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Please Send Healing/Prayers to Mum

Since last Monday, my mum has been on a drip as she isnt eating or drinking very much, perhaps due to not wanting to, or just forgotten to, I dont know as we cant communicate which is damn hard as I dont know what to say to her. She was taken off the drip yesterday as they say it is just prolonging the agony so to speak.

I worry if she actually knows she is dying, what is she thinking or feeling, is she afraid, is she afraid for me and trying to hold on? Do I speak to her of her death or do I pretend it isnt happening as I dont want to freak her out? I want to tell her she will be ok and most of our family will be waiting for her and she will be at peace with them (although no-one has truly come back to tell us that this happens and im not sure I believe anything)??? Help me someone, I am trying so hard to be strong. And I also should be there with her right now...but im on this damn pc trying to catch up with allmy emails mostly spam which are never ending and all my various webpages like this one...im exhausted, there just isnt enough time in the day...and im still ttc (as ive been trying for a family of my own, to no avail for years, im not only losing my own mother, but the chance to ever be a mother myself, and im also still looking for work...

I also worry but my mums funeral, there were only 11 people at my aunts in January, as I have practically no family or close friends left, and how and where or do I even organise a wake??? She is skin and bone, very frail, unable to communicate or do anything for herself. I am the only person that visits her, as my uncle, her brother, is also very ill and elderly. She is 81 and half, and my Dad would have been turning this age also this month (July) if he had not passed away with Alzheimers 17 years ago, at only 64. Again could I ask those of you who know me and care to send healing and prayers...it is well appreciated. Thanks.

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