I have a deep need to be creative.
It’s a yearning, a visceral compulsion, a continual striving desire towards the creative fix that drives my very core. I’m sorry to be so dramatic, but there is something VERY deep in me that need that creative fix. It feels evolutionary, like without it I would gradually weaken and pass into history. When in its grasp, I feel totally in the moment, my perception changes, time becomes transient and I become me! It’s hard to explain, but easy to be. This isn’t about others; it’s about my own learning, expression, feelings and memories. These feelings can be stimulated by others, by their work, by nature, but they always reflect something developmental, something subconsciously needed.
Have you ever had such a feeling? Have you ever felt everything just clicks? Have you ever felt that things feel effortless and you enter into a kind of meditative creative state? To put flesh on the bones of my vague ramblings, Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi has given it a name, the flow state. It’s a great feeling when it happens, but as addictive as any drug. May you find it sometime soon!