:/ When it rains it pours.

My godchild was just born.It's a girl .

She has a bad heart condition, extra fingers and toes. On top of this she wouldn't open her legs in the ultrasound because something is wrong with one of them. They are saying it could be some genetic mishap it takes 7-10 day to get the results back but they are also saying it could be from the Depo Shot. I had the depo shot and that is when I became pregnant with my daughter. I lost her at 6 months under similar conditions.

The doctors said to marlas mom that these are the type of babies that usually spontaneously abort and why marla was so sick. I'm crying they don't know if she is going to make it but they are leaning toward no.

They didn't see this on ultrasound? They didnt tell marla? They still have not let her mom back to see her and she is finally getting wheeled down at this moment to see her daughter for the first time.

In my heart I don't know what to think there is corrective surgery for some but not all, she will have a hard life they all will. She might not make it or make it only a few years. With all of me I wish everything was correctable and somehow she'd have a normal life.

Other part of me feels horrible for saying I wish she would pass away and go in peace that all could heal and there would be no struggle and less pain.

I'm so freaking upset right now that I can't be there (i've been exposed to chicken pox my mom has the retrovirus shingles so I have to stay away) :/