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Flickr,
this picture was taken in beautiful brazil, even though typing this I am currently in Australia. Life is continiuing teaching me lessons every single day. I wish I was caught up with my camera enough to share it with you every single day, but truth to be told, Australia has so far driven me far away from everything called technology. Im getting used to a lifestyle without phones, internett, computers. Its wierd, but Its beautiful. Ive been on a computer for at least 5h a day since I was 16. That's five years. And as much as I love it there is a balance there I yet need to figure out.

Love from Nimbin (not far from Brisbane)

N

I wish I could say I'd had such a great start in Brazil as I look happy in this picture.
The truth is that loneliness and selfrespect came knocking on the door and has dragged me down every now and then. I still have the feeling of hating my own company. And as I'm now living alone the feeling grows stronger and stronger. I'm working on it. And damn I hate those tears. I guess it's like this because I'm driving me body to hard. I'm participating in difficult yoga classes and going to physiotherapists that all make me do hard and hurting exercises that I can't handle in any way, mentally or physically. But it's about time I face that my body is weak. Is about time I priority my body. Is about time I face the fact that I'm disabled and that I should do something about it. I know that. It's about time. But it's so hard. And it drains so much energy from me that I sometimes wish I wasn't born at all - 3 months early or not 3 months early. But Great - I'm here, I'm smiling, crying, fighting
and all of that.

Hallelujah, Peace be with you.♥

Ps: Flickrmails will be responded soon I promise.♥ thank you ...

Every time I upload a photograph on flickr it's almost as I've forgotten I have people here that has listen to all my ups and downs ++.

I want to thank you,
whoever you are reading this I thank you with all my heart.

I've had a hard time with my Flickr recently. I actually have wanted to DELETE my entire flickr for some time. Just because I look back at my pictures and I see so much stupidity.

I see a "naked" body and I feel ashamed for it. I know I was always inspired by several people and always saw a beauty in each photograph, but now I also have my intention speaking that whichever "naked" picture I take it will always be sexual in some sort of way. Even pictures of naked children can "awaken" a terrible man/woman. I know I'm not suppose to think like this. The point is, that I'm looking for peace within. And my body will always be external.

No wonder I look so sad or melancholic on all the pictures.
I'm not saying anybody else should think like me. I'm just saying that's why I've wanted to delete it.

But I will never do,
it's kinda become my....- diary.... or such!!!

Anyway, have some amazing days and
Enjoy the to the fullest.

Smile with your hearts.

In four days I'm in Brazil
in half an hour I'm out kayaking.

I must say
the sunrise is such a magic thing.
I was so happy to see it today...<3

Love

I'm working really hard on myself these days.
To accept who I am, to live every moment and not let my mind race between past and future whiteout control. I love myself for taking a year off school. I know I'm on the right path towards Inner Happiness. I'm reading books, hiking, drinking tea, eating chocolate, laughing, staying away from red meat, breathing exercising, meditating, and enjoying. My goals are to get the mind to stop judging me, to stop judging others, to live and stay present, to enjoy being, to love myself, to fight for happiness and to stay happy. To believe in the magic of the world. Of the faith that can move mountains.

Btw, lately I've been so inspired by Graphics. I'm doing some graphic work on the Intense Photo Magazine and there you'll see a lot of Zapfino and Myraid Pro Fonts. haha:)
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*sight*
But seriously, Accepting the Moment is indeed harder than it sounds. There are so many people that are faced with injustice every single day. That lack the most fundamental things in life like food and drinking water. There are people that suffer car accidents, or that have a mental disorder. Or there are people that have a physical problem, like me, my muscles and bad balance nerve makes my turbulent Mind wanting to pull off all the hair on my head sometimes. Wanting to scream and give up and start doing all kinds of shit (sorry) to stop living.
So yeah, I know it's a hard one. But it's indeed an important,

and more important than I would ever think some years ago,
to Accept, and Enjoy the Moment as it Is.<3