici) ; ces billets sont dans sa famille depuis la fin des années 40. Si je n'y vais pas, une autre personne prend ma place ( et il y a des moments où je choisi de ne pas y aller.)

Ça donne de l'énergie. It's exciting. Et le match d'aujourd'hui contre l'Université de Tennessee était particulièrement "excitant" ; on venait de perdre deux matchs qu'on aurait pu gagner; et les humeurs n'étaient pas bonnes. Comment dire? Encore je me retrouve sans mots. Les scores étaient très proches jusqu'à la dernière moitié de la deuxième période, quand Kentucky a pris le devant grâce à quelques mouvements bien choréographés et des baskets à trois points. Le score final? 76-57.

Pensez-y: LE sport auquel j'aimais joué, l'un des deux sports que j'aime regarder à la télé (l'autre c'est le tennis), et la chance d'être LÀ, vraiment là pour l'équipe? Comment ne pas être fan dans ces conditions?

Voir mon set de photos prises à un autre match ici.
ebilflindas 12 years ago
I'm not big into college sports, but I enjoyed reading this. I haven't mentioned this before, but I also appreciate your dual-language posts--it gives me a chance to practice a little and to see how certain phrases are worded differently.
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ebilflindas: Everyday Dad
AllanThinks 12 years ago
That is such a great photo.

I'm glad you love going to the games.

Allan
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thank you! As I said in French the other day, I don't really "translate" my posts. I just read what I wrote in English, then I "say" it in French. It gives me a chance to keep up my language skills, which were predominantly oral, I must say. Therefore, I probably use French slang a little more than English slang. Or not. It's hard to say.
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks, sweetness. Thanks for bringing me into the culture.
sunshinecity Posted 12 years ago. Edited by sunshinecity (member) 12 years ago
It's fun when you really get into a sport....
Reminds me of the time I was going out with my ex... he's a mega super HUGE soccer fan and he'd take me to some matches... the atmosphere you breathe at a soccer stadium is unique, I find. Never felt such euphoria anywhere else, especially when your team scores!

Great shot, as is the one of you reading!

oh and btw, I know what I'm missing with fish... I've tasted it and it's why I stay well clear of it. It's a lost battle with me, my parents gave up hope years ago LOL ... people think I'm crazy, but hey... I like to be picky!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 12 years ago
Ah, yes, soccer. Football! The only time I enjoyed watching that was during the final of the 1998 World Cup, France vs. Brazil. "Et un, et deux, et trois, ZERO!" :-)

Anyway, thanks for the compliments. Too bad about fish though, but I guess that means there's more for the rest of us. ;-p
humorous cats [deleted] 12 years ago
big fan of college basketball myself. syracuse for me. but i do have a soft spot for louisville since my gf is from there and i like their coach. those are amazing seats you have. i enjoyed your pics of the games. big zoom?

blow/up diary
ebilflindas 12 years ago
Actually, that's perfect, , that it's not a word-for-word translation--keeps it more...comment dit-on...colloquial?
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks, and I'll forgive your soft spot for Louisville, since one of my old flames went to Syracuse. How's that for fuzzy logic?

As for the lens, I used the kit lens that came with my D50. They almost didn't let me in with it, since it looked like a "pro" camera. We have REALLY good seats.
AliThinks 12 years ago
Yes, it's definitely colloquial! I do know the difference between slang, normal speech, and written French, and I generally play with all three. I think it confuses some francophones who aren't sure I've mastered the language, but I am fully aware of what I write. :-)
AllanThinks 12 years ago
I have to say it again. That is a great photo!

Allan
dda1605 12 years ago
27th : I love all the little (or not so little) things you do to be as close as possible from your kids.

(Didier 2007 )
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks again!

Merci! Funny, their father told me today that I don't know them anymore. I am staying as close as I can to them, while being 4000 miles away.
AliThinks Posted 12 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 12 years ago
January 29, 2007

January 29, 2007

This phone has been the bane of my existence today. I used it to call my children, but first their father wanted to talk to me. We didn't "argue," but he managed to hurt me once again -- I suspect that this is just a remnant of the emotional abuse he put me through, and that when we speak, we revert back to these roles. I don't know. I do wish I was better-equipped to deal with this kind of thing. In any case, I had been waiting until I saw him in person to bring up the subject, but he caught wind of things before I had a chance. Oh well.

The other thing is that I had to call the airline this afternoon, regarding my frequent flyer miles. I'd had to cancel a reservation that I'd made with my miles, but when I tried to rebook online this afternoon, I got an error message. So I called the 800 number and spoke to a representative, who gave me another number to call. I did so, and after going through the whole "Yes, I really am who I say I am" rigamarole, was transferred to another person. Whose line was busy. So I hung up, called back, explained that I'd been cut off, was told to "Please hold." I waited. And waited.

Fifteen minutes I waited before someone finally came on the line. It must be said that she was very helpful and quick. Within 10 minutes of hanging up, I'd rebooked my flight online.

So at least now I know WHEN I am going to France. The rest just has to fall into place somehow.

But it was still a crappy day.

Before I go, I want to give a shoutout to my friend Denise, who's known me lo these twenty years, and to her fiancé David. They read my and Allan's diary every day. I appreciate that more than they'll know.
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Ce téléphone a été ma hantise aujourd'hui. Je m'en suis servie pour téléphoné à mes enfants, mais leur père a voulu me parler en permier. Nous ne nous sommes pas "disputés", mais il a réussi à me blesser une fois de plus -- je crois bien que c'est un reste du harcèlement moral qu'il m'a fait subir, et que quand on discute, on revient aux anciens rôles. Je ne sais pas. J'aimerais bien être mieux équipée pour gérer ce genre de chose. En tout cas, j'attendais de le voir en personne pour parler de cette situation, mais il a su autrement avant que j'en ai l'opportunité. Tant pis.

L'autre truc c'est que j'ai dû téléphoné à la compagnie aérienne à propos de mes miles. Franchement, je n'ai pas envie de raconter en français (je l'ai déjà dit en anglais, et c'était un petit merdier qui s'est bien terminé...) donc voilà.

Mais maintenant au moins je sais QUAND je vais en France. Esperons que les autres pièces du puzzle tombent bien.

C'était quand même une journée assez merdique.

Avant de partir, je fais un grand coucou à ma copine Denise, qui me connaît depuis 20 ans. Elle et son fiancé David, ils lisent mon journal, ainsi que celui d'Allan. Ca me touche beaucoup plus qu'ils ne puissent savoir.
ebilflindas 12 years ago
I'm sorry to hear that, Ali. I hope the extent of his abuse doesn't include saying horrible things about you to your children. I'm excited for you to see them, be with them, and connect with them in person. And as I wrote to Allan, it's lovely to see the love and support you two give each other. Thank you for sharing.
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ebilflindas: Everyday Dad
msspider66 12 years ago
Everythig will fall into place eventually.You will havea wonderful time with the kids. How long are you going for?

[Ms Spider66]
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thank you. Unfortunately, he has told them things about me that aren't true; they told me this after noticing that his words and my actions didn't quite match up. It was difficult to not spout off terrible things in front of my children. I just told them that there are two sides to every story. I hope it's a lesson that serves them well.

Anyway, thank you for the kind comments. Allan is my rock, my anchor. I am not sure where I would be without him. Probably drifting more than I am.
AliThinks 12 years ago
I am going for almost a month. The children have two weeks off. I'll take care of some things while they are still in school. :)
'stee 12 years ago
gah. i'm sorry to hear today sucked. i hope tuesday is a better day.
x

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stee's 2007: a blank canvas
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks. Tuesday should be better.
x
BellaGaia PRO 12 years ago
I cannot imagine how painful it is to be without your children... but one thing i know for sure is that the truth always comes out -- take the high road Ali -- they will see you for who you are no matter what he says about you eventually. Patience ..... i'm still learning....

BellaGaia (Living with BellaGaia)
dda1605 12 years ago
Sorry you had a bad day. I want to tell you something....If your ex tries to hurt you regarding your kids, it means he know exactly how important you are for them and it bothers him. Keep on being a good mother.....Nothing can be on the way between a mother and her kids.

(Didier 2007 )
AliThinks 12 years ago
Patience takes time to learn, doesn't it?

Perhaps, perhaps...

Thank you all for your kind comments.
AliThinks Posted 12 years ago. Edited by AliThinks (member) 12 years ago
January 30, 2007

January 30, 2007

Despite the frigid temperature this afternoon, Allan and I went to the Lexington Cemetery. We do that every so often. It is a beautiful place. Today it was especially peaceful. We were the only people walking around the frozen grounds.

I took a number of photos of different headstones. The light was beautiful, and as I looked toward the cloud-feathered sun, I took this photo. When I looked at the preview, I only noticed the vertical crease between my eyebrows. "Good," I thought. "I have a backup photo in case none of the other shots come out the way I wanted."

Only one did
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I often focus on that crease in my forehead. Sometimes I try to smooth it out. It never stays smooth.

But I will never have Botox injected into it. It's like a scar, and scars symbolize wounds. That crease in my forehead is just a reminder to me of how far I've come, how much I've survived.

Right now my diary portrays a sadness inside me. Here's to evolution; perhaps by next December I'll be back to normal. And the crease will be a little deeper.
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Malgré les basses temperatures cet après-midi, avec Allan nous sommes allés au Cimitière de Lexington. Nous le faisons de temps à autre. C'est un bel endroit. Aujourd'hui c'était particulièrement paisible. Nous étions les seuls à nous ballader dans les environs gelés.

J'ai pris quelques photos de plusieurs tombes. La lumière était belle, et quand je me suis tournée vers le soleil obturé par des petits nuages, j'ai pris cette photo-là. Quand j'ai regardé l'écran de l'appareil, j'ai seulement remarqué la ride verticale située entre mes sourcils. "Bien," je me suis dit. "J'aurai une photo en rab au cas où les autres photos ne sont pas comme je veux."

Il n'y en a qu'une qui l'est.

Je pense souvent à cette ride. Parfois j'essaie de la lisser. Elle ne reste jamais lisse.

Mais jamais je ne me ferais injectée de Botox. Cette ride est comme une cicatrice, et les cicatrices symbolisent des blessures. Cette ride dans mon front est un rappel du chemin que j'ai fait, de tout ce que j'ai survécu.

Pour l'instant mon journal montre la tristesse que je porte en moi. Vive l'évolution ; peut-être en décembre prochain, je me sentirai plus comme la vraie Alison. Et la ride sera un peu plus profonde.
AliThinks 12 years ago
sunshinecity 12 years ago
It's good you show your crease with pride. Indeed they are a sign of resistance, that after all, you're still here, still standing. There maybe days when you feel like you can't get up, but then things change, time passes and in retrospect you know you've survived and are stronger for it!
I hope your days are peaceful and sunny and filled with love. I can tell by what Allan writes too, that they are. The past is past.
I'm so happy you finally get to see your kids!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks. :-) I haven't seen my kids since the beginning of November, so it's definitely time.
lramiro520 12 years ago
At the age of 25 I have one wrinkle starting to become visible and it is that same crease that is between your eyebrows. Creases are so telling, aren't they?

The Other Side Of The Fence
AliThinks 12 years ago
Yes! I refuse to call mine a wrinkle yet. The lines around my eyes are wrinkles. This is still a crease. ;-p
stevelyon PRO 12 years ago
Crease or no, you've got nice skin.
satrina* 12 years ago
Sorry to hear about your bad day with that phone call but let me tell you I absolutely loved -and will take with me- the way you spoke with your kids about the situation, you handled it in the best way. A big hug to you and Allan

Satrina: av meg
barb howe 12 years ago
oh is that considered a wrinkle? I have one of those too. Doesn't everyone? Anyway I'm really glad to read what you wrote about yours. Sometimes I have hated mine but you know, it appeared after Colombia and gets reinforced when I'm stressed and have a lot of tension so I agree with what you say about it being a mark of a wound survived. It's good to hear your level-headed perspective on it.

(and catching up on the previous days... sorry to hear about the stressful phonecall. I hate that when parents do that to kids. It's just awful. I've always thought it was a huge turnoff to hear someone bad mouth their ex. Anyway I hope things get smoothed out and go better soon. You're such a great person and I'm sure your kids know that no matter what they hear.

--barb (daily photo diary)
AliThinks 12 years ago
Ha! Thanks! :-)

I guess I believe in karma, or that what goes around comes around, or something like that. Benevolent actions now will pay off later; the opposite is true as well.

But thanks. It's good to know that I'm not "alone." Hugs to you, too.

Yes, we all have wrinkles, and I noticed my first one at the ripe age of 20. This one in my forehead is more apparent when I am stressed (just look at my first self-portrait in this diary, the one I posted before we all started this!), so it's not ALWAYS there. :-)

Level-headed? I don't know. Realistic, yeah.

Anyway, thanks for the good wishes.
dda1605 12 years ago
I really hope you will be OK a lot before Dec.. Don't let the sadness win.


(Didier 2007 )
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks, Didier. I think I will be. I am already feeling better today.
PutYourFlareOn PRO 12 years ago
Those lines on your face tell a story. I noticed my first lines on my forehead after my mother passed away. People who hide them with cosmetic surgery or botx aren't facing forward and letting time take it's toll. It's okay to be sad, to let it wash over you and take it's turn because sadness will not win, there will be happy days for you too.

(((alison)))

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Aimee, PutYourFlareOn's 2007 Daily Photo Diary
AliThinks 12 years ago
January 31, 2007

January 31, 2007

The chore I most hate: folding laundry. I had to do it today, though, because I realized that I was out of clean clothes. And we are going out tonight, so I *really* had to do laundry. This meant folding the laundry that had piled up in this basket, as well.

Early this morning the cat woke us up with his meowing. I didn't get out of bed, but I lay there for a while. For some reason I imagined myself taking kick boxing lessons. I went back to sleep, and when I woke up I was in a great mood. I know! Yay, right?

My mood was heightened by the news that I definitely have a place to stay during the whole of my trip to France. I had no doubt I would find lodging with friends; I just didn't know with whom or where. So that is settled.

And tonight we are going out with a new friend of ours. She works in promotions for a liquor company, and as such has to lead karaoke at a local bar. Had to, I should say, because this evening is the last time she will do it; the company decided that it wasn't worth the effort.

It will be fun to go out and great to hear her sing. And hey, I might even get up on stage and sing a song, too. Who knows?

So it's been a good day. I feel like the fog is lifting.

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J'ai horreur de plier le linge. Il fallait le faire aujourd'hui, parce que je n'avais plus rien à me mettre. Et ce soir on sort; donc il fallait faire des lessives. Ça voulait dire plier le linge déjà empilé dans ce panier.

Tôt ce matin le chat nous a réveillé avec ses miaulements. Je ne me suis pas levée, mais je suis restée réveillé un peu. Pour je ne sais quelle raison, je me suis vu prendre des leçons de kick-boxing. Je me suis rendormie, et en me réveillant, j'étais de super bonne humeur. Je sais: Ouais!

Mon humeur a été améliorée par la nouvelle que j'ai un logement sûr pour mon prochain voyage en France. Je savais que je trouverais, avec des amis, mais je ne savais pas où ni avec qui. Donc ça, c'est reglé.

Et ce soir on sort avec une nouvelle copine. Elle fait des promos pour une société de alcools forts, et et donc et doit mener des karaoke dans un bar. Devait, je devrais dire, car la boîte a décidé que le karaoke n'était pas assez rentable. Ce soir c'est la dernière fois que notre amie chantera le karaoke. Enfin, c'est la dernière fois qu'elle sera payée pour!

Ça va être bien de sortir et de l'entendre chanter. Et on ne sait jamais; peut-être que je chanterai, moi aussi.

C'était une bonne journée. J'ai l'impression que le brouillard se lève.
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks, Aimee. I think the sad days may be behind me...I hope so. Today was good, anyway.
'stee 12 years ago
karaoke! awesome. that is a great silly thing to do occasionally - i recommend it to anyone. best served with some dutch courage - haha!

also - i wish i could fold your laundry for you - i find it really therapeutic! :)

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stee's 2007: a blank canvas
Meelifluous PRO 12 years ago
Nothing like a little kicking a$$ to get one in a better mood.

I don't mind laundry. Dishes! I hate dishes.
leesure PRO 12 years ago
I am SOOO with you on the folding thing. I really hate the 'whites' load with all the damn socks.

Really glad to see you're feeling good!

Leesure
barb howe 12 years ago
yeah I'll leave clean laundry piled on the sofa for days. It never gets folded. I just pick up what I need and wear it. Body heat will eventually get the wrinkles out! lol... glad you're feeling better, Ali! Have fun tonight!

--barb (daily photo diary)
dda1605 12 years ago
I hate it too. We are 5 at home, which means 3 laundries a day. It is a nightmare.....
I am happy you feel better.

(Didier 2007 )
francophony 12 years ago
Ack, laundry! Although what kills me the most is IRONING, but we have no dryer and so alas, there's no escaping it. Damn ironing!

Kim
sunshinecity 12 years ago
well yay for lifted fog!! YA know... this just might be a good week for many of us... I too got great news this week...
let's hope it's contagious!!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 12 years ago
We had a great time. And you can fold my laundry whenever you want. :-)

Yeah! It was good!

Socks and fitted sheets. I hate the fitted sheets.

Our laundry philosophies are similar, I see.

Yes, with children there is always more laundry!

I hate ironing, too. I only do it if I assolutely have to.

I hope it will be contagious!
~magpie~ PRO Posted 12 years ago. Edited by ~magpie~ (member) 12 years ago
I hope the fog continues to lift, Ali. And if only everyone saw the aging process, the wrinkles, the creases in your poetic and strong way. You got character, girl.

I wonder if this frear of showing age is in part due to this society and how little respect we have in general for our elders. In other cultures, countries, the elders are held in esteem for their knowledge and experience. Here they're often mocked and taken advantage of. There's not many things I abhor more than hearing someone (say, a nurse) talk to an older person like they're 5. I could slap them.

I really appreciate how much you and Allan share with us.

Erica Day by Day 2007
AliThinks 12 years ago
February 1, 2007

February 1, 2007

Mr. Jones makes me laugh. He is such a lazy boy. His furry tummy is adorable, and I love to rub it.

Today I was much like the cat. My tummy is a lot less adorable though, heh heh. I lay around for much of the day, recovering from our evening out last night. (We had a GREAT time, and yes, I sang a song: "Squeezebox" by The Who!)

Anyway, I was going to post a photo of the television, because a little while ago I watched an interview with France's Minister of the Interior, Nicolas Sarkozy, that I'd DVRed. I found it very interesting, but I thought that the cat was a lot cuter than "Sarko." Also, less prone to provoked heated debate!
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Le chat me fait rire. Il est tellement paresseux (tiens, moi aussi, je ne vais pas brancher le clavier francais). Son bidon est adorable, et j'adore le caresser.

Aujourd'hui j'ai fait comme le chat. Mon bidon est moins joli, hehe. J'ai glande une bonne partie de la journee, j'ai du me remettre apres notre soiree hier soir. (C'etait super, et oui, j'ai chante pour le karaoke).

J'allais poster une photo de la tele, car toute a l'heure j'ai regarde une interview avec Nicolas Sarkozy que j'avais enregistre hier. C'etait tres interessant, mais je pense que le chat et plus mignon que Sarko, et moins apte a lancer un grand debat! :-)
sunshinecity Posted 12 years ago. Edited by sunshinecity (member) 12 years ago
ehehhe cats, that's the life... You know they have to sleep something like 13 hrs a day or they die? And there you were thinking about coming back as a man or something... hell no! IUf reincarnation exists, I'm coming back as a cat!!!

Maybe this photo I took was for him.... I wonder!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
AliThinks 12 years ago
Hehe, yes, that photo seems to be just for him!

I'd like to come back as a cat, too. ;-)
ebilflindas 12 years ago
Hey, we did laundry on the same day!

No photos from karaoke?
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ebilflindas: Everyday Dad
stevelyon PRO 12 years ago
Cats are good. What a life.
AliThinks 12 years ago
I didn't take my camera! And Allan didn't either. ;-)

No kiddin'!
AliThinks 12 years ago
February 2, 2007

February 2, 2007

I didn't fall asleep until about 5 o'clock this morning, and consequently slept until 12:41. I know because I looked at the clock on the microwave as I lurched into the kitchen.

It was time to call my kids, which I did before even pouring myself a cup of coffee. They were chatty, especially C. It will be good to be with them in just a couple of weeks. T's birthday presents from my Dad finally arrived today, and he was pleased with the gem and crystal kits. I was pleased that they arrived there in one piece.

As it had snowed while I was sawing logs, I thought I would make that the focus of my diary today. My photography prof in college taught us that it's very hard to photograph snow. (Yes; I know, it's hard to believe I've taken a photography class, isn't it?) I took about 15 photos, and this one was my favorite -- and you can't really even see the snow!

Later I walked to the grocery store to buy the ingredients for lasagna. I'd forgotten that no-cook noodles are not common here, so I had to boil them before assembling the dish. This lasagna will be more American-style than French-style (mmm, béchamel in lasagna, anyone?), but it smells wonderful so far. I'm sure it will be tasty.

So that's been the day. How's yours been?
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Je n'ai pas fermé l'oeil avant 5h du matin, et donc j'ai dormi jusqu'à 12h41. Je le sais parce que j'ai regardé l'heure dans le micro-onde en arrivant à la cuisine.

C'était l'heure de téléphoner aux enfants, ce que j'ai fait avant même de me servir un café. Ils avaient envie de papoter, surtout C. Ce fera plaisir d'être avec eux dans seulement une quinzaine de jours. Les cadeaux d'anniversaire pour T. de la part de mon père sont arrivés aujourd'hui. Il était content des kits de cristaux et de pierres "précieuses". J'étais contente qu'ils soient arrivés intacts.

Comme il a neigé pendant mon séjour dans les bras de Morphée, je pensais en faire le sujet de mon journal aujourd'hui. Mon prof de photographie à la fac nous avait appris que c'est très dur de bien photographier la neige. (eh, oui, on ne le saurait pas, mais j'ai suivi un cours de photographie!) J'ai pris à peu près 15 photos, et celle-ci est ma préférée. On n'y voit même pas la neige !

Plus tard je suis allée au supermarché à pied pour acheter de quoi faire des lasagnes. J'avais oublié qu'ici on ne trouve pas facilement les lasagnes sans cuisson, donc j'ai dû les faire bouillir avant d'assembler le plat. Ces lasagnes seront plus style américaine que française (mmmm, j'adore le béchamel dans les lasagnes), mais ça sent super bon. Je suis sûre que ça va être fameux.

Voilà ma journée. Et la vôtre...la tienne, plutôt?

PS: Oups, j'aurais dû faire des crêpes !!
sunshinecity Posted 12 years ago. Edited by sunshinecity (member) 12 years ago
sounds like a good day to me!! I wonder if french style lasagna are the same as italian. I LOVE bechamel sauce. You make your own? My mom does!!! Ok, now I'm hungry!!
LOL

Oh, I forgot to say, that is a very pretty shot... is that rosemary? Looks awful like it if it's not!

~ sunshinecity,
a picture, a story
ebilflindas 12 years ago
You seem to have captured the snow nicely by not capturing it at all.
You are now ready to leave the temple.
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ebilflindas: Everyday Dad
AliThinks 12 years ago
Yes, that's rosemary, and it's the only herb I have managed not to kill. I don't know if French lasagne is like Italian, but yes, I make my own bechamel! :-)

Um, thanks! :-)
ebilflindas 12 years ago
Yeah, sorry, that sounded rather Zen and the Tao of Photography, didn't it. I tried to soften it with a little Kung Fu (à la David Carradine) humour, but it kinda fell flat.

What I could've said is, your composition gives the impression of snow, which is perfect in the context of this image.

Or I could just say, Hey, I really like this shot!
;-)
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks for the clarification! My Kung Fu/David Carradine culture is lacking, but I think I understood what you meant. Allan helped me, I must admit.

Anyway, I'm glad you like the shot! I'm glad the snow hasn't melted yet. :-)
dda1605 12 years ago
Great you spoke with the kids, I am sure the next two weeks before your trip will be very long one.
Your picture is nice and we can feel the snow in the background. It is a good complement to allan'shot.
Have a great week-end.

(Didier 2007 )
satrina* 12 years ago
Béchamel in lasagna is wonderful, the first time I used it everybody said: it tastes different, it's better! so from that day I always use it.

And I share your (you and Barb) body heat=ironing policy

Oh, and Mr Jones looks like a happy cat

Satrina: av meg
lramiro520 12 years ago
Ahhh, Haha! Mr. Jones looked like he was having a great day!

The Other Side Of The Fence
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks. Hope your weekend is good as well.

Ricotta cheese is good, too, though! Mr. Jones is quite a happy cat. He's got quite the life.

I'm not sure he ever has a bad day. That cat has a great life.
AliThinks 12 years ago
Glace

February 3, 2007

It has been a good day. I went to lunch and coffee with a friend, and felt motivated to take photos that were not necessarily for this diary. That's a huge step for me, because I feel I've lost my creative edge. The other photos are here and here, if you are interested.

Now it's evening, and I'm comfortably sleepy after a meal of lasagna leftovers, salade, and garlic bread.

Maybe I'll spend the rest of the evening reading.
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C'était une bonne journée. J'ai déjeuné avec une amie, et on a pris un café après. Ensuite j'ai été assez motivée pour prendre des photos qui n'ont pas été spécifique à ce journal. C'est un pas géant pour moi qui pense avoir perdu toute envie de créer. Les autres photos se trouvent ici et ici, si ça t'intéresse.

C'est le soir maintenant, et j'ai sommeil après un repas des restes des lasagnes, de la salade, et du pain (genre préfou, avec de l'ail, miam!)

Peut-être que je passerai le reste de la soirée avec un bouquin.
leesure PRO 12 years ago
For someone whose creativity is gone, your shots for this diary sure don't reflect it.

I like the last 2 alot! I thought of you today as I folded laundry. :(

Glad you had a good day.

Lee
'stee 12 years ago
mr jones is such a beautiful cat!

i love the snow photo - that looks like rosemary in the foreground..is it?

glad the last few days have been good ones :)

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stee's 2007: a blank canvas
barb howe 12 years ago
yes.

whatcha readin'?
AliThinks 12 years ago
Thanks! :-) There is more laundry for me to fold, but I am avoiding it.

He is beautiful, isn't he? And pretty sweet, too. And as LWG responded, yes, that's rosemary.

The book I got for my daughter, the one I started the other day. I just finished it. Fun!
~magpie~ PRO 12 years ago
ummm... what's bechamel?

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