but treasuring the indentation in your pillow wont keep me warm at night.
i went into this shoot with very low hopes, to be honest. i was kind of looking at it as a test run. i thought of this whole story spur of the moment, on my way home from grabbing lunch (i think of lots of ideas when i drive). there were other details to this i was thinking of adding, but when i got home i couldnt think of an appealing way to add them in (such as a pair of mens shoes sitting on the floor next to the bed - composition just got all funky when adding in other elements). then i figured this would turn into nothing - no one would get it. but in the end, i liked what i created today and its nice to remember art isnt about "getting it." its fine if people dont understand every last bit of an image. i think art is about an experience, and i think that regardless of what you see when you look at this, or how detailed of a story you can create for yourself, you will leave with an experience. i hope. :P
- if you are wondering - to me, this girl lost the love of her life. but they didnt break up. neither one let go intentionally. he died of cancer (beyond just looking nice, i wanted to hint at that a bit through the head scarf - perhaps she wore one to comfort him). thinking of losing my love like that sometimes even keeps me awake at night.
still trying to improve myself by tackling things that scare me - like working on self portraits again!
AND i recently made a tumblr account, where ive been posting about fashion, life, and random experimental art.