Marriage

The night I arrived at DMS, I proposed to Roshnii. She closed her eyes for a few seconds and said yes!
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Everything feels so completely right and I am so very happy.

Roshnii had just completed an intensive spiritual training in meditation and social service work, lasting six weeks. She had been thinking to then work as a full-time volunteer for a number of months, which would separate us for that period. Now, I know very well (as I have been such a full-time volunteer myself) that when a person undertakes that role there is every chance that inspiration comes to carry on as a committed volunteer for life, as a yogic missionary. That is, an independent, celibate yogic monk or nun.

I had fully prepared myself for the possibility that we may never be together again. It was painful and harsh, but I knew that I had to release her and any attachment I had for her. But all the while I truly felt that everything was happening in the right way, that the outcome would be right. But I could not know what that outcome would be, and I knew that any imposition of my will or desire would never create a happy result in the long-term. I could never hold her back if that was to be her path.

As it happened, she did not feel the pull to be a full-time volunteer. Instead, she wanted to return to Manchester and help build community projects there. I virtually interrogated her to ensure she was doing what she really wanted, that she would not one day regret her decision. When she said it was the right choice, I asked her to marry me. And now I feel like such a lucky man.

I never expected this so soon. It just crept up on us both, and I feel more sure of this committment than I have ever been of anything.