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//fifty-two weeks of design
To continue, or supplement, my previous design, and its meaning, I present to you the continuation of my attempt to focalize the essence of the things I am experiencing, and how I can better manage them.
In this contextualization of a command I cannot forget, I'm faced with the reminder of the word focus. It's difficult for me, you see, to remember why I ultimately do the things I do. Being completely honest with you here, today I saw someone who's graduating around the same time I am (March/2012), and he had a bunch of jobs lined up for him around the world; I wanted that, in that moment. I found out I got another IMDB credit, and it really made my day; I really enjoyed that, in that moment. I have no certain plans of anything after I leave school in three months; I'm afraid of that, in this moment.
But the reality is this: I'm not focused on my ultimate goal. Which, ultimately, isn't even my goal, per say. I'm at this life to make a difference, and reflect unto this world the beauty I see in Christ; that's why I do what I do. That's why I love the power of filmmaking, because you can convey a feeling, an expression, and a story in a way that's not dogmatic. Beyond the cliché of what the modernization of Christian films are perceived to be, I want to change this industry, and create films that impact a generation. I want to create films that, albeit not blatantly obvious in terms of dialogue, reach a deep, spiritual core that I believe every individual possesses.
However, for me to attain all these goals, I must maintain my focus on the one who will capacitate me with this strength, and constantly remember that all these things that my fellow graduates are seeking, isn't necessarily the same things I should be seeking. I don't want to be in this for the money, the fame, or even for the sake of just creating art. I want to be inspiring, be changing, and be impacting in a way that people don't even remember who I am, but they remember the great "I AM."
I know I said a lot here, and I suspect that there are people who probably rolled their eyes once or twice, but in the off-chance that you ever want to have a conversation about anything said, about a curiosity that may have sparked, or just about anything in general, please just email me at andrebohrer@gmail.com.
I love you guys very much. Even the ones I haven't even met.
Thank you for reading.