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(#52/365)

Genesis spreads as old days fading…
Exuberant life charm triggers again
Apart from all the malice once
Tormented the being…
Silky time flows nonchalantly;
Days possess every detail;
Night chants the moony carols.
Susceptible mind unites the poles.
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I am fine now. Just taking advantage of emotions for a release.

I lost my wireless remote and finally found it yesterday, in all places... the bottom of my purse. I don't even know it was there because I never take it in there. I can finish catching up now. I'm a bit late on this, but thanks so much to Jade & Jack for their testimonials! Also for both of their's and Cindy's dedication photo! You're all such amazing friends and such an inspiration!

Have a great day everyone!

(#51/365)

Those petals that burned out for but a moment.
By an ice-cold flame, withered in the night.
Oh my precious, where am I?
I can't sneak out to hide in the sediment.
But I'm feeling you in that flickering light.
When I awoke in the morning, I had forgotten things that had stopped.
Aflood in a warm rain that gentle noise went away.
Why am I the only that cannot be washed away?
You're fading from my sight, my voice keeps choking up.
I can't yell anything.
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I really don't like this one, but I am posting because I need to start catching up, for real now. I hope everyone has been enjoying their weekend. I've been doing a bit better. Yesterday, my husband and I had gone out driving and stopped at a field nearby and actually witnessed someone abandon their dog there. They dumped food out on the grass and the poor dog was running after their van looking like "where are you going?!". She was so terrified it was awful. With a bit of patience we rescued her. She's the sweetest dog. And I am so happy that my Grandmother decided to keep her! She just lost hers last week and wasn't looking to get another this quick, but couldn't let this little sweetie go. We're such suckers for animals. ;)

(#50/365)

These tears are the tears of broken dreams, they shatter beyond repair. So I will cry these tears tonight, knowing that you are gone. Knowing it was my fault... These tears crumble and roll down my cheeks. Giant boulders of sorrow, they tear me completely to shreds. This becomes my final punishment... The pain and the weight, guilt buried itself inside my sorrow. It bursts out as these tears and I accept them. These are the tears of consequence...
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(#49/365)

It's been awhile, a whole week. I don't know what's been going on but this past week has just been awful and full of bad things for me and some close to me. I want to apologize for making some of you worry, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your thoughtful messages asking about how I am doing and where I have been. Thank you so much. Right after my last upload one of our family dogs had to be put to sleep and I know for some that isn't very much, but my family and I especially, it is just devastating. She battled cancer for 10 years, for a dog... that is just beyond incredible. This makes it 3, 3 years in a row (one each year, around the same time of year), a total of 4.

On top of that, there has been some betrayal and hurt from a member of our family. An in-law has decided that affairs are acceptable and wants to up and leave their family behind with no question or regard to how they're affected by this change. I can't even begin to go on the other things that have happened in this week but it has put me into a place that I never thought I would be in and I have never felt so low as I am right now. I don't want to get out of bed in the morning and I've just wanted to isolate myself from the outside.

I know that it's not the answer and won't help me get over these obstacles. So here I am, trying to get back on track and I know I have some wonderful people to support me. I won't give up on this 365, no matter what. So I have some making up to do, thankfully not the entire week I was away. Thank you so much for all your concern and thoughtfulness. ♥

I know this is a dark lit and toned photo, but that was intended. I think it best represents the way I've been feeling and captures the mood I've been in these few days.

(#48/365)

Without breathing, closing our eyes.
Let's just entrust ourselves to the flow.
The gravity of the pale moon causes us to waver and sink.
Softly, like the crashing waves that was like a cradle.

I float in cosmos, for the place to return.
Living or dying, there is no meaning.
There is no past, no future, no nothing.
There's no one around, and I'm not even alone.
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I know I am doing a lot of self portraits lately.
Please bear with me, I am experimenting, playing, whatever you want to call it. :)

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