June 19th 2006

My grandmother passed away this afternoon. When I got the call today from mom she was crying. I tried to remain strong for her so that she could say what she needed to say. I regret that now. I don't know how to feel right now. I wish I could have talked to her for one last time. Mom mentioned that they might ask me to be a pallbearer. I'm not sure that I deserve the honor, but I'll certainly take the opportunity if asked.

Why is it that we spend so much time on things that really don't matter and don't take the time out to spend time with the ones we love? I guess that's just life. We take for granted that our loved ones will always be with us.

My grandmother would have turned 90 this year.

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toones says:

Great use of negative space. It gives us the freedom to make up our own story for this person and his thoughts...very nice! Prayers & thoughts to you through this difficult time.
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

shockingbird says:

Hate that for you bro. Prayers are with you. Born in 1916 or so? She saw a LOT. Went through The Great War, WWII, Vietnam, Korea, The Gulf War.. and Clinton.
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

~ Sailor ~ says:

It's never easy, no matter the length of life, vast experiences, richness of family, it is never, ever easy to lose someone. Those nagging 'what ifs' are a part of the letting go; the realization that none of those thoughts matter now. Our lives are ours to live commingling our time with the time of others. You were simply living your life. May God ease your hurt and fill the loss.

Peace.
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

Cacu :=] says:

Don't think about the time you didn't spent with her, take all the other.
Always we could do more, or better...

Style life, sometimes, takes us away from really important things, but it doesn't means that became less importants. And we learn...

Theres is a part of her in you, in your way of thinkin', lovin', actin', feelin'.....
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

MaiKoh says:

My condolences, it is never easy dealing with these sorts of things. Just try to remember the good times. Lovely portrait.
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

PutYourFlareOn says:

I lost my mom at the end of the last year and had the same thoughts that you did. I was strong for my dad and at the time just shut down when I really should have let it all out. It will all come out on it's own, better to let it come than to push it back. My condolences to you and your family. It will take time but with time you will find the answers to all your questions.

The emotion in this photo is so overwhelming, even without your commentary I think I would have felt what you're feeling right now.
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

weshallmeetonthebeautifulshore says:

My condolences to you and your family. Both my grandmothers were very dear to me. They've been gone for 23 years but there is still so much I want to share with them all the time.

Channeling your grief into art is productive and will help you heal. This self-portrait captures the many emotions you're experiencing while you mourn. Beautifully done.
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

Stephen Poff says:

Thanks so much guys. Your kindness and wisdom means more than you know. Tammi's sister passed away about a year and a half ago. She felt so guilty for not spending enough time with her. I told her all the same things and now here I am on the flip side of the coin.
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

Mr.Chan says:

Stephen , know how difficults , my dad was in coma for 9 months til today . That's life . Stay strong .
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

amersp says:

So sorry to hear of your loss. My prayers are with you and your family.
Posted 43 months ago. ( permalink )

HVargas says:

congratulation this is a great project
Posted 12 months ago. ( permalink )

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