Swallowed In The Sea

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    Are the streets you're walking on,
    A thousand houses long?
    Well that's where I belong,
    And you belong with me,
    Not swallowed in the sea.
    - Coldplay, Swallowed in the Sea

    Hello my friends, long time no see! I have pretty much been neither here nor there for the past while. About 8 weeks ago I saw someone killed in a terrible snowmobiling accident. It was really bad.

    I was really surprised at how hard it hit me. At first I was really depressed and slept a lot, then I couldn’t seem to get off the couch. For the next few weeks I found myself just going through the motions. Visions of what I had seen just kept going through my mind. One day I was an emotional mess the next I felt numb and detached from reality. When I did finally start feeling better I felt guilty because I was moving on but my friend was still dead.

    Family and Friends tried to help, and I took comfort in knowing that they were there for me but I found that this was something I really had to go through on my own. It felt like I had a broken leg, it was just going to take some time to heal.

    So it’s been two months and felt it was time to try to express these feelings in a photo. I wanted to show the feelings that I was going through – sadness, guilt, vapidness, confusion and isolation. I am feeling better now, but I don’t think I will ever be the same.

    Thank you for all of your help and support during this rough time. I hope that I will be able to return the favor some day.

    ~Kelly

    p.s. Yea, Chuck it does look like I've lost the remote. :)

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    1. KellyB. 63 months ago | reply

      Heron, thanks for your kind words. I think I was OK with the death, but the way that it happened really threw me. The gore, for a lack of a better word, was really bad. That and the fact that she was only 22. The Post Traumatic Stress took over for a while.

      Chuck, that is funny. It made me laugh, out loud even. Heavy stuff becomes much easier to carry with some light humor.

      Thanks to you both for your thoughts.

    2. alison.livingston 62 months ago | reply

      Oh God that sounds awful. I am so sorry. No advice, just sympathy for you.

    3. kumquat24u 43 months ago | reply

      I'm struck by your photo, having looked at many here. Yours stands out with it's depth, having read the background, I'd like your permission to use this in medical brochure I'm doing on depression for a physicians office practice. Would that be ok? I think your photo could impact many who might be also struggling with depression to know they aren't alone. I will include credits to you within the publication. Thank you so much.
      Leanne
      Please reply to coffmanleanne@yahoo.com

    4. hipnopsi 28 months ago | reply

      Publicada en: Reflepsiones

      Thanks!

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