well now everything is clean and has been used a bit to maintain a healthy behavior.
Missing the 5D MKII and the 28/2.8 zeiss that took these shots.
I practice photography daily. It's my passion, like music before, like writing. I feel naked without a camera. These are not really expensive stuff (see leica owners for expensive category) and they satisfy me, a lot. I get the pictures I want to get. Now I'm still this talentless guy, but you can't change your nature buying things.