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'A Bittersweet Moment'

So something finally good happens to me, with us recently buying a house for the first time in our lives!

Then yesterday morning I had an unsettling dream, and I woke up about 1.30am feeling rather anxious and breathless and couldn't get back to sleep..I felt like something was troubling me, but didn't quite know what..

Later that afternoon I decided to have a hour long therapeutic massage, as I have been very stressed over last couple months with all the dramas of buying our house.

I get back home feeling very relaxed, and not as in much pain, and then I hear a knock on our door. It was my parents. I thought it was strange that they were popping in when it was around tea time.

I started rambling on about my massage, and next i see my Mother hands shaking. She said they had a really bad day, and I said why??

Dad had to have a follow up check up from the prostate operation he had a couple months ago. This is the operation he had for his enlarged prostate, that two specialist said earlier, there was nothing wrong with him, and that he didn't need further tests! Its only because he firmly insisted on them, that they ended up doing a proper test, which revealed there was something wrong with his prostate !

I've been under the impression his tests from the actual operation came back clear, thats what my parents told me...

Well apparently he was told today he has cancer!!! He always though he had it ! He's been bleeding and been in pain since the operation.

They have to do further tests to find out how bad it is...

When he told me i started getting teary, and he started making jokes, and saying he's old anyway, he's had his life . He said if it comes to having chemo, he won't be having it!

I've had cancer, but it's a totally a different feeling to when someone you love get diagnosed with it ! It seems more unreal!

To top it off on the way back home, they were waiting at a stop sign, and some young guy accidentally rammed into the back of their newish car ! (its just been fixed up from another stupid accident!)

I know my Dad hasn't been the best one over the years, but I do love him sooooooooooo much and I just hope it's not too serious, and that he still has many more years left in him!!

I feel sorry for my Mum, her Mum died when she was only 16, she's lost both of my older brothers to illness's She's seems so fragile lately.

They said to me they aren't going to travel next year as planned, as they want to be near one of our big hospitals where dad's files etc are . Which makes me think are they hiding something from me, that it's actually worse than what he's told me??

Just that now DH and I are thinking maybe they found something after his operation, and he chose not to tell me until it was defiantly confirmed today?

We are a tough family, we will cope with whatever happens. It's just a real shame his youngest son, whom he's done so much for in the past, doesn't now have anything to do with Dad. They haven't spoken to each other for years, and this won't change it unfortunately ..

I have heard prostate cancer is not uncommon in elderly men, and some do quite well after treatment, but other's have not been as lucky..

Morale of the story, please make sure you always get anything that is troubling you , health wise double/triple checked if you have any doubts. Don't always take for granted what a doctor/specialist says to you that they know everything, they don't always! Seek a second opinion if you need to !! And don't be worry if anyone thinks you are a hypochondriac . Life is too precious to not take it seriously if something you suspect is going on ! You know your body better than anyone else !

Please treasure your loved ones and never take anything for granted. Life can be so unpredictable and change so quickly ..

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Uploaded on Aug 27, 2009

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Goolwa here we come !!!

Hi everyone :)

So do you all remember when I uploaded this photo and story?

www.flickr.com/photos/julesangel/1990981134/

Well almost 2 years later, it looks like our dream is coming true finally !!

It's a very long story, but between me having a dream one night a couple months ago about living in another house, and our rent going up again, we decided to give it one more shot to at buying house (on our one income)

Out of the blue a house we could afford came up on the net in my dream sea side town 'Goolwa'. We went and had a look at it, and put in an offer straight away. It was knocked back, but a few days later our third offer was accepted, and so we now have a house of our own!! ( It has taken over 5 weeks to get it all organised through our bank, another long very stressful story!, but we got there in the end !)

The only slight problem is that it is still on probate until end of Sept (it's a deceased estate), and so all the official paperwork can't be done until that time. However the vendor and agent are hopefully working out an agreement that we can move in before then, until we can take over properly! So just waiting back to hear, so we can start packing !

It's just a small 2 bedroom fibro house (not asbestos), but it is very neat and tidy, and has a huge back yard, so has heaps of potential to improve it over time ! :)

It does need modernizing, as it belonged to an elderly couple, but will get around to that eventually. I am hoping to create a beach cottage look/feel to it .

I won't post pics of it until it's all 'official' :)

The best part of it is it is just a few mins away from Goolwa Beach !! How lucky was we to get a place as close as this one is for the price we got it for !

So am hoping all goes smoothy, and I can move fwd finally with my life!

The town is much bigger than Strathablyn, so there is more oppuntunities for me/us!

My health is still bad, and my tinnitus has gotten worse, so has my fibromyalgia , but hopefully this will help put me in a better frame of mind to cope better with it all ! :)

Hope all is well with everyone? My apologies for not being around much on flickr. I just don't have the attention span I once had to keep up with all the busyness that goes on in flickrland anymore :(

Anyway just had to share my exciting news with you all !

More about Goolwa here (can't remember how to do links anymore eek! )

www.alexandrina.sa.gov.au/site/page.cfm?u=528

It's near quite a few other beautiful coastal towns, which don't take long to get to by car. :)

Anyway I am off to bed, but will be back tomorrow to read all your comments. Goodnight :)

Love

Jules xoxoxo

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Uploaded on Aug 10, 2009

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Brrr it's getting very cold in Jules backyard!

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Just one of many cute pics that I took of giraffes at Monarto Zoo yesterday We attended a friend's and fellow South Australian flickrite (Princess Bren) 40th birthday luncheon there, and after we watched the giraffes being fed :).

It rained for most of the time we were there, so I was lucky to have been able to get a few pics of them :)

Orton effect applied by my husband MichaelSA (Thank you Michael)



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Uploaded on Jun 8, 2009

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