So, cleaning out the cupboards tonight. Finally made myself look at the Gerber boxes. I guess it has been a subconscious or not so subconscious move to just keep them in the cupboard. I have moved these boxes in and out of five cupboards now. Yes, these were the boxes of Gerber cereal that Michael didn't finish when he moved onto cheerios. These were the boxes waiting for another baby. These were the boxes that allowed me to get through those "not happening" years to dream of the baby that may someday come. So, I haven't given up the dream, but have decided to admit it won't be soon enough to need any of Michael's leftovers.