when a man lies, he murders some part of the world
these are the pale deaths which men miscall their lives
all this i cannot bear to witness any longer
cannot the kingdom of salvation take me home?
if i could only listen to one song for the rest of my life, it would be to live is to die. that's why it will be on my skin forever. there's two meanings for me behind this tattoo, first - it may sound weird - but i'm happy there's a thing called death. i'm happy that there will be an ending, i'm happy because i know i will die someday. i'm not afraid. are you?
second one is about appreciating the life i have, - which i don't care about now, but i'll work on it - it reminds me the clock is ticking and i need to live my life to the fullest. it's like life has two sides, when one of them whispers that it worths everything, the other one says that it's not a permanent thing so just spend your time and leave. it seems like you have a choice but i think we don't, because there are times we do both of them. everybody hurts in some way and just wants it to end as soon as possible, and then they get happy somehow, it's like a complex loop.
in the morning, my grandma woke me up by calling. then i fell asleep again and kept having nightmares. this time there was a freaking huge spider in my house, and i ripped his legs off! no, i'm not done yet, i also murdered someone. by hitting his head. i haven't watched a horror movie or something before sleep, i don't know what the fuck my brain is doing. after waking up i took a shower, tried to eat some bread with nutella. oh and i saved a ladybug's life, which is the only thing that makes me happy right now. so i'll go back to edit some photos from a trip, i'll show you some later. maybe around midnight, because it's already evening here. :) i also want you to do something, if you ever get bored, or just want to talk, please drop me a message here. a quick hello would make me feel so much better than you think.