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Are you hiding behind someone else's reflection?

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Thanks to my awesome friend Emily for not being creeped out and letting me photograph her!

The curious thing about light is that it has a way of hiding things, of distracting us from what lies in darkness.

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This seems to be my life lately; a constant push and pull, an inability to be made known - a fear to be made known. I've become the lighting technician for a photo shoot that I'm starting to call my life. I get so caught up in worrying about appearances that I forget what's really important, I forget how to even feel important. How about you? What's keeping those parts of you lying in darkness?

I just wish that I could make you understand.
The only thing standing between me and a thirty foot drop is a thin piece of string.
One that seems dangerously insignificant as of late.

I often find that my mental state hangs in a precarious balance; typically somewhere between “still smiling” and “barely breathing”. One moment I’m fine, and the next, a disaster waiting to happen. Social engagement is tiring. Colourful prose brings boredom. Musical speech drives empty. And I’m left hanging. At the end of my rope. Feeling like I’ve nowhere left to go but down: and then what?

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Can anyone relate? I know that I can!
Oh, and IKEA, you rock.

I can't quite nail it down. That feeling. That I'm so completely alone yet so utterly surrounded. That I'm so totally lost yet so knowingly found.
That I'm here.
That you're there.

That the walk is just the beginning.
But the journey is nearly the end.
That the path is long and winding.
But the road is shorter yet.

That the stark black landscape will never engulf me.
For I am untitled, and you cannot put a name to what you do not know.

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Another shot of my friend Nathan with some experimenting using the selective b&w brush. When posting this picture I was having a lot of difficulty naming it because... well I'm not really sure why. I find that this picture speaks to me in so many different ways that I just can't pin it down to one thing - so I'm leaving it up to you. What's the story for you?

I'm supposed to be studying for finals right now... another thing that I'm seemingly unable to do at the moment. Oh well though - it will all be over soon enough! Then on to Christmas, where I hope to take some more pictures and have them up :)

It's not easy; life isn't easy. Sometimes we find ourselves pushing through the hours just to reach an invisible finish line, but for what? What is it that we're looking for - that elusive thing that we can never seem to find?

I wish I had an answer, just like I wish I had purpose.
But give it time, give it time.

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Hello Flickr, it's nice to see you again too ;)
Props go to my friend Nathan for being such a great sport, I feel like I might've been just a tad more photo-crazy than usual on this particular day. Anyway though, this picture kind of speaks about how I've been feeling this past while... kind of lost and not really sure what I'm looking for. Hope you like it.