I have pondered it several times while I was nursing depression. But there were times where I wondered what it might feel like to jump down off a cliff. The wind that you'll feel before everything suddenly stops.
Sometimes, I do feel ashamed of the thoughts. I may not be a religious person but deep inside I think I am capable of going into a deep spiritual journey.
That evening on top of Mount Emei, for the first time being above the skies, I did wonder, in its beauty and serenity, what'd be like to complete a round of prayers and truly see that life is beautiful and that it is okay to go now and take a leap.